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Myles stood for a few moments looking at one of his closest friends, a friendship he treasured and knew he could very well destroy with the conversation they were about to have but he also knew it was time and he was just about ready to deal with the consequences.

"I'll tell you what happened Luce, I think it's time you knew, but first answer this question, How much did you know about Jenna's life before she came to DC?"

Lucy remained deep in thoughts staring out of her window, she knew this was going to be difficult to hear especially coming from Myles, given their history, but she needed to know what happened and turning to face him she answered his question

"Not much only what she told me, that she was born in Italy, but moved to Colorado when she was five years old, left school at 16, went to collage but dropped out for a year to go travelling, before moving to DC."

"Do you know where she travelled to?"

"She told me Australia, Austria, Japan and then finally spent a few months in France and Spain"

Myles took a deep breath to prepare himself to tell Lucy the truth about where she had really spent a year "Lucy she did leave but she didn't go to those countries, she went to..." he paused again before he said the word "Pakistan"

"Pakistan, why would she go travelling to Pakistan?"

"She didn't travel Lucy; she was there with her husband"

"Her what? Jenna wasn't married when I knew her"

"She was but she was a widowed not long after coming to DC, she never spoke about her husband to you because if she did you would know of her lifestyle."

Walking over Myles took her hand and led her to the sofa, Lucy this is going to get a lot worse believe me. I really think you should be sitting down for this. Lucy let Myles lead her to the sofa and she sat ready to hear about Jenna's real life

"Lucy, Jenna was in collage that part is true, but the reason she dropped out of collage isn't, she didn't leave to go travelling, she left with a man"

"Who?"

"A man by the name of Mohammed Haran a member of a terrorist group known simply as E.P.T or Extreme Pakistani Terrorists. They were responsible for a number of road side bombings in Pakistan, a nightclub bombing in Turkey, a office bomb in Japan, there were several bombings six years ago that claimed responsibility for"

"What as this got to do with Jenna?"

"Jenna was a science and electronic master, there wasn't a lot she couldn't put together or build. Haran discovered this fact and they got together, he asked her to go to Pakistan seemingly to meet his parents for a few weeks, but they stayed for over a year"

"Why? Did he keep her captive?"

"No Luce, she stayed of her own accord, they got married and after three months he asked her to prepare an item. A bomb, which was used in the bombing of a nursery in the centre of Pakistan, Luce 15 children under the age of 4 were killed in the blast along with three adults"

Lucy looked at him trying to process everything he was saying, her friend prepared a bomb which killed children

"You ok Luce?" he asked

"Yeah sure just carryon"

"When Jenna found out her husband was responsible, she did nothing, according to his mother she told him it felt thrilling to know she had a part in it, she continued to voluntarily make bombs for Mohammed that were used in several terror attacks both in Pakistan and other countries around the world"

"How do you know all this?"

"Do you remember the car bomb opposite Dirks apartment block about five and a half years ago, a few weeks before Jenna was killed?"

Lucy nodded her head, a suicide bomber had wanted to crash into the building to blow it up but his car stalled and the bomb went off in the middle of a deserted car park opposite the store, it was only during the investigation that they discovered it was a failed attempt on Dirk's apartment block; she and Jenna had known each other about five months since then and had grown pretty close.

"Well Jenna's husband was killed in that blast, he was the suicide bomber. Jenna's prints were found all over the bomb fragments. It was lucky that you had taken time off to grieve for your grandfather Joseph, you stayed with Alice and went to the funeral, you never knew nothing about the investigation, I wanted to tell you, but how could I, she was one of your closet friends and then of course she disappeared for a few months"

"Yeah, she told me she was going home to her parents for a while. I take it that's not true"

"Yes and she didn't go to Pakistan either, to be honest I don't know where she went. All I knew was that a few months later she reappeared along with Derity Dannam. The suspect in the case she was shot"

"But he was a drug dealer, not a terrorist"

"Yes he was wanted for drug dealing, but our main reason for going after him was because he was now the leader of E.P.T., since Mohammed was dead. We never told you he was wanted for terrorism because of the physical relationship between him and Jenna. The morning of the raid, you were supposed to meet Jenna for coffee"

"Yeah but she never showed"

"I know Luce, I was the one who called her and cancelled. I told her that you had informed me you were running late and that you would meet her outside her house just before 10am. I knew the raid would be happening by then and that she would be waiting at home for you. She wasn't supposed to get shot Luce, she was supposed to just be arrested for terrorism"

"What happened during the raid and I want the truth this time?"

Myles took a deep breath and explained

"When we got to the house Derity Dannam was there along with Jenna, like we knew they would be but so was Sanjeev Jussis, Luce we had no idea he was even in DC"

Lucy gasped as his name was mentioned, not only was she involved with terrorism but she had dealings with the one of the most wanted men at that time

"Jussis fired as he tried to escape and nearly hit Shep, I saw it and pulled him out of the way, resulting in the bullet hitting Jenna instead, I swear Lucy I didn't know she was stood behind Shep, I thought Jack had her in custody that was the plan, I was to go after Dannam downstairs, Jack was to arrest Jenna who we thought was upstairs but she wasn't, then Jussis took the shot everything and changed. Jussis and Dannam were arrested but Jenna was killed. That's all Lucy that's the truth about Jenna"

Lucy stood and paced for a few moments as she tried to process the information she had been given in the last hour. Her friend had a completely different life that she knew nothing about. She felt a wave of emotions hurt, betrayal, anger, yes anger was the prominent one, she glared at Myles, she didn't mean to but she was angry at him for setting Jenna up.

"MYLES" she snapped "Are you telling me the truth?"

"Lucy I promise you, I know I've lied to you in the past, but this is the truth, I still have the notes"

"Then why did you set her up? Why couldn't you just arrest her?"

Myles breathed out and looked at her, her eyes were icy cold and he saw a look in her eyes showing what he feared was coming true, she hated him

Remaining calm and walking to her, he put his arm around her shoulders, which she shrugged off but he needed her to know the next part, breathing out slowly he continued

"Lucy, I set her up because I was scared she was going to hurt you, the morning you were meeting for coffee there was some chatter going around about E.P.T. planning an attack in DC. I thought Jenna was setting you up to be a victim. I couldn't let that happen Luce, I couldn't lose you. We needed her arrest to look routine in order to protect you from the truth. I wanted to protect you from the truth"

Her eyes softened as he said this, all the lies and betrayal were to protect her from learning her friend was a terrorist and to potentially save her life, but what did this all have to do with his shooting and why he seemed angry and scared

"Myles" she asked softly

"I know what you want Lucy, you want to know why the shooting bought all this back"

She nodded her head, a little stunned at the fact that he could read her thoughts, composing his thoughts for a second they walked back to sit on the couch

"Ahmed Al Azir the suspect in that case, took over E.P.T. and used the group as a basis to recruit Al-Qaeda followers. When we arrived, we discovered the house where the shooting took place was the same house Jenna was killed. We stormed in and her picture was hanging on the wall with the words 'murdered for the cause' written underneath. I saw the picture and froze it was like I was back there that day and all these feeling of guilt came rushing back. It was a good job I was wearing my vest because I never even noticed the gun being fired..." he trailed off, as he looked at Lucy tear filled eyes

"Myles, I'm sorry I yelled" she sobbed unable to hold it in anymore

He pulled her into him "It's ok Lucy. I know I would have yelled or maybe even stormed out if things were reversed"

The two sat there for a while, Lucy curled into Myles, as he held her as she cried. After a few moments Lucy looked up as an indication for him to continue

"The reason I have become so scared is because that house could still be being used by terrorists to recruit college students and I'm expecting to have to storm back into that house, see the picture and freeze again putting not only my life in danger but also the lives of other agents. I'm angry because it was my lack of judgement that enabled me to get shot. All my training failed at the sight of a picture. I get jumpy at work because I'm reliving the day over and over. I haven't slept or eaten a proper meal in few days because of the nightmares. I let my guard down Luce and it nearly cost me my life."

"Myles you can't let the past dictate your life. If you don't get over Jenna's shooting you're going to keep putting yourself in dangerous situations and it is going to make you deathly ill, especially if you don't eat. Myles I can already see the weight coming off you, you said you couldn't lose me back then well I can't lose you now. I need you around Myles, even though you are the most stubborn man on the planet; you still keep me on my toes."

"I am not stubborn"

"You are look at the way it took nearly eight hours to get you to talk about what happened and why you are feeling this way"

"That's not stubbornness that is a failure to communicate"

"Because you're stubborn, even now you're being stubborn by not admitting I'm right"

"I will never admit you're right except on this one occasion, I do need to get over Jenna's shooting, which is why I am going to the psychologist she is helping me to realise that it wasn't directly my fault, I saw a threat to a person I cared and still care about and used extreme methods to stop it."

Lucy took his hands again "Just remember that you don't only have a psychologist to talk too, my door, desk, ears are always open, inviting and willing to listen"

"Thanks Lucy and thank you for understanding why I did what I did"

"Myles, you were doing your job, just remember that"

"I will thank you Lucy and I'm sorry for lying to you for all these years"

"I understand why now Myles, you were just trying to protect me from the truth." she placed her hands on his face and made sure he was looking at her "I forgive you Myles"

Lucy sat hugging Myles relived she had finally got him to let his guard down and let her help him... Myles smiled as she said those four words, feeling a small weight being lifted from his shoulders, now he only needed to forgive himself for the weight to disappear completely, but with Lucy's help and kindness he knew that day was coming soon...

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