A/N: Thank you for all your reviews! I know it's been a while since I updated, but I've been really busy with school and stuff, but here is the next chapter! I hope you like it, and please review!

Disclaimer: I still don't own Grey's Anatomy…

Meredith was sitting on the couch in Finn's living room. She had been absent towards him ever since her and Derek's little meeting in the staircase and she knew it. She knew Finn had realized something was going on, but he hadn't asked her about it. She knew he didn't deserve someone like her, someone who was thinking about someone else and wasn't really happy with where she was. But she was trying. She was trying so hard to be happy. But it didn't work. She couldn't get him out of her mind, and definitely not out of her heart. It had been almost a week since she had spoken to him. She had been avoiding him and had been rather successful in doing so. She had heard from one of the nurses that he and Addison wasn't living together anymore and just didn't know what to do around him. Once again she choose the easy way out, and simply avoidedhim.

She had Finn to think about. Sweet, kind, wonderful Finn who was cooking for her. Finn that had plans that included her. Finn whom she liked very much, and wanted to love, butjust couldn't. Someone had taken her heart away from her without giving it back, and she wanted it back, but knew it wasn't going to happen.

Finn stood in the kitchen, observing Meredith from over there. He knew she wasn't happy, and that she and Derek were not just friends and co-owners of a dog. He knew there was something going on between them, but he didn't dare asking her what it was about. Because he didn't want to hear the truth. So he just told himself that everything was fine, that things were okay between him and Meredith, and that she wasn't too scary and damaged. He just brought their plates over to the couch and placed her in front of her. She looked at him with pain in her eyes, the pain that had been there for almost a week now, and tried to give him a smile but failed. It came out like a grimace instead. He smiled back and sat down in silence, eating his food. She barely touched her, she just couldn't eat.

"I'm sorry Finn", she said when he took he plate away to put it in the sink. He stopped and turned his head to look at her.

"I know you are", he said and sat down next to her again, carefully putting his arm around her shoulders. "

"I can't do this", she quickly rose from the couch and ran out the door, grabbing her jacket and bag on the way. She ran to her car and left as quickly as she could, tears running down her face.

She didn't know where she was going, she just drove. When she stopped the car she was at the place overlooking the ferryboats where she had brought Derek once. She didn't know why she was there. She hadn't been there since she took him there. Long before things got the way they were now.

She wiped the tears away from her face and got out of the car. She slowly walked towards the bench where she always sat. When she got closer, she saw that someone was already sitting there, on her bench. She immediately knew who it was and stopped. Her first thought was to run. Just run away from him and don't look back. But she knew it wouldn't work. It never had and it wasn't going to. So she took a deep breath and walked up to the bench. He turned his head to see who it was, and smiled when he realized it was her. She sat down next to him, neither of them spoke. They just sat there watching the ferryboats below them.

"She left me", he said, not looking at Meredith. "She left me because she knew I love you, and she could never compete with that" She didn't look at him and didn't speak immediately.

"Finn is a great guy. He is a sweet, kind, generous guy who likes me. And he has plans that include me, and he isn't married, and he doesn't lie to me. He is perfect, and I'm trying so hard to be happy with him, but I can't do it. Because of you. It is all your fault! You lied to me, you broke me, you made me love you and you took my heart away without giving it back, and I just can't take it anymore!" Derek looked at her with pain in his eyes.

"Meredith…", he starts but she interrupts him.

"No! I need to do this. I have to do this! You say you love me, you tell me you care. But you have no right to do that! You have no right to get jealous when I try to move on." She met his eyes for the first time and could see that her words had hurt him. Before she could react he leaned in and kissed her. At first, she tried to push him away, but couldn't resist the feeling of his soft lips against her own and was soon kissing him back. He pulled her closer to him and she put her hands in his hair, unable to resist him. All thoughts about Finn and how wrong what they were doing were just disappeared from her head. It felt so right. At that moment, nothing else mattered. Deep inside her, Meredith knew this was the way it was supposed to be and she didn't have the strength to fight it.

A/N: That's it! I don't know if it's any good, but I hope you like it. If you have any ideas of where you want me to go with this story, please tell me. And please review!