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Chapter 3

A Realization

Kagome watched InuYasha's face saden. She didn't realize what she had said until after. Then it hit her. Did she like being half demon? Did she hate being a half demon? InuYasha was thinking the same thing. InuYasha felt heavy. If she didn't like being a half demon does that mean she didn't like half demons? Was InuYasha just a burden to her? No. She loved him… didn't she?

"InuYasha. I didn't..." Kagome pause. She didn't know what to say. The room was quiet. Shippo and Rin were glancing at each other then back at Kagome and InuYasha. Itsumi felt awkward. She didn't know them very well and she didn't know if she should say something or not.

"Umm… I will take my leave." Kagome slowly turned to look at her. InuYasha started feeling angry. He was angry at Kagome but he was angry with Itsumi. He was angry at her for coming. If she didn't come, Kagome wouldn't have said anything. If she hadn't come… InuYasha wouldn't have heard those hurtful words. Those three words broke his heart.

"Are you sure? There will be more demo-"

"Leave." InuYasha said angrily. Kagome wiped her head around to see him. His eyes were dark with anger and he had clenched fists. Kagome new it was her fault but she didn't know why he was taking it out on Itsumi. Itsumi hesitated but walked over to her bow and arrows and grabbed them. She started walking until Kagome walking in front of her.

"No. You don't have to go. You can stay for the ni-"

"I said leave!" InuYasha yelled as he stared at Itsumi. Itsumi jumped and tried to get around Kagome but as she stepped out of the cave, Kagome grabbed her arm and then turned to stare at InuYasha.

"InuYasha. It is dangerous outside. We can't make her leave." InuYasha stared at Kagome but then ran off.

"InuYasha!" Kagome yelled.

"Itsumi. I need you to stay here and look after Shippo and Rin. Can you do that for me?"

"Y-ya. No problem." She stuttered. Everyone watched as Kagome raced off into InuYasha's direction.

"Why did I say that? What was I thinking? Of course InuYasha is upset. I'm so stupid. He probably thinks I hate him!" She said to herself as she ran. She ended up finding a river. She looked around and then spotted him sitting on a big rock in the middle of the river. Kagome slowly walked towards the river and then jumped on the rock, landing on it gently.

"Did you mean that?" InuYasha asked after a long time as he stared at the sky.

"No. InuYasha. I didn't mean to say that." Kagome said as she sat down and stared at him with pained eyes.

"That doesn't answer my question." Kagome New what he meant. She sat with her legs tucked into her chest as she wrapped her arms around herself. Did she mean what she said or did she not? She wanted to be back to normal. She didn't want to have all the responsibilities or the mixed up emotions she was learning to control. But she loved being able to do the things InuYasha could do. She new that she made him happy. Being a half demon made her just that much more special to him because he knew she was ok with it. At least, he thought she was ok with it.

"Do you hate what I am?" He finally asked with a pained voice. It hurt to think about it, but it hurted him more to ask.

"Of course I don't! I love you!" Kagome said in defence. She was made at herself for making him think that. She hated herself for making him sad. He didn't say anything as he still waited for an answer to the first question.

"InuYasha." She paused, afraid of what he would say if she told him the truth.

"I don't know. I want to go back to normal. I don't want to feel mixed up inside all the time… but I don't want to go back to normal at the same time. I like being able to do the things you do. I like being the same as you… I don't know." InuYasha slowly turned his head to look at her with sorrow but to his surprise, she was crying.

"Maybe if I go back to normal, all the responsibilities I have with this necklace might disappear." She cried. InuYasha looked at her with carrying eyes.

"I-I-If I go back to normal, all theses mixed up feelings inside might disappear." She stuttered. InuYasha watched as she cried into her arms that were wrapped around herself. He slowly wrapped his arms around her. He was a human which means he doesn't have his demon powers, but he could still smell the sweet scent of cherry blossom. She wrapped her arms around him and cried into his robe. She took in his sent. It was different now. He now smelled like morning dew. The kind of dew that was thick and foggy. They stayed like this for a long time.

"Kagome. I'm sorry." Kagome was confused. She looked up at him. He was starting at the sky.

"Sorry for what?" Kagome asked with tears in her eyes still. InuYasha slowly turned his head to look at her and then he hugged her tightly, resting his head on her shoulder.

"I didn't know you were this hurt." He said as he bared his head into her neck.

"I didn't want you to know." She said as she hugged him back.

"I don't like it when people see my pain. It's been so hard to take control over my emotions. There so mixed up that I don't know what is what anymore." She paused as she took a deep breath.

"Is this how you feel all the time?" InuYasha thought. He did feel like that, that's partly why he doesn't know if he wants to be full demon or full human. He knew that if he turned demon, he might end up hurting Kagome. But he also knew that if he was human, he would lose all his powers. This mixed up feel was also the reason why he couldn't get over Kikyo.

"Yes. I do feel that way… but only when I'm half demon. When I turn human or demon, I know exactly what I want and what to do." He mumbled into her neck, give her goosebumps. He didn't want Kagome to see his pained face. They pulled away as Kagome tried to wipe her eyes.

"Do you like being half demon?" Kagome asked after a long pause. She was looking up at the sky. InuYasha looked at her then up at the sky as well. The sun was starting to come up. The sky was turning a faint pink colour.

"No. Everyone hates me and no one understands how I feel… except for you. If I could live with you for the rest of my life, being half demon would be bearable. I wouldn't have to worry about anything." Kagome looked at InuYasha in pain. She now knew how hard it was for him. She shared his pain, his sorrow, his worry, his doubts, but mostly, his hope. She felt the same way. If she stayed half demon, it would be bad because she be with him. InuYasha slowly turned his head to look at her. As the sky changed, InuYasha started to feel himself change. His human self was reluctant to let go. Before he changed, he leaned in and kissed her. She kissed him back. When they opened their eyes, InuYasha was back to normal again.

"We should go check on them. I left Itsumi with them." InuYasha looked at her in surprise.

"You did WHAT!?" He yelled in panic.

"Come on!" He yelled as he grabbed her hand and started to run back to the cave. As they ran, InuYasha kept mumbling about Sesshōmaru and Rin the whole way there. When they got back to the cave, Rin was laughing as Itsumi through her hands in the air. She looked like she was telling a story as she stomped around the cave. Shippo was sitting in Rin's lap as he laughed along with her. When InuYasha and Kagome stepped into the cave, Itsumi froze with her back to them. She then slowly turned around and looked at them in embarrassment.

"How much of that did you see?" She asked. Kagome giggled.

"On,y you stomping around." InuYasha teased. Itsumi jumped back in surprise as she looked at him. He had white, long hair, white ears, fangs, and claws. He looked like another version of Kagome but with different coloured hair and ears.

"I ain't going to hurt you." InuYasha said as he crossed his arms. Before anyone could say anything, Rin jumped to her feet, as she held Shippo.

"Itsumi is staying!" She announces as she danced around. Kagome smiled softly at her. InuYasha, on the other hand, huffed as he crossed his arms and leaned against the wall.

"I want to help. If this "god" is as powerful as you say he is, you may need more help. I was also thinking… about what you said earlier. I would like to kill only bad demons. I was hoping I could learn more about demons as I travel with you." She said shyly.

"We would be glad to have you tag along!" Kagome said in her cheery voice. InuYasha sighed as he watched Kagome start putting away their things.

"Rin, Shippo. Are you tired?" Kagome asked as she looked up at them. They were fast asleep. Shippo was once again in Rin's lap as she leaned against the wall.

"I'll take them if you take the bag again InuYasha." Kagome said as she gestured to Rin, Shippo, and Itsumi.

"Oh no. I'm ok. I have my own way of traveling around." She bent down and punched a bitten on her shews. She started floating.

"This is a family heirloom. They are called Hikōgutsu (flying shoes - Pronounced Ke-ko-tsu) They help me get everywhere." She explained.

"That's so cool!" Kagome exclaimed. She then froze and remembered that Rin and Shippo were sleeping. Kagome then remembered that the shoes reminded her of the shoes one of the thunder brothers was wearing so long ago. She then remembered how she had called InuYasha her lover to get them to find him. She never imagined that it would actually be true. She giggled.

"What are you laughing about?" InuYasha huffed with a glare.

"Oh, nothing. Nothing at all." She said and then walked over to Rin and Shippo. She gently picked them up and then everyone was off.

Writer's Note:

This story starts off a little slow

But I Promise You It's Worth It!

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