Yay! Another Chapter. Sorry this one is shorter than the last two and later than expected. My family decided to hijack me for my birthday! It was fun but back to the story. It does bounce around a little but it will all make sense soon. Oh and check out the lyrics with this and the future chapters. Its all about how Bella is Feeling at that moment.

Oh and before I forget the brilliant SM owns all of the characters...I am just playing around with them.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway Train- Soul Asylum

Wednesday morning I was sitting on the plane back to Phoenix thinking about this trip. San Francisco was going to be a good move for me. I needed a new start after everything that has happened in Phoenix over the last 3 years. It was all a nightmare that I am thankfully waking up from with the help of my friends both old and new.

I was actually proud of myself for overcoming a fear. I was afraid for my life when I saw Demetri the first time at the apartment. I felt bad that this guy didn't actually do anything but I treated him and his fiancée like crap just because of how he looks. It wasn't his fault that he looked like Marcus. To say that is was a shock to see him in my new home was an understatement. I really thought that the guy either broke out of jail or was released. It was the fear thinking because I know that everything he did to me they wouldn't let him go early. The guy had too many charges stacked against him and led to more than enough years in prison for what he did to me.

Emmett was so good to me, he checked on me, got us dinner and actually listened to the entire story. It actually felt good to tell him since he was the first person that I had told anything to that didn't live the nightmare with me. When I was done telling my story I could see something in his eyes. He didn't have the look of someone that felt sorry for me, he had fire in his eyes and looked like he wanted revenge for everything that was done to me. It was nice to not see sorrow , I had seen enough of it from so many people. The best part of it all was that he told me that my new home was a safe place and that no matter what he would make sure I felt safe. The way he said it and the way he reacted reminded me of Carlisle and his regard for me earlier in the day. His concern and vow for my safety made me feel loved and treasured in a way i hadn't felt in years. It wasn't the love of a lover that I felt but the love of family. This guy was going to be the big brother I had never had and I was thrilled at the thought.

The announcement of our decent into Las Vegas was what brought me back to reality. I was tired, not physically but emotionally. I knew I needed some sort of nap before I got into Arizona. The amount of things I had to do there was insane and I needed to get it all done in about three and a half days. Luckily I had a good amount of my house packed and ready for the move. I spent the rest of the flight into Vegas and the Layover finishing up my list of things I needed to get done and sending a mass text to a handful of friends that I knew I needed to see before I left town. I decided to invite them over for a dinner tonight to say goodbye so that way I can spend the rest of the week getting my stuff done. By the time I boarded the plane in Vegas I had heard back from all of my friends saying that they would be there. Now all I needed was a 50 minute power nap on this flight home so I curled up against the window and fell asleep.

I wish I could say that I had a peaceful sleep but all I did was dream about last night and my dinner with Emmett and his friends. I had asked him if we could try dinner again with his friends and he agreed since I made the terms. They didn't come to the apartment at all. We decided it would be best to meet them at the little restaurant in Chinatown that was picked. Being in public while meeting Demetri was the best for me because I had to keep myself together until I felt comfortable with him. I wont lie, I did have a shot of vodka before we left home to calm my nerves. That one was Emmett's suggestion and I am glad I did it, it actually relaxed me to the point where I could be in the same room.

It was a shy introduction, although I think they were both cautious about how to react around me since they knew a little bit of my past. I made sure to shake their hands and I immediately started talking with Gianna. She made me feel comfortable while she talked about her and Demetri. Soon enough I was getting to know the computer geek and hair stylist and actually felt comfortable around them. I did make it a point to apologize for the night before but I was shut down but Demetri himself saying that there was no apology needed. He explained that after talking with Emmett before they left the apartment they understood why I freaked out and wouldn't expect anything less than what happened last night. I laughed and said it was frightening seeing him and doing a double take but now looking at him I can see the differences between the two and even though they are quite similar in some ways I know I wont be freaking out again.

When I landed in Phoenix I walked off the plane and headed for the curb where I knew Ben was waiting for me. I found him right away and jumped in his car.

"um, Busy Bee where is your suitcase. I know you left with one"

"Left it in San Fran with all the clothes too. No sense in bringing it back just to drive it all back up."

"Sounds good. So I hear we are leaving early and nixing the truck."

"yeah this place is furnished and so I don't need to bring any big stuff. I am just bringing the things I really need and I am pretty sure it will all fit in both the car and the SUV.

He simply nodded and headed straight for Audi Dealership to pick up my car since they had finished servicing it yesterday. I am just glad I got that taken care of before the road trip.

After Ben dropped me off to get my car I ran home to check on what I needed for dinner tonight. I knew that if this was going to be my last dinner party with my friends I was going to make some of their favorites. Ben always begs me to make my twice baked potato soup so that was on the menu as well as Rinny's Greek salad so that was definitely my starters. Jamie and Tori love the Filet mignon that I make so that was the main dish and I couldn't disappoint Tyler at all, I had to make both the rocky road fondue as well as the bananas foster fondue for desert. It was a lot of food but it was definitely worth it. Two hours later and a trip to whole foods I was back home with everything I needed for the night.

I was glad that Rinny offered to come help me out with the cooking. I needed to talk to her before everyone else showed up. When she got to the house she looked at my menu and started putting together the marinade based off the recipe I left on the counter for her. After a few minutes of working in silence she finally mentioned the one thing I knew I would hear from her.

"So do you want to explain what happened and how I ended up talking with your roommate the other night?"

"His best friend looks like he can be Marcus' big brother. Even Emmett and Demetri saw it once they saw the pic you sent to Em. I freaked out but Em got me to calm down after he hung up with you. Things are fine now"

"Yeah fine until you see this guy again. This is a serious problem that you need professional help with Iz. I dont know how many more times I need to tell you that you need to talk to someone and find a way to work through your issues or you will never trust anyone."

"Well, I didn't have a problem when I saw him and his fiancé again last night. I felt bad about it all that night and talked to Emmett about everything. He knows the entire story and it actually felt good to tell someone that didn't have any first hand knowledge about it all. Plus that was when we decided to try dinner again last night with Demetri & Gianna. They are a really nice couple and I am actually comfortable around them now."

"wow I guess San Francisco is going to be good for you then. I am glad you let him in and told him everything"

"Yeah me too"

"Well at least Emmett knows hot to turn the water works off."

Dinner was a great time. We normally get together once a week but it had been a while since that happened. Things were crazy the past couple months. The entire meal I sat there looking at my friends and thinking of everything great about them. They may not be my family by blood but they were still a group of people that I called my family. I loved them all and I knew I would miss them each for different reasons but I knew this next conversation over dinner was the hardest I have done in a while. Once desert was served and were all digging into the fondue I decided that it was time.

"So there was a reason that I asked everyone over tonight for dinner."

Tyler got a huge smile on his face and asked "So you decided to stay in phoenix?"

"No, I am definitely moving. In fact I have already enrolled At the California Culinary Academy and found a place to live. Classes start in 2 weeks."

The room was completely silent. Rinny & Ben knew most of the details already but they had no clue when classes started. I could see it in Rinny's eyes that she was hoping that she could buy some more time here before I left. I thought her or Tori would say something but it was actually Jamie. I knew he would ask questions he has been so protective of me since everything happened.

"So B, when exactly are you moving?"

"I plan on pulling out of here Sunday morning. I have a friend that lives in Huntington Beach that I am staying with the first night and spending Sunday and Monday at Disney so if you want to make that part of the trip you are all welcome. Monday night I plan on spending the night in Solvang. My new roommate recommended a great place that is totally safe and secure for my car. Tuesday on his suggestion I am driving up PCH to Carmel or Monterey where he has an old family friend that runs a B&B where I have a room waiting for me. Then By lunchtime on Wednesday I will be in San Fran at my new home."

I could see the shock in everyone's faces that I had planned the trip out in detail and had everything lined up. Then I heard Ben react to the one thing that I knew he would. It was one sentence and it was a can of worms in his book when it came to me. .

"Wait…did you say roommate?"