THE ACT OF FALLING
Jensen sat bolt upright on the bed gasping grabbing his chest barely seeing that Jared was beside him.
"Jen what's wrong?" Jared asked sleepily.
Jensen eyed him wildly.
"Jensen breathe!" Jared came full awake seeing that Jensen was fighting to breathe. "Arandi!"
She was up and in front of Jensen fast and the rest of the house hold came crashing in from the din.
"Jensen you have to breathe." Arandi said softly she recognized the panic attack taking him down; she had suffered enough of them.
His wild eyes fell on Arandi.
"I think he's seeing us all dead." Jared explained everything as fast as he could.
"Jensen that is not real ok you have to believe that, look at me."
Jensen's eyes were beginning to swim from his not taking a breath so far.
Arandi hated to do it but she had to, it worked with her more than once. "Jensen stop it now." She yelled as loud as she could.
Jensen jerked hard sucking in air and he began to cough falling against Arandi gasping before she could register his close contact he laced his fingers tightly with hers. "I'm sorry." He whispered.
Arandi's heart was pounding in her chest, just days ago she would have shoved him away but now his warm breath on her neck was like being set free from a locked closet that she had been locked in for far too long.
Not daring to look at anyone in the room she put her free arm around him. "It's ok Jensen it's not your fault but you need to relax."
She felt him nod against her and then he slowly pulled himself up and fell back against his pillows his breath hitching hard and shaky, his fingers still laced with hers. He looked into her eyes and then slipped into sleep.
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Everyone had headed back to sleep and Arandi had had to convince Jared that Jensen was safe with her and he left reluctantly.
Jensen's grasp on her fingers finally relaxed enough for her to get herself free and he had mewled at the separation reaching for her and then settled with a frown creased face.
Arandi moved slowly away from him pulling his covers up an around him and then eyed her sleeping bag. She walked past it she had slept long enough and needed to eat something before she settled on the recliner to watch over Jensen.
She walked into the hall noticing the flickering lights of the television and knowing that it had to be her brother still awake watching out for the house and his wards.
"You alright sis?" Johnny asked quietly.
"Just grabbing a sandwich or whatever, I wish you hadn't let me sleep so long."
"You needed it Xena."
Arandi rolled her eyes as her brother followed her into the kitchen.
"That was one hell of a hallucination." Johnny offered.
"My God that was awful how in the hell do people take that shit on purpose?"
"Arandi I know that you're not going to be happy with me but I told Jensen what happened to you."
Arandi turned to look at him wanting to be mad but she wasn't, it was only right that Jensen knew about her past since she couldn't quite talk about it without falling apart.
"And?" She asked sitting down at the table.
Johnny began to pull the things for sandwiches from the fridge and started making some. "He was upset that anyone could mistreat you like that."
Arandi sighed, that was everyone's initial reaction and then everyone would go into how after all this time she needed to be over it, no one understood the sheer physical and emotion agony she had had to endure at the hands of the man she had loved and who had said he loved her and would always protect her never let anyone hurt her, then he had nearly killed her.
"It's not the same Arandi, Jensen isn't that shallow." Johnny pushed reading her expressions.
"You know this how?" Arandi snickered.
"We had a brief sorted affair but he couldn't stop talking about you." Johnny sighed.
Arandi crinkled her nose. "So I have to take your sloppy seconds again?"
"Sorry sis that I'm just way hotter than you."
They laughed and then fell into a comfortable silence as they ate.
"He likes you." Johnny finally spoke again.
"I like him too even though I should know better than to get cozy with any celebrity."
"Jensen is not like other celebrities, he's so much more real and beside he's from Texas instantly making him near perfect."
"We'll see."
A noise from Jensen's room had her on her feet heading to him and Johnny at her heels.
Jensen was moving and moaning in his sleep as if he was fighting someone and then he was still again.
"I hope that crap is out of his system soon." Arandi hissed.
"He'll be fine and we'll keep him that way for sure now that we know we're not dealing with an amateur."
"You need to get some rest too Hercules." Arandi grinned.
"The secret is well spaced cat naps." Johnny yawned and started to turn and suddenly found Arandi pressed against him and he wrapped his arm around her tightly savoring the hug that he had missed for five years. "I missed you little sis."
"I'm sorry." She whispered and pulled away.
Johnny reluctantly let her go kissed her on the forehead and thanked God that they had come to work for Jensen Ackles.
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The producers had temporarily shut down production of the show not daring to push Jensen until he was ready after all their show was raking it in right now and their fans would have no problems waiting a couple of weeks for a new episode.
It took Jensen nearly a whole week to get back on his feet and even then he felt like he had been trampled by a herd of Clydesdales.
Jared and Jade had gotten close and too sugary sweet for everyone else.
Jensen still just looked at Arandi longingly.
Arandi and Jade stayed with the actors while Johnny, Colt, and Jace took turns watching outside and staying inside.
They had become like a little family eating together, watching movies, playing games, and telling stories and whatever else tickled their fancy.
Jensen wondered just how long the company was going to pay for them to watch over him because he really liked having Arandi around even though he had yet to build up the courage to make any moves.
He tossed and turned in bed after everyone had gone to bed after a marathon of Halloween movies, popcorn, and beer. As much as he hated it Arandi had taken to sleeping on the sofa. She must have thought they were joking about their moms.
He got up deciding to get a snack and maybe read and as he tried to make his way quietly toward the kitchen he realized someone was already in there.
He walked in and Arandi was sitting at the table eating a bowl of cereal.
"Couldn't sleep either?" He asked grabbing a bowl and a spoon, his own cereal and joined her.
"Halloween movies always get to me." She confessed.
"They scare you?" Jensen asked surprised.
"No they piss me off because how stupid people act before they are going to die running into danger instead of away from it.'
Jensen laughed. "I hope you never watched "My Bloody Valentine.'"
Arandi laughed. "Are you kidding I love the way you're standing there murmuring and then that look on your face with that half smile and you say 'oh I'm right here.' "
Jensen laughed louder and changed his features to mimic the scene that she was talking about.
She laughed hard doubling over against the table.
"It wasn't really supposed to be funny." He grinned.
"I know it's just that it's kind of surreal that I'm sitting here in the middle of the night talking about a movie to the guy who starred in it." She said looking into his eyes. 'I was glad you lived at the end by the way even though you were a stark raving mad killer."
"Thank you." He huffed and stared into his now empty bowl. "Is it hard to watch those movies because of ….you know?"
Arandi sighed, she had been wondering when these conversations would come up. "It was at first especially the sounds of flesh hitting flesh but I got past it like everything else little by little."
"I wish I could make all of it go away." He whispered.
Arandi watched him as he stared at the bowl. "I wish you could too." Now she felt like a complete idiot and she grabbed her bowl and his taking them to the sink and washing them.
Jensen lifted his eyes knowing that she was uncomfortable now and wanted to kick himself but he had meant what he said and how could that be wrong?
He stood up from the chair intent on walking out and leaving her alone but that's not what he wanted to do. He stepped up besides her leaning back against the counter with his arms crossed over his chest so that he could see her face as she scrubbed the same bowl fiercely.
"I think it surrendered a long time ago." He said softly.
"You have to be careful with bowls they are sneaky." She murmured as she blushed.
"I'm sorry I upset you." He tried again.
"I'm not upset Jensen, it's just things get to me that shouldn't."
"I never thanked you for taking care of me, for what you did to Miranda and don't you dare tell me that it was your job."
Her eyes met his and her eyes could make the oceans jealous. "Heaven must be missing an angel." He heard himself say and man he wanted to take it back it was so lame.
She smiled wide. "I think you're still hallucinating with that line there buddy."
"Sorry but has anyone ever told you how amazing your eyes are?"
Her face clouded a bit. "Not amazing but freaky."
"Are you kidding freaky?" He could guess who that moron would be.
She smiled again leaning on her hip against the counter close to him.
They looked at each other for a few moments and she sighed starting to move away. Jensen reached to gently take her wrist, feeling the barest of flinches as he pulled her back settling his hand gently against her face to look in her eyes. "I wasn't done getting lost yet." He murmured softly and then leaned in to kiss her gently and his heart sped up as she responded. They let their lips get to know each other without rush or aggression just a long meeting of lips until it started to get too hot and they pulled back.
Jensen ran his thumb over his lip. "God your lips are golden."
He and Arandi both looked at each other trying to recall a sudden flicker of memory or something just out of reach. "Déjà vu." They both said at the same time.
Jensen laughed softly. "I guess I'm doing things ass backwards I should be asking you out before I go tongue diving."
"Are you asking me out?" She asked staring at the floor.
"Yes, yes I am." He smiled grandly. "I just hope that you're not using me to get to Dean."
Arandi looked at him smiling. "Busted I so have a major crush on Dean."
"Man's always taking my girls." Jensen huffed but he stepped closer. "I think I'm putting up a fight this time even if I get my ass kicked."
"Good." She said as their lips met again.
Jensen didn't remember moving but the next thing he knew he had her against the wall one hand braced above her head the other caressing her face and he didn't want to stop kissing her and he could tell that she didn't want to stop either but he sure didn't want to stand there like a fool with an erection he couldn't hide.
They pulled apart breathing a bit hard and looked at each other.
"How about we go out Friday night." He asked hurriedly thinking just how many dates he could get in the next few days so that this kissing could move along.
"Yeah Friday." She answered looking up at him smiling.
"Dinner and a movie sound good?"
"Sounds great."
"Alright then I guess we should get some rest but I'm not letting you sleep on the sofa."
Arandi began to argue but he kissed her again. "Not taking no for an answer."
"Alright fine I'll sleep on the bed but I'm supposed to be between you and the front door."
"I'll sleep in the sleeping bag then by the bed." He offered.
"Ok we can do that." She smiled.
They headed to the room and settled in to get some rest but Jensen was wide awake and she had gotten so quiet he was sure that she had fallen asleep. He stared up at the ceiling.
"Jensen?" She called out.
"Yeah?"
"No way am I getting any sleep with you on the floor when just days ago you were so out of it." She confessed,
"Well I'm not letting you sleep on the floor you haven't met my momma." Jensen huffed.
"I don't bite." She said softly.
"Huh?"
"We could share the bed Jensen we are both adults who can control ourselves…more or less."
Jensen sat up to look at her in the dim light. "Sleep on the same bed?" He couldn't possibly get that lucky.
"If you want."
"Only if you're sure you know I don't need you forgetting that I'm there and getting my nuts handed to me."
Arandi laughed. "Nah I called the Enquirer to come take pictures that's all."
"Well in that case." Jensen stood up and quickly slipped under the covers with Arandi, the warmth of her body had the bed nice and toasty.
Facing each other smiling like two loons they were asleep in minutes.
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Jensen wasn't sure how much time had gone by but he felt the bed shift and he suddenly remembered that he wasn't alone. Arandi made her way to the bathroom and he pretended to be asleep when she came back. She slipped quietly back under the covers and he shifted onto his back.
He waited for her breathing to change but it didn't so he shifted again acting as if he was waking up and she was looking at him.
"You alright?" He asked.
"The last person I slept with tried to kill me." She whispered.
"I can't even imagine that horror." He answered reaching slowly to caress her face.
"I didn't even realize that he hated me so much just because I wanted to be the best that I could be at my job, if he had put half the effort into his job that he put into making me look bad he'd have excelled."
"He was a fucking loser." Jensen growled and he looked at her knowing something so intimate about her, he cleared his throat. "I was called into audition for a commercial when I was eighteen." He started looking her straight in the eyes. "I was so excited but I knew something wasn't right when I was the only one there but still I dared to hope and…." He stopped the memory still made him nauseas. "I had the part if I gave the guy a blow job and I told him to go fuck himself and he jumped me injected me with some shit that I could barely move…." He blinked hard. "He….he was going to rape me."
"Jensen you don't have to…" Arandi murmured.
"Yeah I do." He said softly.
"He had my pants down and he touched me…..I was trying to scream but I couldn't and….." A tear slipped from his eye.
Arandi gently smoothed it away with her thumb.
"I was saved by the mailman if you can believe that, he walked in just in time, the bastard made a run for it and they never found him. I never told my parents and only Jay knew until now. I almost gave up acting but I realized that if I did that the asshole would win and I went on with my life although it took a while before I was comfortable alone with any man."
"I'm glad that you didn't let him win." Arandi said softly. "I can't imagine anyone else as Dean Winchester."
Jensen broke out his Dean. "It's all in the charm sweetheart."
Arandi laughed. "Oh my God I'm in bed with Dean!"
Jensen laughed hard. "I knew it being used."
They stared at each other for a minute then Jensen slowly moved forward to kiss her and she responded. In moments they were breathing hard as tongues met and explored and Jensen pulled back.
"We really should stop now." He breathed.
"Yeah you're right we should stop." Arandi panted at the same time that she pulled him back to her kissing him senseless.
"Arandi…." He rasped against her lips.
"You saying my name like that isn't helping at all." She purred back into his lips. "But do it again."
"Arandi …." He tried again hearing the soft moan that left her lips that went straight to his groin. He pulled back a little more forcefully. "This isn't what you want."
"News flash Jensen I haven't been with anyone in five years so I think I know what I want." She growled.
Jensen smiled but his heart was beating like a jack hammer. "It may be what you want now but in the morning…?"
"If I have any regrets I'll make sure not to take them out on you."
Jensen was trying hard to be the gentleman but he lost all his will seconds later.
"Jensen I need this and I want it to be you….please." she breathed so sweetly and the fact that he didn't lose it right then and there was a miracle.
"God Arandi you're so beautiful I just can't….." He pressed back into to kiss her harder, deeper until they couldn't breathe.
It was going to happen and Jensen felt his nerves tingle with desire and fear, after all her big, big brother was only a hallway away and after not being with anyone in so long he had some fancy moves to make to impress.
He pulled back to get a condom and then looked at her. "Are you sure?"
She suddenly had him on his back straddling him thrusting against him making him gasp loudly. "Does this answer your question?"
Jensen couldn't answer he breathed in deep lifting his hands to her hips trying to get her to slow down but then she rubbed just right and instead he got them to the best rhythm.
This so wasn't ending the way he thought but it sure was a fantastic alternative and he could go get used to Arandi like this very nicely.
Her eyes were penetrating and he couldn't resist another second turning her over pulling off pajamas as he went and kissing her until he was dizzy. He then paid attention to every inch of her body with his hands and mouth until she was whimpering and thrashing against him.
She took great care of her body and it was the most perfect tongue playground ever. He almost forgot about the condom his mind was so blown with lust but he managed it somehow and he groaned with satisfying pleasure as he slid into her oh so sweet, tight hotness and everything else could be filed under 'oh yeah just like that, don't stop, fuck yes, do that again' bliss.
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Jensen woke up still floating from the orgasmic blissful night, a smile already plastered on his face as he yawned and stretched.
What a night and he felt it everywhere on his body, delicious soreness and the total sated feeling of one orgasm after another until they ran out of condoms and he hated himself when he realized they were out and she had actually pouted and he had kissed it off her luscious lips.
God he could kiss her for hour's non-stop.
He turned to face her but was disappointed to find her already gone and his stomach did a small lurch that maybe she had woken up with regrets but the smell of bacon made his stomach growl loudly. He got out of bed still naked and wished that he had been awake to see her slip out of bed bare ass.
He took a shower and slipped into black sport pants and a black snug t-shirt, he took a deep breath and then headed out of the room.
He heard the voices in the kitchen and knew that everyone was in there talking and he realized then that it was raining buckets outside so they wouldn't be going anywhere. He didn't mind it at all as long as Arandi was close by.
He readied himself and then walked into the kitchen looking for Arandi first of all and she was standing at the stove cooking the bacon. She looked at him and smiled the most beautiful smile he could even fathom and he responded with his own million watt smile.
Everyone else stopped talking to watch the exchange.
"Geez pouring rain and I still need my shades." Colt grumbled with a grin.
Jensen ignored the jibe and headed to Arandi, not caring who was there wanting her to know that he wanted the world to know that he liked her just a little more than a lot.
He kissed her on the cheek and leaned back against the counter. "Morning beautiful."
"Hey there handsome." She purred and gave him a quick peck on the lips.
"So that's how it is Ackles, you replace me just like that?" Johnny huffed.
"It's all in the technique bro." Arandi grinned.
"I so did not need that visual little sister."
Jensen blushed hard but laughed at the ribbing and stood by Arandi the whole time that she cooked. He was rewarded with the first plate of food even though he had been the last to arrive and everyone else grumbled while he smiled broadly and walked into the living room with his piled high plate wagging his eyebrows.
He came back into the kitchen to get Arandi's plate, a plate of pancakes, and help her carry drinks for them to eat at the coffee table.
The grumbles followed them out because everyone else had to serve themselves. Jared and Jade joined them in the living room and they ate and talked.
Jensen couldn't help but notice the way Jade watched her sister and as if she was seeing her for the first time in a long time. Could one night with him really have changed her so much? It sure was an ego boost and he couldn't stop smiling either. Arandi was one hell of woman and the fact that she wanted him was a great feeling.
He looked at her as she ate her pancakes and syrup made her lips shiny. He couldn't help leaning in to taste her lips like that and she responded.
It took Jared clearing his throat for them to remember that they were not alone. Arandi blushed and Jensen put his forehead to hers grinning.
Rained in they all spent the day playing games and reading or whatever they could do to entertain themselves.
Jensen was counting the hours for bed because Arandi had managed to go to the store for supplies before it started raining so they had a ready supply of condoms. What better sign that she wanted more of him.
Of course the day dragged and after dinner they all sat down to watch some movies. Jensen sat back against the generous armrest of the humungous sofa that Jared had bought that could seat like seven average sized people. He hoped that he didn't look too desperate but Arandi took the cue slipping in between his legs to lean back against him and Jensen could swear that she was the perfect fit.
Johnny looked at them with a raised eyebrow but smiled.
Jensen carefully pulled a throw over them and then Jared and Jade followed suit on the other end of the sofa and everyone's legs were splayed in the middle.
Jace stared at the sight and shook his head. "Well ain't ya'll just cozy." He drawled.
"Jealous?" Jared asked.
"Well yeah." Jace sighed.
"I got you baby." Colt snickered as he sat on the floor leaning back against the sofa where everyone was already comfy and then Johnny and Jace lay down on either side with their heads on Colt's laps.
It made a funny sight and then Colt began to run his fingers through both of their hair and they both sighed loudly setting off a bout of laughter that had them all in tears.
The night progressed as they watched another horror movie marathon and Jensen discreetly tucked his hands in really hot places and he wasn't one bit uncomfortable.
Arandi dozed off and Jensen tucked his chin into her hair pulling up the throw so that she would be warm not that she wouldn't be with all his body heat and heated he was just having her so close. More than once he was tempted to feign tiredness to head to bed early but then everyone would be awake when he would be trying to score and he just decided to wait.
Arandi was the one who sometime later yawned and told them she was heading to bed and she shuffled off giving Jensen that come hither look.
Jensen instantly obeyed.
"She's finally alive again Jenny, thanks for that." Johnny whispered to him.
"It's working both ways." Jensen sighed. "Thanks for being a great big, big brother."
Jared and Jade both smiled at him.
"You hurt her I break everyone bone in your pretty little sexy body." Johnny sneered.
"I think she'll beat you to that." Colt laughed.
"Getting beat by Arandi might actually be a turn on for the fool." Jace added.
"Goodnight stooges." Jensen huffed and headed to his room.
No sooner had he locked the door than Arandi attacked him shoving him against the wall yanking his clothes off and he leaned back and let her have his way with him.
He knees nearly buckled when she took him into her mouth and it took every bit of strength that he had to not moan loudly but still he couldn't keep all the sounds in especially when she sucked the orgasm right out of him and he threw his head back against the wall hard enough to hurt.
She was just too amazing. The rest of the night was so hot and erotic that Jensen and Arandi were both hoarse.
Jensen swore for a moment that his eyes would stay rolled back and he was perfectly fine with that because holy horniness this was unbelievable and it was all his.
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The rest of the week was just as amazing and even though others were around them they only had eyes for each other but everyone was eating well because Arandi was cooking her heart out to impress and she could cook.
Jensen already had to work out a little more from all the great food but it was worth it.
Everything was so worth it.
Friday arrived and they got ready for their date.
"Why bother now?" Arandi grinned huge.
"I want to show you off." Jensen hugged her close.
"Oh because no one is going to notice the woman hanging off Jensen Ackles arm."
"Darling as long as they don't lie or dramatize I want the world to know how lucky I am." He kissed her neck and nuzzled her.
To keep things safe Johnny, Colt, and Jace hung out close by to where Jensen and Arandi went to eat and the theater while they watched a movie which they hardly paid attention too.
Then they heard the commotion starting in the lobby and someone opened the door and smoke started pouring in, instinctively everyone started to try to move out of the room in a panic.
Arandi pulled Jensen back when he got up and he looked at her worriedly.
"We have to assume that it could be your stalker Jensen we have to be careful." Arandi went back into bodyguard mode, putting herself in front of Jensen and he didn't like it very much now that they had a relationship but he didn't say anything looking around as more smoke streamed in and the people pushed and shoved their way out.
Arandi waited dialed Johnny. "Where are you?"
"In the lobby waiting for you." Johnny responded anxiously. "Hey wait stop!" He yelled. "We have a suspect Arandi keep your eyes open there could be more."
Arandi could hear her brother running and the line disconnected she pulled her weapon and looked around in the smoke coughing slightly. Jensen was right up against her, his heart racing.
He was about to say something when he felt someone yank him back from behind and he couldn't breathe grabbing the hands around his neck.
Arandi spun around to face him pushing him back hard that Jensen fell on top of the culprit. Both Jensen and the man grunted loudly as they hit the floor and Jensen quickly rolled away and then Arandi was in front of him.
"Drop it!" Arandi yelled.
Jensen didn't want her in the way for him and it was freaking him out, he didn't want her in any danger but what was he supposed to do when she was trained to do this, he couldn't live with himself if anything happened to her because of him.
He made the move to pull her out of the way and he saw the man raise his weapon at the same time. He did his best to shield her but he felt the impact of the discharge hit her then him an impossible agony filled his body and he yelled holding Arandi close.
She wasn't moving anymore as the pain dominated everything and the world faded into the dark.
TBC
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