Remembering is an act of resurrection, each repetition a vital layer of mourning, in memory of those we are sure to meet again. ~Nancy Cobb, in "In Lieu of Flowers"

A Week Later

Santana shifted uncomfortably in her chair. She watched as everyone took their turns kneeling before the casket that contained her loved one. She felt emotionless, inside she felt as if she was dying. She sees Brittany's mom coming towards her. Brittany's mom hugs Santana tightly and weeps.

"She was my little girl…" Brittany's mom said in between sobs.

"I know… She was my life." Santana said.

The ceremony began and all Santana wanted to do was be far away from it. She didn't want to see Brittany lying there in the casket. She didn't want to see everyone mourning the loss of her girlfriend. She just wanted to get away from it all.

"Now… Santana Lopez would like to say a few words before the body get cremated." The priest said as he took a seat.

Santana stood up and walked slowly towards the Alter. She looked at the body and tears were threatening to spill out. The Latina turned around and looked at all the people that came.

"I… I have known Brittany since I was a little girl… I remember meeting her at the shore. Instantly I knew she was going to be someone important in my life and she is. We were best friends and in high school we kinda drifted apart because I developed feelings for her… And I was scared. So scared and I regret it. I regret not telling her that I loved her every day. I regret not singing a duet with her every day in Glee club. I regret hurting her everyday because I was afraid…" Santana took a deep breath and tears start coming down. "I'm sorry." Santana laughs out and wipes the tears. "I love her more than I have ever loved anyone in the world. I'm going to miss you, Britt." Santana walked down the Altar, but instead of taking her seat she walks outside.

"Where is she going?" Finn asked.

"I get her. I would walk out of the room or pause the T.V whenever Grace died in Avatar." Sam whispers to Finn.

"I'll go check on her." Quinn says as she gets out of her seat. She walks towards the exit and looks for Santana. She can't find her anywhere. She walks over to the back and sees Santana on one of the swings. "What are you doing? You're going to miss the rest of the ceremony…"

As Quinn got closer she can see that Santana was crying. Quinn wraps her arms around the Latina."Hey… Don't cry. She wouldn't want you to cry."

"Before she died… She was mad at me, Quinn! I-I did something I wasn't supposed to do… And that was it." Santana let out a sob. "I can't believe she's gone…"

"No one can… She may be gone, Santana, but she'll always be there watching over you. Trust me, even if she was mad… She can never stay mad at you. She loved you." Quinn hugged her best friend tighter and felt a tear fall down her cheek. That's it. Her best friend is a mess and her other best friend is gone. Quinn thought that all three of them would grow old together. Be best friends for life. The Unholy Trinity, the three musketeers.

So there they were with pain in their hearts. Mourning someone they both loved. There cried soon passed and they sat there watching the leaves move along with the breeze. Quinn looked around as she heard people coming out of the building. She watched as the casket was being placed in a hearse.

"Hey, S. The cremation is going to happen now. Let's go… Okay?" Quinn squeezed Santana's shoulder and walked over to her car.

Santana stayed on the swing for a few minutes. She breathed in the fall air and looked up at the sky. She then got up and walked over to Quinn's car. The brunette got in and they drove to the place where the cremation was being held.

Santana and Quinn got out of the car when they reached the place. They entered the building and a man directed them to the room where the cremation chamber was. They both watched from the other room where there was a huge window.

Santana watched as her first real love was being put into the cremation chamber. She couldn't feel anything. She was numb. Since Brittany is gone she felt as if her life meant nothing anymore, that there isn't anything worth living for.

"Do you want to go? This process takes about three hours… We'll come back when it's over." Quinn said carefully.

Santana just nodded her head and walked out of the door without saying a word. Isn't love supposed to be forever? How is it supposed to be forever when the other one dies? Santana tried to control herself from breaking down, but it was too much. She's been too strong for too long. As Santana exited out the building she fell to her knees and cried. How is she gonna live her life now?

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