Chapter 2: First Day

BPOV

Oh my God. The pain is excruciating. It will never end. I want to die. Please God, kill me so I don't have to feel the pain. Please God, I need to die. I want to die.

I feel the blood running down my legs as Jacob helps me into the car. I can feel a sharp stabbing pain in my back and stomach. I feel like I'm being ripped in half. I feel a warm liquid gush from between my legs as I sit in the car. Jacob is only 15 and doesn't have much experience driving but he doesn't have a choice now. We need to get to the hospital.

I jerked up in my bed and clutched my abdomen with both hands. The hot tears started running down my face. I couldn't even cry out a name for my lost child. She didn't have a name.

I glanced at my alarm clock and saw that it was only 5:23 am. I needed to get up for school in thirty minutes. I was terrified to go to school. I was going to meet a lot of new people today. I had to try and fit in but still had to keep my secret. I would never tell my fellow students that I had a child. I was only 14 when she was born and she was dead anyway. It didn't affect my life here and now.

I got up and got read for school. As I headed into the kitchen I spotted a note from my dad. Charlie is the police chief here in Forks and has to be to work long before I get up in the mornings. I would be alone in the house most of the time. That suited me just fine. I didn't want to talk to anyone about my problems.

Bella,

I made sure that your truck has plenty of gas and is ready to go. Have a good day at school and learn something. Call me at the station if you need anything. Please be happy today.

Dad

I smiled a bit after I read Charlie's note. He wasn't one to express his emotions and it was surprising that he would write something like that. I folded the note up and tucked it in my back pocket so I would have something to keep me strong. I would need all the help I could get today.

I drove to the school with my stomach in knots. I had skipped breakfast because I knew I would be sick if I tried to eat. The last thing I needed was to be known as the girl who threw up all over on her first day. I had enough problems.

As I pulled into a space I pulled out my schedule and map. Charlie had already registered me and gotten all my books and papers on Friday. He was trying to make it a bit easier for me and I really appreciated that. My schedule said that I had Algebra II first period. Could my morning get any worse? I doubt it.

As I got out of my truck I noticed that several students were already staring at me. This was going to be a bad day. I clutched my books to my chest and stared at the floor as I walked into the school. I only glanced up enough to make sure I didn't walk right into a wall. Talk about embarrassing.

I made it to my math class and gave the teacher the slip I had to return to the office after all my teachers signed it. He gave me a breakdown of the rules and told me where we were in the book. The only seat was in the first row. I felt the other kids staring at me through the entire class. I felt their eyes on me.

The rest of the morning was the same. I had American History, English and Spanish. I always ended up in the front row where I could feel the stares of my new classmates. No one spoke to me all morning. No one tried to be my friend. I wasn't sure if this was good or bad. If I made friends I would be expected to talk about myself. It was better to not make friends. I only had a few months until school was over. I could go that long without friends.

When lunch finally rolled around I walked into the cafeteria alone. I got a bottle of water and a granny smith apple, paid and then went to find a seat. I wanted to sit alone. I needed to avoid people. I found an empty table in the farthest corner of the room. I headed towards it to sit down and eat. As I sat down I felt the stares and heard the whispers. I knew they were talking about me.

I stared at the table as I sipped my water and slowly ate my apple. The sour apple seemed to reflect my mood today. I was lost in my own little world when someone sat down next to me. I looked up and there was a small pixie like girl bouncing in the seat next to mine. She was smiling so wide that her face must be hurting. She had dark hair that was spiked in every direction. It sort of reminded me of a porcupine.

"Hey, I'm Alice Cullen. Are you Isabella Swan?" She said as she continued to bounce like she had eaten a pound of sugar.

"Yeah, but call me Bella." I said quietly.

"Hey, why are you eating all alone? Come sit with me and my friends. We are all really nice. We won't bite or anything. How about it? Does it sound like fun? Come on!" She gushed out in one breath. Wow, she did have a sugar high. I liked her though. She was funny.

"Sure, where are they?"

"Right over here," she said while dragging me up out of my seat. "We like to sit by the windows."

She pulled me across the room to a table that was occupied by four people. I studied them as we walked toward them. There were two blondes, a boy and a girl. Both of them were amazingly beautiful. They could be models in Paris, New York or Milan. The boy had slightly curly hair that was just a bit long and pale blue eyes. The girl had the exact same eye color and her hair went to her waist.

There was also a boy that looked like a weight lifter. He was big and burly with dark curly hair. It was kept short and clean cut. He had dark blue eyes and a dimpled smile that didn't seem to belong on his mammoth frame.

The last person was a boy that seemed tall and muscular but not overly built. He had a strange bronze color to his hair. He had his back to me so I couldn't see his face. He was staring out the windows at the light rain that had just started to fall.

"Hey, everyone, this is Bella and she is going to be my new best friend! She's going to sit with us today." Alice declared as I blushed and looked down at my feet. She pushed me down into a chair and stared the introductions.

"Bella, this is Jasper and Rosalie Hale, Emmett and Edward Cullen, my brothers. Jasper is my boyfriend and Rosalie is Emmett's girlfriend. Edward is the only single one."

Wow, talk about a hint! Edward turned to glare at Alice and she just shrugged him off.

"Hey, welcome to Forks. How do you like it here?" Emmett asked in a loud bear like voice.

"It's fine." I whispered.

"Where are you from?" Jasper asked in a strangely soothing voice.

"Phoenix." I was still whispering.

"Welcome to our rainy town." Rosalie said while smiling at me. "You can call me Rose by the way. I never use my full name."

"Thanks, I don't either." I whispered again. I don't know if they would keep talking to me if I was being so quiet.

"Why did you move from Phoenix?" A beautiful voice asked me. I looked up to see that it was Edward that had asked. My eyes met his and I couldn't look away. I stared into the most beautiful green eyes that I had ever seen. They were the exact same color as my granny smith apple. He stared right back at me with a strange but beautiful half smile on his face. It was a bit crooked but perfect.

Someone cleared their throat to pull me out of my daydreaming and I quickly looked down to my lunch and blushed.

"It's complicated." I whispered again.

All I could think was that this boy who sat across the table was perfect and that I would love to kiss his beautiful crooked smile. I would love to stare into those perfect green eyes forever. I didn't know how I was going to make it though the rest of the day.

Oh God, please don't let me fall in love again. When I fall in love, people die.