Chapter 3

"Fuck-ing titanss... Tey' can alll go fuck t'emselves" Zach slurred and slammed his wooden tankard against the polished surface of the table covered in spilt beer and tears.

"Come on Zach. It's time to leave." His comrade gripped his shoulder and pulled him up off of his chair and to his feet.

"Why? So we can f'cking go to ou' deafffs?" He sneered and yanked himself away before promptly landing on his face. Completely unfazed by the many eyes of other customers on him.

"You need to go back. She is worried about you." Zach's comrade mumbled his face full of pity toward the young man who was a slurring, stumbling mess of a human. Lifting Zach up again his comrade carried him back to his barracks, before he started something he couldn't finish. After a short walk back Zach spotted me through the clouded mist of alcohol covering his senses. The unfortunate thing was he caught me at a bad time... A very bad time. The man he once looked up to, he now despised after the following mission outside of the walls in which every member of his team died. Erwin was holding me in a loving embrace. His lips against mine and notably slipping his hands lower and lower down my body.

"Wha' the fuck, Smith!" Zach shouted and launched himself over toward Erwin and I. His anger directed at the commander but more so at me for loving an enemy.

"Z-Zach! Where have you been?!" I pulled away from Erwin in surprise and quickly brushed myself down in hope it would relax my body from having my first kiss from Commander Erwin himself. I knew Erwin was watching me completely disinterested by the other boy ahead of him thundering toward me.

"You filthy tramp! What the fuck are you doing with the likes of this shit bag!" Zach screamed alcohol heavy on his breath and hatred clear in his face and body language toward Erwin and I. I was taken aback by this display of such violence I couldn't speak.

"Say something you whore!" He yelled grabbing my arms and started to shake me vigorously.

"Stop this cadet." Erwin boomed and jabbed his fist into Zach's abdomen and pulling me back behind him as the boy stumbled back and fell to the floor in disarray.

"Are you okay little dove?" Erwin asked checking over his shoulder to look at me dead in the eye. After I nodded in confusion back at Erwin, I saw his eyes change from soft and loving to steely and cold as he turned away to look at the boy.

"Fucking pe' names now? Is tha' the fuck level you are on?" Zach spat as he stumbled up to his feet barely able to hold himself in an upright position. He whipped his spit off of his lips and gave his wrist a flick to remove the saliva from his hand. Zach was in pain and I could see that; but he isn't handling it the correct way, to be honest he will more than likely have a dishonourable discharge by the end of this night from the way he is acting. That's when I exploded shouting at him almost in a pleading way;

"Zach! Stop being so selfish! I can see you are hurting; I see your guilt but you need to stop doing what you're doing now!" Frustration burning inside me from how he had not only said that Erwin and I were having sex but he was being cruel by insulting me using Erwin as a way to do it. My eyes connected with Zach's almost giving him a look of pity when I knew it would do nothing and it would more than likely end with me being punched.

"Tha's rich, comin' from you. You're a fuckin slut! Goin' round all of these men... You are a whore! And whores' don't get no -" There was a skin crawling crack as Erwin's fist connected with Zach's nose. Shock over came me since I had never seen Erwin raise a hand to anyone other than a titan. To be honest shock was really an understatement.

"Go, before I have you put in front of a firing squad for your insubordination." Erwin growled. Zach looked up at Erwin from his position on the floor his face full of hatred.

"Fuck you." Zach sneered and pulled himself off of the ground before skulking away, casting an ugly look at me over his shoulder.

Suicide is a foolish notion. There is always a solution to the problem, but I guess Zach didn't find it in time. Two days my best friend Zach Macflagan committed suicide. Death by drowning in the bath. There was speculation into his death and there was an investigation, but any evidence of a possible murder was in-conclusive.

That night Erwin held me in his arm whilst I cried into his shirt.