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Chapter Three – Unexpected:

Edward's POV

It's been a week since I found out about Bella being pregnant. She has already started having bones broken by 'it'. I don't know if I can just sit here and watch anymore. It's killing me that I'm the reason this is happening to her. She is so stubborn. She's is willing to risk or life for something we don't even know if we are capable of controlling. When I heard her call Rosalie and tell Rosalie what happened and what Carlisle and I was trying to make her do. Of course Rosalie sides with her and protects 'it'. She doesn't care about Bella, or what happens to her as long as 'it' is okay. Each time she cries out in pain is the more I want to get rid of that thing she is carrying to make her all better. Carlisle doesn't think she has a good chance of coming out of this alive. Even after she decided she wanted to be human for a while longer. She's throwing her life away for this thing.

"Edward, what's wrong? You have been so distant lately", says Bella.

"Nothing love. I just don't know if I can keep watching this. It's killing me to watch you be in this much pain and breaking because of something I did to you."

Bella sighed

I remember her—as I heard the last crack of her ribs—crying out in pure agony. If in one moment in my life I ever wished I was capable of crying and showing my emotions, this would be it. The one moment I would show her how truly upset and heartbreaking this is for me to watch. Carlisle and Rosalie rushed her up to Carlisle's study which at this current point in time it is being used as a hospital room. When Bella needs something put back in place or reset that's where they take her. If she makes it far enough along to have 'it' then they will bring her up here for that as well. Once they bandage her ribcage up for the second time today trying to hold her ribs in place I went to speak with her. I need to tell her I'm leaving, and that I'm truly sorry but I need some time away from all of this to clear my head. She'll understand, won't she? She has to understand that I can't watch her suffer anymore. I walked over to the couch and sat beside Bella. I looked into her deep chocolate brown eyes and smiled her favorite crooked smile at her.

"Bella, I think I need to go away for a while."

She looked at me with understanding and sadness, "I know Edward. I knew you were going to leave. I understand why you can't stay with me, because you think I'm making the wrong choice. In my eyes though; I think I'm making the right choice for my child. Our child. Our baby. I really think we are going to have a boy. I just hope no matter the outcome you'll be able to take care of him/her if something happens to me."

I looked up at her pleadingly. "Please don't talk like that. You and the . . . baby will be okay. You're just being strong, and apparently I'm not as strong as you are. Don't ever forget I love you. I'll be back soon. Just right now, I need to think. Please don't think this is because I don't love you, because it's not. I just can't watch you go through this knowing it's my entire fault that you're hurting and broken. You are always trying to make me feel better and take the guilt and self-loath away, but it is my fault. No one else's except for mine, if you would have gotten pregnant by anyone else, you wouldn't be breaking right now. I'll come back in a couple of weeks. If something happens Carlisle can call me, love. I'll talk to you every day." I assured her.

I won't think about the fact that I'm breaking my promise at the moment. I can't think about the fact that because of me she'll probably end up having those horrible nightmares again; waking herself up to her own screams. Jacob made sure to make those memories very vivid. Charlie helped with his cause even if not intentional.

Bella sighed, "Okay. I'll miss you though. Please, come home soon. I love you too."

She leaned over and put her head on top of my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around her. I hummed her lullaby as she dose off to sleep. I carried her up to my room and kissed her forehead before I left the room. I had already packed everything I needed to take. I went to say my goodbyes to the family.

"Edward Cullen! Don't you dare even think you are leaving Bella here by herself and taking off", says Alice furious. Her thoughts are even worse.

"Please, can everyone just mind their own business? Especially little annoying pixies!"

"No, I can't. I have already talked to Esme and she has agreed. We will be attending you on your absences", Alice says firmly.

I can tell by her thoughts that she is serious. And she is not likely to back down, but I have to try. I really need to go alone.

"Alice, you and Esme can both stay here. Bella needs you both here not with me." I tried to reason with her.

"Bella doesn't need us here anymore than she needs you here." She practically screamed. I lunged at her, and covered my hand over her mouth.

"If you don't know how to keep your voice down then we can take this discussion outside. Bella is sleeping and she needs all the sleep she can get."

"Sorry, but we're not letting you go by yourself."

"Why not? I'm all grown up, I'm married, and I can't go on a trip away alone?"

"I keep getting visions. They are fuzzy, but vivid enough to show me that you departing on your own accord is not a good idea." she states worried.

"Why is that?"

"I don't know, sometimes I see you in Italy. Other times I see you with some girl. I can't tell who the girl is because these are all situations that could happen, not definite. They haven't been decided enough to make up a definite vision. I just don't need to take the chance of my brother running off to Italy or cheating on my best friend and also my very beloved sister. So it's already decided Esme and I are coming. Like it or not!" she says firmly leaving no room to argue with her.

"I don't get much of a choice about this. Are you ready? We are taking the Volvo", I give in with a sigh.

"Yes, we are ready dear. Your father has already loaded the car for all of us. Have you already said goodbye to Bella?" Esme asks

"Yes I have. I let her fall asleep in my arms and carried her to the bedroom before I was willing to leave. Carlisle, if anything happens, anything at all call me. I'll come back as soon as possible."

"Goodbye, everyone."

"I can't believe he's really going to leave her when she needs him more know than she ever did. He is still just as useless as always, runs and puts his tale between his legs. I hope we don't see what she went through when Edward left the first time. After what everyone and she has told us of our time away, she was really bad the first time he left. I will hate to see what happens when he leaves this time", Rosalie thought.

Rosalie hasn't talked to me since we arrived. And I'm not going to answer her thoughts.

"Bye Edward, be safe. Don't do anything you'll regret", Jasper thought.

"Eh, where are you going? Whatever have fun. Bye. There's a basketball game on. Come on really, 19 – 4. There is no way they'll win now. They only have four minutes left before the game is over. Bummer", Emmett thought.

"Don't do anything stupid, please. Bella really does need you. Come home soon", Carlisle thought.

I nodded towards Carlisle and smiled as I walked out of my familiar home. Before I leave I hear Carlisle's thoughts again hoping Bella would be all right with me leaving.

The car ride to Oregon was more than unbearable. Alice and Esme didn't say anything half of the ride. Alice said the alphabet in ten different languages. Esme kept thinking about the day she lost her unborn child, and her fear of losing Bella or I. When we arrived at the hotel in Portland, Oregon I started to take our luggage in. I waited at the front desk for keys to our conjoining room. Esme and Alice had decided to share a room not as if we really were going to be sleeping during our stay. After retrieving our keys, I then took our luggage to our suit. Alice and Esme were standing outside of our rooms. I'm assuming Alice had a vision to which room we would be staying in. She was standing there smiling when I opened the door and we continued into our bedrooms. As soon as we sat down and started putting our luggage away, Alice began to have a vision. I focused trying to make some sense of it.

I'm at the Denali's house. Tanya meets me at the door, and then she led me into her bedroom and asked me to have a seat on the bed where she joined me. While I started talking about what was going on.

Alice turned to look at me as she sat down on the bed beside me.

"Whatever it is you are planning, I don't suggest it!" she thinks furious

I simply nodded showing I understood. I had already decided I wanted to go to Denali and speak with Tanya or even Kate. I just needed someone out of my immediate family to talk to about this issue. About that it's all my fault that Isabella Marie Cullen is going to die because of me, because I thought we could take the chance and be intimate and as long as I didn't lose control and hurt her than she would okay. Was I wrong? Now she decided to keep that thing that is causing her so much pain and hurting her so much because it was something we created, together. I loathed myself because I didn't want to be careless not considering every possible outcome. I loathe what that creature is doing to her. I let my barriers down and now I'm going to sit here and watch my wife die because of a selfish act. I didn't deserve Bella and her selflessness. I didn't deserve her love. I didn't deserve her dying because of my mistake.

"Edward, are you okay?" Alice thought, concerned.

"Yes, I'm okay. I'm just thinking about everything and all the possible outcomes, now that it's too late. Bella is going to die because of me." I say quietly

"Edward, you are over reacting." She tells me as she rolls her eyes.

"Am I really? How would you feel? If you were the reason Jasper was in so much pain. You would feel the same way, I promise you that." I say harshly.

She sat there in silence. She was trying to come up with how to phrase her answer.

"I wouldn't leave. I would stay and protect him with everything I had. I would stay with him until the very end–-for better or for worse—even if I had to watch him die. I would stay. I wouldn't run like a coward. You don't see the outcome of this decision, but I do. In the end; you'll hurt her more than you can even imagine possible of you hurting her. This is going to be worse than the last time you left her. You think you leaving her again is going to make this problem better or go away, but it's not. She needs you and you're running away because you're scared. I don't need to be an empath to see that you're scared of this. You leaving is not going to make the problem go away. You'll be lucky if she even talks to you when you get back." Alice says.

I just stared at her. Is that how she really viewed me, as a coward? I'm not a coward. It may look like I am but Bella knows why I'm leaving and that's all that matter. Is that she understands why I am leaving. And Bella will forgive me and talk to me. We always forgive each other even for our biggest mistakes. Why would it be different now? We'll get through this, if she …. Somehow, she manages to survive the birth.

"I'm not leaving because I'm a coward. I'm leaving because I need time to think and you should have stayed home if you were so worried about Bella. She didn't need just me. She needed her 'best friend' which I thought was you. Apparently you wanted to be a 'coward' as well. How dare you think so little of me?"

Alice looked down at the floor. "You asked what I would do if I was in your shoes, and that is what I would do. Yes she is my best friend, and I know she'll be okay. I trust Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, and Carlisle and even Jacob with my best friend. She is also my sister. You are my brother, and I don't trust you to be by yourself. I had too many visions of things you would do while you're alone, and all of them causing Bella great pain, greater then she is in now. I don't want you to hurt yourself and her in the process." She thought.

I understood. I couldn't honestly be mad at Alice for being honest with me about her feelings. It was just she didn't understand why I felt this way. She didn't understand that I am sitting here blaming myself. Everyone is telling me it wasn't my fault, when it was. I decided to sleep with Bella while she was still human. I caused her all those bruises the next morning. I saw how easily I could have broken her. How could they say it wasn't my fault? Top it all off, Bella finds out she is pregnant, and with my child. How is any of that not my fault?

Bella's POV

Why would he leave me again? He promised. Why is he trying to break me even more? I know he is scared. I understand that he just needs time to think, but he doesn't seem to see what him, leaving is doing to me. I can't argue about this. I don't have the strength to argue. I have to be strong for my child. Edward has to come back. He promised me. Why does he keep doing this? I'm scared too, but apparently my emotions and feelings don't matter.

I wish he would've stayed. I was so blown away when he told me he needed to leave. I was in shock, and I couldn't make my mouth debate his leaving even if I wanted to. I should have, screamed, yelled, or anything. I love him. I'm willing to die to protect the one thing we created together and he is the one who needs air. Why can't he feel the same way and just love our unborn baby with me?

I'm chasing Edward through the forest. He is running faster and faster away from me. I am screaming and yelling with him to stop and talk to me. My pleading is useless though. He disappears. I hear someone behind me. "I told you he would hurt you again. You made the wrong choice. You should have chosen me. I wouldn't have hurt you like he keeps doing." The familiar sound of Jacob's husky voice made my heart race. I turned to run to him and he held me as I cried. I turned around to once again look in Edward's direction. He is standing there with someone, another girl. She looked like Tanya Denali. He is holding her hand and kissing her forehead. He is acting like he is protecting her. I scream at him, "what about me? What about your child? What about us?" He turned around; He walked away from me. As I watched his family members were standing there and they all walked behind him after their comments. I couldn't believe Rosalie was going to follow him. I screamed for her to stay. I told her I would even share my child with her so she could be the mother she always wanted, but she just continued walking away from me. I fell to my knees and began to cry until I was too exhausted to move.

When I woke up from my dream I realized that it wasn't a mere dream. I'm screaming and there are tears rolling off my cheeks. Edward really left. I feel my chest starting to rip apart again. I curl up in a ball and try to hold my arm as tight as I can to my chest. I looked up to see Rosalie. She is staring at me, and her eyes are full of sympathy.

Rosalie's POV

How can he do this to her all over again? How can he even say he cares when every time he runs away and hides? I don't understand why he thinks he can do this to Bella. She doesn't deserve to put her heart on the line and risk her life for him. He doesn't care how she really feels about him. He cares about himself and that is it. Emmett kept asking if he should go check on Bella—he is really worried about her—after Alice called me with her vision with Edward going to Alaska I was furious. How can he even possibly think about going there? Knowing Tanya still thinks she is in love with him. Even Jasper tried to explain the feelings she is having towards Edward are merely lust, if you could even call Tanya's feelings that.

I realize just recently that Bella isn't giving up anything. She can still have the fancy car, the big house, and the real family that she deserves to have. The one thing I never could have. The one thing she was willing to throw away. I'm sure she would have regretted it later on. Most of us wish we still had that opportunity to bear, deliver, and hold our own creations. Our own perfect reincarnation of ourselves and the one we love. This will fill the void whereas Bella spoke with me yesterday afternoon asking me to be the babies 'godmother'. Of course I accepted, at least I'll be a mother figure to someone. Someone needs to help Bella tame this child and I am more than happy to be of service.

I was brought back to reality by deathly screams coming from the third story. I realized quickly it was Bella's scream and ran to her as fast as my body would allow. When I reached the doorway I could see Bella. She had tears streaming down her face. I walked him and started patting her back, rubbing in a circular motion in the hope that it would somehow soothe her. Her eyes locked on mine.

"I'm sorry."

Why is she apologizing? Why does this girl always believe everything is her fault? Seriously she does not see herself at all clearly.

"Bella, what is wrong? Why are you crying? Why of all things are you apologizing?

"Everything is wrong, Rosalie. My world is falling apart, and I'm scared. I'm apologizing because I shouldn't be your problem to deal with. It shouldn't be yours, Emmett, Jasper, and Carlisle's place for me to come back around and be 'Bella' again. Edward should be the one to do this. Last time he left and I somehow managed my best friend to do it—take care of me, fix me—and help me. Not like I can see him like this. What would he think, or even worse what would he say? Obviously all of you know, and that means Jacob would know also. That I'm not going to make it through this pregnancy alive. This is the reason I'm going to die. I'll gladly die for my child and he or she doesn't even need to ask, but in the end I'm not living through this birth as a human. I can't ask the one person who makes my day just a little bit better because he's my safe harbor to come back and put me back together just to turn around and throw it in his face he wasn't good enough, Rose. I can't do it to him. I'd rather die a thousand times over before hurting him like that again."

I thought I knew Bella. Apparently I was dead wrong. I thought she was stronger than this when Edward left. She really fell apart and none of us even had a slightest clue to how she felt and what she went through. What I have been told about her depression when we left this had greatly magnified. Really, maybe it wasn't magnified. Maybe she tried to deny that she felt so depressed that she became catatonic when we left. Emotionally she couldn't get passed that we left so her mind tried to shield her from her own emotions.

"Bella, I'm sorry. Do you need anything, food or a drink of some sort? I'd be more than glad to get you anything you need." I looked at her hopeful she would want something, anything.

She sighed, "No, Rose. I think I'll just try to go back to sleep. Will you lay with me for a few minutes though?"

"Of course Bella. Sweet dreams, and don't forget I'm not leaving this house until tomorrow and which I hope you're feeling better because Emmett wants to spend the whole day with you. He loves you."

I saw a smile turn up on Bella's lips as I lay next to her. "Yes, and I love him too. Goodnight Rose. Thank you." She no longer got that statement out and she's already asleep; so human, so peaceful, and relaxed. How I envy Bella for being able to do all these things I cannot accomplish ever again in my existence. She began talking in her sleep. Nothing I could make out of the mumbles until just before I left the room. "No Rose, you would be a great mom. I'm sorry I have what you wanted so badly… don't go, don't hate me... I can share."

I whispered in Bella's ear, "I'm not going anywhere Bella. I love you and I love my unborn niece or nephew. Sweet dreams."

I turned to look up to a smirking Emmett. I should have known better than to believe he would actually let me tend on Bella alone. He embraced me into a hug as he kissed my forehead. "I love you" he whispered in my ear. I stared into his eyes, as I replied "and do I, more than you'll ever find fathomable." I kissed his cheek as I left Bella to sleep without interruptions. Emmett followed me downstairs and asked all the questions I already had assumed he wanted answers too.

"Why was Bella screaming? Is she okay? Did the baby hurt her again? Is she going to be okay? Why were you laying with her when I came in?" He paused realizing if he kept listening questions he wasn't going to get any answers.

I sighed, "Em, honey. I love you. What you saw is an exact replica of what Bella was like when Edward left her the first time, when we all left her. Yes, she'll be fine. She's strong. I lay down with her because she had asked me to. I think it comforts her, to have one of us lying next to her. I can tell it relaxes her, because she was only lying with me for mere minutes and she was already asleep. It has nothing to do with the baby, and I promise if it's the last thing I do Bella and the baby will make it through this."

"I love you too Rose. I'm glad you're bonding with Bella. I told you she's the best little sister anyone could ever have. She's amazing, and wait until she's a newborn. You can babysit while she and I play some baseball!" Emmett beamed.

I couldn't help but chuckle. "You are right, honey. I just wish Edward would stop hurting her."

"I know and I feel the same way."

"You knew he was leaving and plans to go to see Tanya? We both know that will hurt Bella either way, but if he does something unforgivable with Tanya than I hope he doesn't show his face here again."

"Rose…. What are you talking about? Edward left because he keeps blaming himself for Bella being pregnant. He'll come around."

"No. Alice called me and told me he is planning on making a visit to Tanya. Alice said she'll try to persuade him not to go. She asked me not to mention anything to Bella. How can I keep this from her?"

"I don't know babe. I don't want to tell her, do you? It will crush her and she can't afford the stress while she's having this many problems with her pregnancy as it is now. We shouldn't cause more. Let's wait and see what happens."

"I think you may be right, and I love you. How do you always know what to say to make it a little easier each day to exist?"

"Well that question is easy, because I love you. I don't ever want to see you upset, so if there is a way I can fix it then I will. Either way, I'll at least try to fix it."

"I want to call Jacob. I think Bella really needs a true friend. She needs someone who has helped her with this before. Would that be okay?" I looked into Emmett's eyes pleading with him.

"Do what you think you need to do. I'll support you either way, love you babe. I'm going out for a hunt. I'll switch with you in the morning." Emmett said as he kissed my cheek.

I pulled Emmett closer to me for a passionate kiss. When I let him go a huge smile crossed over his features. I smiled back and walked towards our room. I heard Jasper in his room. I walked to his room and knocked lightly. He opened the door and went back to the bed to sit down, and I followed to join him.

"Hey Jasper" I almost whispered.

"Hey Rose." Jasper stated.

"I just wanted to check on you quickly. How is everything?"

"Okay. I'm worried but it's going to be okay. It has to be." He was saying this more for his benefit than my own.

"We are Jasper. If you need anything I'll be in my room. You don't mind if I ask one of the wolves to come over do you? Bella really needs him."

He looked at me. He let out a sigh of relief.

"Of course I don't mind. Anything that will make Bella happy! That is all that matters is her happiness."

I simply nodded as I got up and left Jasper's room. I walked out in the hallway and up to the third story. I grabbed Bella's cell phone in order to find Jacob's number. I found it, and I returned Bella's phone. She really is something else. I really thought this was just some fascination she had with vampires. I'm slowly learning that she really loves all of us, even me. I walked back to my bedroom to make the phone call.

Ring!

Ring!

Ring!

Ring!

When I decided nobody was home and that I might as well hang up the phone someone answered. It sounded like I must have woken them.

"Hello." The husky voice said.

"Hello, is Jacob available?" I asked quickly.

"Uh, Yeah. I'm right here, and who is this?" Jacob replied.

"My name is Rosalie Hale, and I'm calling because I need to speak to you about Bella."

It was quite for a few moments before he dared to speak again.

"Did you say Bella? Is she okay? What's wrong?"

"It's a long story but basically Edward left her again and Alice had a vision that he's going to cheat on here and I just thought she would need a friend. There is something else, but I think it will be better if you hear that from her than me. Do you think you could come over say, at three? She should be awake by then."

"Yes. I'll be there at three. I got to go for now. Bye."

I sighed as I hung up the phone. Good, at least she'll have her best friend with her. Unlike Alice, Jacob is really there for her no matter what. I do think a lot of the dog that he does so much just to help her be happy. Ugh, I can't believe I'm going to be nice to a werewolf just to make Bella happy. I hope she appreciates this. It will be nice if this cheers her up.