Broken- A Greys Anatomy Fan Fiction
She looks so perfect. So tiny and beautiful. How can there be so much wrong with this angel? "Oh, honey" I sigh, "We love you so much.". I reach through the small holes on the side of the incubator and hold her little hand. It's so small and precious. "I love you so much." I whisper to her.
"Arizona, the meds really aren't working. What do you want to do? I know it's really and unpleasant thought, but I'm thinking a DNR might be the best for her." Dr. Montgomery suggests.
"Excuse me?" I say furiously. "Did you really say that? Or am I hearing things." I look her dead in the eyes. "No way in hell are you putting a DNR on her file."
"Sorry, I just-"
"You just what?" I shout. Suddenly I find myself on my feet and tears are pouring down my cheeks. "You really think that would be best for her? Are you insane? She's been alive for under a week and you want Callie to sign a feakin' DNR? She hasn't even met her yet and you want us to say it's okay for her to die?"
"I'm really sorry I even brought this up. I just.. I know how hard it will be for her to survive. It'll be like bending your elbow back wards until your bones break and tear through your skin." She says. She shifts her weight and takes a step back. "I'm sorry."
"Just leave. If her heart needs surgery I'll page you." I turn away from her. "Please just leave."
The sound of the door shutting wakes my tiny Callie up. Her tiny wails pull on my heart and I think to myself, this is why I didn't want kids. I've seen way too many babies and sweet children die. The ones that survive are sometimes worse. Epilepsy, heart defects, brain damage, so many things can go wrong. I just have to pray that my daughter survives and is able to live a long and happy life.
"My sweet love, it's okay." I whisper and I sit back down on the stool beside her incubator. "It's gonna be okay." I need this to be true. If we lose her, I'm going to lose Callie too. "Me and your Mommy, we're going to get married. We're going to live in a beautiful house. Even Mark can visit."
There's a knock on the door and it slowly opens. "Arizona? Are you here?" Meridith calls.
"Yes. I'm here." I sigh.
"I brought someone down to see the baby." She says as she opens the door wider. I see Callie sitting in a wheel chair. Her eyes fill with tears when she sees me. Meridith rolls her towards the incubator, but Callie stands and walks to me.
"I love you." Callie says. I wrap my arms around her. She kisses me and pulls out of my arms. "Look at her." She whispers. "She's beautiful." I stare right at Callie.
"She is amazing." I say.
She turns to me. She reaches for my hand and I feel like I'm dreaming. She's going to be okay. She really is.