School seems weird now without Isaac here. But I guess that's what you have to do when you break out of prison on a full moon because you turned into a creature of the night. Speaking of which its been 12 hours since I got the bite and it's a lot to adjust to. I'm starting to regret it. I've never been the person to go with the easy way out, But just like he is all I have I am all he has. I couldn't leave him. I was running out of time, I had weeks left.

"Hey Ellie!" I looked up to see Stiles smiling at me widely.

I'm frozen. I don't know what to say, I'm just staring at him with wide eyes. God he must think I'm a freak.

"No I think your cute." He said with a goofy grin that made me smile.

"Shit I said that out loud?!"I said before thinking. " Unless oh shit your not a mind reader are you?" I asked ."Because I have a lot of private thoughts and things I would never say because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings by saying them and-" I was cut off, thank god.

"Hey! It's ok you said it out load I cant read minds I swear." He said in between laughs.

I blush in embracement." Ohhh ok awkward." I said in an uneasy voice. I'm totally making a fool of myself!

" So how are you dealing with the great supernatural?" He asked with a smile.

"What?" I asked panicked. He cant know, how can he know?

" You know having a best friend that's a werewolf kind of drags you into it, trust me I know." He said and I almost sighed out loud.

"Oh yea I guess ill have to get used to being his Robin." I hated lying but he is finaly talking to me. I want to enjoy this while I still can.

Stiles looked at me with pure awe causing me to blush." Did you make a batman reference."

"Yea he's like my favorite superhero . I mean he was rich but was motivated by his parents death to help people. I mean have you seen Dark Knight?! It was amazing." I ranted while he kept looking at me with that look in his eye.

"The joker?" He asked.

" Best villain ever. He had a dark past and was portrayed very well by Heath Ledger ... may he rest in peace." I added showing my nerd levels.

" Two face?" He asked after he snapped out of his daze.

"I don't know with him... he just wasn't ...uhhh" I started searching for the word.

" Developed." Stiles said knowingly.

I looked up and noticed how close we were." Uhh sorry I probably bored you." I said nervously.

He tucked a strand of hair behind my ear." Not at all." He said with a sweet voice. I looked deep in his eyes and lost all train of thought. He started leaning down and I started leaning up and right before we met in the middle the bell rang.

I blushed and pulled away." I better go." I said slowly.

"Yea see you in GYM." He said smiling before he left.

I let out a long breath thinking about what just happened. I leaned against the lockers with a dazed look on my face. I frowned thinking about what he will do when he finds out.

When I got to gym I couldn't find Stiles but I saw Scott.

"Hey." I said walking up to him

He looked at me and smiled that boyish cute smile." Hey... are you ok?" He asked confused

"Yea why?" I asked confused.

"Nothing you just smell different that's all." He said. I started freaking out. He was going to find out. He was going to hate me, and god Stiles..

"McCall, Argent on the wall." Coach yelled and I silently thanked him.

Scott smiled at me one more time before going to the wall. That was close I watched him and Allison climb when all of a sudden he stopped and looked around. I used my hearing to hear what they were saying.

"There's another. Really? Cant Derek control his thirst for power!" I heard Scott tell Allison as they were on the wall.

"Who do you think it is?" I heard Allison ask innocently.

"I don't know but I'm going to find out!" He exclaimed. I looked down he's going to hate me. I'm never going to have a chance with Stiles. The thought of Stiles hating me made me sick to my stomach.

I looked up and saw stiles walk in. I put on a fake smile and waved. He tried to wave back but he ran into a wall when he wasn't looking.

I laughed and walked up to him still giggling." You ok?" I asked.

" What oh yea totally 100% ok like if how I was scaled from 1 to 10 I would be an 11." He said with a little bit of a twitch.

I laughed at his ramble." It's ok there are literally poles with dents because I've ran into them so many times." I said with a smile.

"Wait that was you that dented that pole in the cafeteria?" He asked.

"Maybeeee... but what cafeteria has poles in it anyway?" I asked trying to defend myself.

"Apparently ours." He laughed but then got really serious." Hey can I ask you something?"

"sure go for it." I responded.

" ummm do you think you would maybe want to-" He was cut off by Scott falling off the wall. We all laughed and I went to help him. When I got him down he smiled.

" Thanks Ell-." He stopped midsentence and looked at me strangely." It's you."

I looked down ashamed. He was beginning to be a good friend.

"What's her?" Stiles asked

"The other wolf ." Scott said in a hushed voice.

"Yea but its not-" He stopped talking when I looked at the ground again." No It cant be your... and I was going to... I thought you were different." He said helplessly.

"I am! I'm still me!" I said helplessly.

"Stilinski, Erica" you're up.

He shook his head at me one more time before walking away. I let a couple tears fall before wiping them away fiercely. I watched as the two got on the wall but Erica stopped moving. Erica and I used to be close until one day she shut me out and I never knew why. Later I found out she was epileptic but when I tried talking to her about it she just left.

"Coach maybe that's not such a good idea you know she's epileptic." I said trying to help her. I still thought of her as a friend.

"Woah why doesn't anyone tell me this stuff? Erica your fine just kick off the wall there's a mat here to catch you." He said trying to get her off the wall.

"You can do it Rica." I smiled at her. She looked down and smiled back at me. She eventually made it down the wall and people started laughing. " What the fuck are all y'all laughing at!?" I screamed at everyone and they quickly shut up. Smart move. Scott and Allison looked like they were scared I was going to turn and Stiles looked like he was in between proud and scared and even a little disappointed . That really hurt but I needed to defend my friend.

"James! Go to the principals office!" Coach shouted.

"I'll get right on that coach." I said saluting him. That made several kids laugh and even Stiles cracked a smile. But as soon as it came it was gone. I winked at Erica and she gave me a smile.

So I got detention for using foul language, fun right? The way Stiles looked at me is still vivid in my mind. God life sucks sometimes. My hand started shaking and I knew it was Erica, I had to get to the gym.

I ran as fast as I could, which is actually pretty fast now, to find Erica on the wall. I heard Allison and Scott come in but I was focused on Erica. As she fell off the wall I caught her and put her on her side.

"How did you guys know?" Allison asked both of us.

"I felt it." We said at the same time. Scott looked up at me as if he was trying to find me when the finale bell went off.

"I have detention can you please make sure she makes it to the hospital?" I asked desperately. Both of them nod and I send a small smile

This is torture! Like seriously how do people survive this! I have nothing to do but think and the only thing I can think about is Stiles.

I hate it. I hate that he's all I can think about. I hate that I'm the last thing he wants to think about. I hate that he's in love with Lydia. I hate that he hates me. I hate that I love him.

"Alright your free to go. And you better watch your mouth little lady that can get you in some serious trouble one day." coach said before I left.

I went out front to see Derek in his Camaro. Oh god he doesn't look happy. I slowly approached the car.

"Detention, Really Ellie?" He asked glaring at me.

"I was defending a friend!"I said trying to justify my actions. He rolled his eyes and started to drive.

"Thank you for that by the way." A voice said from the back.

"JESUS!" I screamed at the top of my lungs causing Derek to smirk. I turned and saw Erica in the backseat." Don't do that! It's rude to scare peo-" I stopped my ran when I realized something." How do you know Derek? And why are you in his car?" Then it hit me." Are you kidding me?! What are trying to do? turning the whole high school?" I glared at Derek.

"I need to build a pack and teenagers have a better chance of surviving." He said calmly. "She's staying with us at the train station."

"Good we need another girl in the place." I said sending her a smirk which she returned.

"No but really thank you for today. No one has ever stood up for me before. I'm sorry I got you detention." She said smiling.

"Oh please I could handle a couple hours in detention. I would do it all over again. I still consider you a friend."

"I'm sorry I shut you out I thought you just wanted to be friends because you pitied me. Then Derek told me the whole time you were worse off then I was and I'm just so sorry." She said getting teary eyed.

"Oh for the love of god will you just forgive her already?!" Derek said irritated.

I giggled and said "I forgive you Erica." She smiled and I smiled back.

"ELIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" I heard as we walked through the door to the station.

"ISACCCCCCCCCCCC!" I screamed with the same enthusiasm as he pulled me into a hug. In the background I heard Derek groan and Erica awe.

"God school was so weird without you!" I said as I returned the hug.

"Oh I'm sure Stiles kept you busy." He said with a smirk.

" OH MY GOD YOU LIKE STILES THAT IS SOOOOOO CUTE!" Erica said with a smile on her face. Derek looked surprisingly interested. I looked down thinking about him.

Isaac must have noticed." What happened?"

I let out a sigh." The day started out good we had a real conversation and almost kissed." Erica looked excited, Isaac looked happy, and Derek rolled his eyes." Then him and Scott found out... god the way he looked at me." I said and Isaac were supportive and Derek looked interested.

"How did he look at you?" Derek asked showing a bit of concern.

"Like I disappointed him. Like I was just not a person anymore." I said sadly.

"Stiles is an idiot." Derek said. I liked this side of him. The side that cared.

"Ok you and I both need a serious change! Cloths and attitude!" Erica exclaimed.

"Ughhhhhh why..." I whined not liking girly things like shopping. Isaac had this stupid smirk on his face. cocky bastard.

"PLEAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ" Erica screeched." I will do all of the work."

"Uggg fine!" I said irritated.

"EPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP" Erica squealed. I winced and Derek rolled his eyes muttering something about stupid teenage girls.

I put on a fake smile but Isaac could see I was still upset about Stiles. So he did the thing he knew would get me happy. " I DONT MIND SPENDING EVERY DAY OUT ON YOUR CORNOR IN THE POORING RAIN!"

Then Erica joined in." LOOK FOR THE GIRL WITH THE BROKEN SMILE! ASK HER IF SHE WANTS TO STAY A WHILE"

Then I jumped in. " AND SHE WILLLLL BE LOVED AND SHE WILLLL BE LOVED!"

"Take it away Derek!" I yelled happily.

Derek rolled his eyes. " I just had to chose teenagers." He grumbled but before he turned I saw the small smile on his face.

The three of us looked at each other for a long minute before we continued together." TAP ON MY WINDOW KNOCK ON MY DOOR I"

By the time we finished the song we all cracked up. I was overwhelmed with a feeling. Something I haven't felt in a long time. Home.

"I've got to admit dressed like this I feel more like me then I have in a while." I said. Erica took my hair that I dyed red a couple of years ago and gave it an emo like style.(like the one in the picture on the cover.) and my new close consist of skinny jeans a pair of combat boots and a tight fitted batman hoodie. I went for more of the emo, skater chick look and Erica went with the strait up sexy look. The only difference is Erica has changed her personality. She was still Erica and I still loved her but she was trying to be someone she's not. I don't want to change. I want him to like me for me.

As we walked in Erica strutted in while I just kind of stayed behind her. I didn't want to stand out. I guess with what Erica went through she needs this and I understand that.

"What the holy hell is that?!" I heard Lydia ask with her normal sass. I never had anything against her, it's just hard knowing Stiles loves her.

"That's Erica and Ellie." Scott said.

Stiles looked up at me and stared in my eyes. Time for that moment stopped. As cliché as it sounds It was like the world stopped spinning and it was just me and him. He got up and started heading towards me.

Erica grabbed my arm and dragged me outside. " I figured you weren't ready to face him yet." Erica said with a supportive smile.

We were to the front of the school were Derek was in the alpha mobile when I head something.

"Ellie! Ellie wait!" We stopped to see Stiles and Scott running up to us.

"Look asshole, she doesn't want to talk to you." Erica said standing in front of me.

"Well I think she can talk to herself Erica!" Stiles glared at Erica.

"It's ok Rica I got this." I said with a reassuring smile. She nodded sending one more glare at Scott and Stiles before going to the car. " You got 3 minutes, go ."

"Why are you with Derek?" Stiles asked I gave him a look." Not like that I mean I know your not WITH Derek I mean your not right because he is like old and power hungry not that I'm saying you would sleep with him or with anyone just-" I gave him a look.

"Did you just call me a slut?" I asked highly offended. I looked at Erica and Derek to see Erica cracking up and Derek was even chuckling.

"What? Oh god no that's not what I meant at all!" Stiles panicked.

" What Stiles is trying to say is why did you agree?" Scott helped.

"I have my reasons." I said.

"What Isaac? That's sort of pathetic." Stiles said jealously.

I shook my head and started to walk away.

"Wait.. If not that then what?" He asked grabbing my wrist.

"I can't." I said trying to get out of his grip.

"How bad could it be?" He asked.

"You can tell us." Scott said." Whatever it is you-"

"I HAD LEUKIMIA!" I shouted at them. Both of them froze in place." I had weeks left, months if I was lucky. I'm 16 years old I didn't want to die."

" When Gerard said your parents left when you needed them most..." Scott said starting to understand.

"When the treatments stopped working my parents left, said they couldn't watch their daughter die. Total bullshit right?"I said with dry humor

Stiles looked at me with a sad look on his face. " I didn't know.. I thought..."

"Yea well you thought wrong." I said angrily. " Your three minutes are up." I started walking away.

"Ellie please.." Stiles grabbed my wrist again but this time I yanked it away and kept walking.

"You don't have to go with him." Scott said.

I stopped walking for a second and then kept walking to the car. Tears threatened to pour out of my eyes when I got in the car. Erica and Derek both looked at me with sad expressions.

Out of no where Derek started to sing," Look for the girl with the broken smile ask her if she wants to stay a while."

So I'm sitting in the cafeteria by myself because Eric said she had STUFF to do. Times like these I really miss Isaac. Just then someone came and sat next to me.

"I know I am the last person you want to see right now but can we please talk." Stiles begged me.

I looked up, "Why?"

"Look I know I was a total tool that day at the gym, I judged you and I shouldn't have done that. But before that ... talking to you.. it felt good." He said.

I looked into his eyes and sighed I couldn't stay mad at him. " Fine but you have to give me those sour patch kids." I said pointing to the bag in his hand.

He pouted and I giggled." It's good to hear that again. Your scary when your mad." He said with a smile.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to be." I said feeling bad.

He laughed." Ok I gotta ask how can someone as sweet as you hang out with Derek and Erica?"

"They're not so bad when they like you." I laughed at the face he made at that," Honestly they just kind of make me feel like I have a family again." I looked down embarrassed when he didn't say anything." I don't know maybe it's weird." I mumbled.

"It's not. It's real." He said handing me the sour patch kids." So I wanted to know-"

"Is Boyd next?" Scott asked storming over to our table.

I looked up sort of scared. I didn't agree with Derek on Boyd but Derek said he needed a pack. " Derek said he needed a pack." I said with my head down.

"But what do you think?" He asked.

"It doesn't matter what we think." Erica said walking up to us." Come on Ells Derek is here." She told me grabbing my arm. I waved at Stiles and he smiled.

I'm scared of what Derek has planned for Scott. I don't want to hurt Scott he's a really nice guy. I don't want to hurt anyone.

"That really hurts Scott." that's our que we walked up with Derek. " Erica how has your life been since we met?"

"In a word... transformative." She said before flashing her fangs causing me to frown.

"Isaac?"

"Well I'm a little bummed about being a fugitive but other than that I'm great."

"Ellie?" Derek looked at me expectantly. '

"Uhmm I got an A in gym this week minus the detention thing." I said awkwardly.

Scott chuckled " I saw that you killed the rock wall." He said with a smile.

I smiled back " Thanks it was actually..."I was cut off by a growl from Derek causing me to look down.

Scott looks at me with pity," You don't have to take that you know."

"What?" I asked curious.

"Shut up Scott." Derek says with an edge to his voice.

"I know what kind of person you are, Ellie." Scott said stepping toward me." There's some one you care about someone that keeps you human. Makes you wanna be a good person, for me it's Allison. Who is it for you?"

"Shut up Scott!" Derek said with much more force.

"Stiles!" He said with realization. " You love him that's why you got so upset when he found out. Your a good person Ellie. You don't want to be like him. I can help you!"

"She can be whoever she wants to." Derek growled.

" You told Stiles you were different." He said to me. " You have to show him."

Isaac had enough, charged Scott with Erica following. I watched conflicted not sure what to do.

"You have to choose whose side your on." Derek told me.

If I choose Stiles then I lose the closest thing I have ever had to a family but if I choose pack then I don't just loose the guy I have loved for 9 years but also something far more important ill loose me. If this is what I'm expected to do here, hurt the innocent to get what I want. I will never be able to live with myself.

My mind is made up. I made my way over to them and Isaac looked at me with that smile. I am the worst best friend ever. I walked over to Scott and helped him up. He smiled at me and I gave him a weak smile back. Erica and Isaac stopped fighting in shock.

Derek made his way over." So this is your choice? A boy over pack, over family."

I looked down feeling even worse." I'm sorry, but I wasn't just for him, it was for me. I love all of you, even you Derek, but I cant do this. It's not in my nature." I tried to explain

He walked up to me and said " I Understand."

I looked up at him with a smile with a couple of tears leaking out," Really?"

Derek wiped away one of my tears and smiled, " No." He said before punching me in the face causing me to fall on the ice and turn. This is my first time turning. I have no control and right now I don't care.

Scott quickly goes after Derek and I go right behind him. Derek head butted Scott Causing me to go after Derek. I Barely have time to throw a punch before he starts hitting me too. I'm Lying on the ground were he left me bloody from the hits. I look in his eyes and think he's not the same guy that showed concern and comfort and sang a cheesy pop song to make me feel better. That guy is gone. He goes over to start hitting on Scott. He has his boot on Scotts chest causing him to choke, I have to do something.

I get up and kick Derek's legs catching him off guard causing him to fall. I kick him in the face breaking his nose. As he gets back to his feet he punches me in the face a couple more times. I respond by kicking him were no guy should ever be kicked. He groans and falls to the ground and I keep hitting him. Over and over again. Eventually he stops fighting back but I keep hitting.

Scott runs over and pulls me away." Ellie! Ellie you need to calm down!" All of the others are watching me now." Think about something ... something like..." He thinks for a minute." Stiles! Think about Stiles!"

I picture his laugh, his smile, His eyes. I feel myself changing back. I look down at Derek and start to tear up."I am so sorry! I couldn't stop!"

"You need control." Derek said getting up. " Your definitely one hell of a fighter. I can help"

"I'm sorry, I really am but I still chose the same. I don't want to end up like this and I don't want to learn how to control it just so that I can hurt people better I want to not hurt people unless I need to." I said

"I can help with that." Scott said walking up beside me.

"Ellie, please stay." Isaac begged while Erica nodded in agreement with watery eyes.

"I'm sorry." I said with tears in my eyes.

Isaac shook his head and walked away. Erica followed with a glare at me causing me to shiver.

Finally Derek walked by stopping to say." You made the wrong choice." Before exiting.

I felt my chest tighten and tears fall.

Scott came over and put a hand on my shoulder.

"They hate me." I managed out before I started sobbing.

Scott pulled me into a hug." Shhhhh it's ok.. You'll be ok . you did the right thing." I just kept crying and he kept soothing me. The only thing worse then getting hurt is hurting someone you care about.