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Chapter 3
Back in my room, staring in the book, dazed by the memory, thinking of a reason why I was feeling this way. Replaying the scene of Jacob getting upset at me and then I followed him into the woods, it was something I would have never done. I still had Jacob on my mind, thinking about the hug in the meadow. Does he notice the way I'm acting. No, it must be some foolish teenage feelings, I must be paranoid. But he is after all still a teenager himself. A knock at my door startled me. I tried to start reading my book. Shoot has Edward been listing to my thoughts this whole time, maybe he was to busy or distracted with something else.
"Renesmee?" Bella pokes her head through the door, "can I come in?"
"Sure." I sit up from my bed, making space for her to sit. She glides towards my bed with her perfect face. I felt the cold when she sat inches away. I'm half vampire but my body was not as cold as my family, I still flinch to the touch of their hands. I stare at her eyes waiting for her to talk. She place her hand on one my curls, twirling it in her hand.
"I just want to make sure your ok from school today? I know Edward pushed the discussion aside and I don't…" I looked away towards the window, staring away from Bella as she continued to talk.
"Bella, everything was fine," I turned back with a forced half smile, "I promise you. It's actually better then last year." She continues to play with my curls, unaware of her hands moving.
"Ok. You know Renesmee, you can tell me anything?" Does she know what I'm feeling and was thinking earlier, maybe Edward told her. But I was not comfortable to discuss this with Bella, after all Jacob and her had this 'thing' with each other. It might just be awkward.
"I know" Smiling to reassure her, I stood up and looked out the window. She came up from behind me.
"Good night Hun." She gave me a kiss on my cheek and walked out my room, closing the door behind her. I took a deep breath in and let it out. I should ask for some advice but maybe not Bella. That does not leave me with much choice. Rosalie is not too fond of Jacob, they can be civil but she prefers a different choice of man. Alice, she might not be able to contain a secret. Esme! I know Esme will keep it a secret and give me the advice I need. I will ask her tomorrow. I looked at the time, 8:00 p.m. I guess I can go to sleep for school tomorrow. Changing into my pajamas, I stared at the picture frame with me and Jacob in it. It was on my last birthday. The look he was giving was so different comparing to the year before. I never realized it till now. I picked it up to get a better look. I felt the heat radiant behind me and before I can turn around, hands were wrapped around my eyes.
"Guess who?"
"Theirs only one man I know who beams off heat, smells like woods, and that would dare sneak in through my window at this time." I moved his hand and turned around to face Jake. He chuckled and smiled and kissed me on my cheek.
"I missed you Ness."
"It's only been a couple of hours." I smiled and turned around to put the picture back.
"What's that?" He reached behind me to look at the picture. He stared at it and the famous smile of his made an appearance again.
"It's from my last birthday." I went and sat down on my bed, watching him in awe over the picture. My cheeks started to heat up, as I blushed. Jake put the picture down on the dresser and made his way to my bed. He sat down and fidgeted with his hands.
"Do you want me to go to school with you tomorrow?" he waited anxiously for my answer. I did tell him I only needed him till I was comfortable enough to go alone. Maybe he thought I didn't need him to anymore. He looked up at me still waiting.
"Just make sure your on time." His smile gleamed through. He lifted his right arm and reached for my face and ran his hands on my cheeks.
"Thank you." I squinted my eyes, in a little confusion.
"For what?" He put down his hand and went back to fidgeting.
"Letting me go with you, at least its sometime we can spend together, right?" I thought four to five days a week was a lot of time before. Now we are going on an everyday basis of seeing each other. "Since I work in the afternoons, I can't really see you as much. It's the least I can do is bring you to school and be around." Jacob was a mechanic part time, on his off time, he was over with me. It was a lot of traveling going back and forth from Shelton to Forks, but Jake never mind it. It was silent for sometime, I drifted off into thinking about Jake. He was lying back on my bed over my legs, drifting into his own thought as well. I wonder if it was about me. This was a usual. Spending time in silence was our favorite hobbies, just enjoying our presence. Being so silent, it was difficult for Edward or Bella to hear us or even know Jake was here. Chances are their busy doing something. I just forgott about the time. I looked over to the clock. Shoot it was midnight.
"Jake. Jake." I nudged him out of his thought. He turned over to look at me.
"The time, its midnight, I need to be sleeping for tomorrow." It was going to be sometime before Jake can make it to Forks as well. He sat up and went to stand up.
"Are you going back home Jake? It's extremely late." He ran his hand through his hair and finishing putting them on his temples. I know he can sleep in the woods in wolf form.
"ya Ness, tha's fine. I'm a wolf." He peeked his eyes under his hand giving me a mischief smile. But through those eyes, I could see he was beyond tired and dreaded the run back to his home. My eyes just stared and my head started to a plan. No, I can't.
"Jake! Stay here…. Ah.." I bit the bottom of my lip and looked down at my hands. O jeeze what I just say and do. What happens if he says yes? What happens if he says no? He stared at me and tried to read my reaction.
"Are you sure Ness, I don't want to get you in trouble." I looked up at him and my stomach filled with butterflies. Jake has stayed in my room to watch me for a couple hours while I slept but he never physically slept in bed with me. When I was younger, I always snuggle into his warmth body; he always put me to bed when I would just pass out. As I grew older, Edward and Bella, didn't approve of the whole snuggling idea, my body has changed since then. I was no longer a girl but growing into a woman. I debated it once more in my head. The feeling in my stomach was so strong but I just couldn't tell him no, after I made the invite. Maybe I should say he's right. Of course that didn't come out.
"Yes, I'm sure…" again, I bit the bottom of lip. He noticed my nerves and put his hand on my shoulder.
"If you think this is a bad idea, I don't mind going home. Don't feel bad for me." He nudged my chin up to look at him.
"No, stay…please" I looked up at him and smile to reassure him. I got up and tip toed to the door and turned the lock on the knob. Even though any of my family can kick this door down, they respected my privacy and knocked.
"Ness I promise to be good…" I walked back to the bed and organized the pillow to make a fortress for my side.
"I know you will" I smirked back to his comment. Jake waited till I fixed the pillows. I laid to the corner side of the bed, against the wall. Jacob lay next to me. We laid flat like a table, nervous to make a move. Finally Jake chuckled.
"This is a little uncomfortable. Let me fix this." He threw my pillows to the corner and laid out his arm and gripped my body to come closer to his. He motioned my head to lay on his arm and for my body to twist into his. We were entwined together. My heart started to race and I knew he can feel it. I just realized he didn't have a shirt on. His chest was a perfectition. My heart raced even more. I tried to look at something else but my eyes stayed on Jake.
"Ness don't be nervous" He looked down at me, staring, and gave me a kiss on my forehead and dazed off. His body gave off so much heat, I didn't need a blanket. I stayed up a little longer nervous and excited that Jake said yes. It felt so good to be lying with him. He was holding so tight, even in his sleep. It felt like I was protected. What does this mean now. I slowly drifted to sleep with my head on his chest as he continued to breathe up and down.
JPOV
Sitting on the couch in my home, well Billy's home, I stared at the TV but I wasn't watching it, Nessie was on my mind, as always. Her auburn, long, curly hair and large, brown eyes staring back at me in our meadow. The stare was something different. It wasn't the same look Ness gave me. She stared at me, deep into my eyes. Her heart beat thump in nervous way but not a bad nervous. More of an exciting thump. I know she was in her final aging process but time flew by. Soon enough Nessie is going to be dating. She knew I imprinted on her but she only knew that I will always be there for her no matter what she needed me for. That could be a big brother, best friends, or more than that. Did she feel the same was as I felt for her. What happenings if she dates. It's not like I can do anything about it. I have to be happy with whatever she decides. But that look. That look earlier is assuring me Ness is feeling some type of way for me. I looked at the time, it's not to late I can sneak in and out to say goodnight to her. I must see her tonight, her image will not leave my mind. I raced out the back door and waited to get in the woods and phased. It will only take me a few minutes to get to her house. Shelton wasn't to far from Forks in supernatural speed. As I ran, all I can think about was her eyes. I slowly reached her house and looked around to see if any of her family was around. The lights were dim in the house. Bella and Edwards room was downstairs on the opposite side of Nessie, giving lots of privacy. I phased back in my human form and slipped on my grey sweat pants. I would grab a shirt in Ness room, I always had extra clothes here for phasing reasons. I looked up to her room and saw her back. I jumped up to her window and sled the window open, quietly so she couldn't hear me. I tiptoed behind her and covered her eyes.
"Guess who?"
"Theirs only one man I know who beams off heat, smells like woods, and that would dare sneak in through my window at this time." She moved my hand and turned around to face me. I chuckled and smiled and kissed her on the cheek. She looked beautiful as always. Standing their with her pjs, she held a frame in her hand.
"I missed you Ness."
"It's only been a couple of hours." I smiled. She put the frame down on the dresser.
"What's that?" I reached behind her to look at the picture. I stared at it and couldn't help but have a huge smile. It was a picture from her last birthday. She was wearing a green dress. We both stared into each others eyes in that photo. I know that day she was starting to feel different feelings. I didn't need Edward to tell me his speech after that to let me know. He always gave me the speech of Nessie being young and even though her body and mind beg to differ, she was still their baby.
"It's from my last birthday." She went and sat down on her bed, I continued to watch in awe over the picture. I put the picture down on the dresser and made my way to her bed. She had an all white bed, white sheets, and white pillows. Her auburn hair stood out from all the white. I sat down and fidgeted with his hands. I had questions for her but I was afraid of the answer.
"Do you want me to go to school with you tomorrow?" I waited anxiously for an answer. I couldn't handle a rejection, not even a dumb little one as such. I looked up at her still waiting.
"Just make sure your on time." I smiled and lifted my right arm and reached for her face and ran my hands on her cheeks.
"Thank you." I looked at her and smiled.
"For what?" I put my hand down and went back to fidgeting. I know she must think I'm crazy or obsessed. Crazy, but it was an obsession. I had to be with Ness as much as possible through out the day. If I wasn't, my heart would be in pain like if half of me was missing. I just couldn't tell her the real reason. Not just yet.
"Letting me go with you, at least its sometime we can spend together. Right? Since I work in the afternoons, I can't really see you as much. It's the least I can do is bring you to school and be around." I was a mechanic part time, on my off time I was over with Ness. Any time I had I was with Nessie. It was a lot of traveling going back and forth from Shelton to Forks, but I never mind it. It was silent for sometime, I layed back against her legs and closed my eyes. All I can think about was how I can tell Nessie we are meant for each other. What happens if she doesn't feel the same way back? I don't want to force that she's my soul mate. I want her to make her own decisions. I laid their debating when Ness whispered to me, nudging my arm.
"Jake. Jake." I turned over to look at her.
"The time, its midnight, I need to be sleeping for tomorrow." I stretched out and sat up and went to stand up. I looked over at Ness.
"Are you going back home Jake? It's extremely late." I ran my hand through my hair and then made my way down to rub my temple. It's been a long week for me. Putting on extra hours on work, patrolling with pack, and being here for Nessie was taking a toll on me. She looked at me worried.
"ya Ness, that's fine. I'm a wolf." I peeked my eyes under my hands sending her a mischief smile to comfort. All of sudden she spoke out.
"Jake! Stay here…. Ah.." Ness spurted out and then bit the bottom of her lip and looked down. Did she just ask me to stay? I never slept in the bed with her, maybe she meant the floor. Not that I wouldn't mind. I looked at her being nervous, "Are you sure Ness, I don't want to get you in trouble." Not trying to show my anxiousness, I stared waiting for answer. She finally responded.
"Yes, I'm sure…" Nessie looked nervous; it was her signature move biting her bottom lip, such a Bella move. I put my hand on her shoulder and as much as I didn't want to say the next words, I just had to, "if you think this is a bad idea, I don't mind going home. Don't feel bad for me." I nudged her chin up to look at me.
"No, stay…please" Nessie said with a reassuring smile. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I couldn't let me nerves take over. I got to keep it cool. She got up and locked the door and came back to res arrange her pillows, "Ness, I promise to be good…"
She smirked back; "I know you will" I waited till she was done and positioned on the bed before laying down. We both lay flat as a board with no movements. It was uncomfortable. I chucked and turned to look at her, "this is a little uncomfortable. Let me fix this." I threw her pillows to the corner and laid out my arm. Gripping her body with my other arm, I pushed Ness closer to me, motioning her head to lay on my arms and for her body to twist into mine. We were entwined together. I just realized I never put that shirt on. I felt Nessie heart racing. I tried not to think of what was taking place before my heart started racing with hers. Their has to be at least one of us that's not nervous and Ness sailed on that nervous ship a while ago. "Ness don't be nervous" I looked down at her and stared into her eyes. I finally gave her a kiss on her forehead and tighten my hold and dazed off. I didn't want this night to end. It just felt so right with her in my arms.
