Yo everybody reading this, I'm really sorry I hadn't updated in like….forever. I'm sorry for that. I've had a lot on my mind. It hadn't occurred to me until now that writing was the perfect thing to make me feel better. So here it is. Hope Chapter 3 was worth the wait. ( I partly used lines from New Moon)

I ran down the western border of Canada. I reached Washington and abruptly stopped in my tracks. I could smell her. Not Victoria. I hadn't smelled her at all. Not even a trace, but her. I got the faintest bit of her smell.

I knew I was probably just being paranoid. There was no way I could smell her from all the way across flash of the scent was maddening, I took a step in the direction of the mouth watering fragrance but turned east on the spot. I picked up pace again and ran toward Maine. I couldn't go back. I'd left for a reason. To keep her safe. As I ran I felt light headed. Something I've never felt since being a vampire.

That detection of her scent was not right. Maybe I was going crazy. I'm sure that wasn't impossibility. The last thing I needed right now was to be reminded of her scent, but I just was and the pain was unbearable. I saw the forests on my sides, a blur. I don't think anything has ever been a blur for me since Carlisle had changed me. I realized I had stopped. The trees still a blur. I felt out of breath. The unnecessary breath I breathed out of habit has left me and I couldn't stand.

I fell straight to the ground and landed on my side. I wrapped my hands around my knees. How can I not breathe or stand? I was a vampire for crying out loud! I didn't need to breathe! But right now, I feel like I do. I feel like I need oxygen to survive, but it wasn't oxygen I needed.

Through all this bewilderment I hadn't quite realized the extent of the pain, emotional pain of course. I saw her face in my mind as I felt the moisture from the ground soak in through my shirt. I saw the last look I ever saw on her face right before I left. Sadness.

After I shook off the look on her face I could breathe again and it felt the same as it had since I was changed. I felt like I didn't need it. I couldn't quite sigh in relief. I has never experienced this kind of pain I was feeling right now. I have known humans to be fragile in their emotions and I have taken a note of how they feel when their in pain. They seem to be no responsive and overwhelmed. I guess that's where the incapability to breathe came from. I memory flashed in my head.

She was lying on the floor. She was bleeding tremendously and her hair was soaked in her blood. I saw the newly formed crescent bite mark on her hand and I felt extreme agony.

That did it! I had the memory from her being hurt. James. He's the one that hurt her. I wasn't going to let her get hurt like that again. If she did I wouldn't be able to save her. Or comfort her, though Mike could do that. I needed to find Victoria. If I could track her down then maybe the aching I felt would go away. I would know that I did something to keep her safe. I knew the idea of me tracking in thsi 'condition' would not be easy, but I needed to do this. As a farewell to my Bella.

October

November

December

January

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even if every tick of the second hands makes my invisible heart ache. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. (AN : Sound familiar?).

I wasn't tracking at this point, I hadn't caught a clue in which way Victoria was. I scoured all of the U.S. except for one state. I was going to try to search there too but once I was too close to Forks, (aka: thousands of miles away), I could smell her. Distinctly. I ran south immediately.

After that mishap I decided to go see my family. I hadn't talked to anyone since I left and I'm sure Esme is worried sick. I was heading to Rio. I figured they had all went there, their favorite place in South America.

Once I got there I was surprised to find none of them. But what I did find surprised me. Their scent was going north. I could detect evry one of them. I followed the scent for a few hours not really thinking of my suroundings. I was VERY surprised and shocked when I found myslef in California. I knew they were'nt here. This place was far to sunny. I kept on their path. It led north and north untill I relized it. They went back to Forks! Oh No! The one promise I made to her broken. They could not interifer or I would have to collect them. I was actually scared. IO knew if I saw Bella now I would never leave again. I ran straight north. Hopefully i could retrieve them before this got out of hand.