Disclaimer: Not mine.
Title: Replacement
Rating: M
Summary: Sam will love only Dean forever, and Jess will be good enough. pre-Dean/Sam, fuckedup!Sam/Jess
Author's note: I always thought Sam and Jess's relationship was interesting seeing how many lies must have tainted it. And maybe Jess is a horrible character for breaking up our beloved boys, but I truly believed she loved Sam… despite his emoy, dastardly brother-complexed personality.
Jessica is so much like Dean it burns. Little flickers of flame inside his chest that hurt (riphimapartandhecan'tbreath) whenever she smiles at him, soft brown eyes (goldenhazelwithlonglashes) content and happy. In the beginning he couldn't look at her, couldn't touch her because every other though was (DeanDeanDeanDeanbroth-) tainted with large, gun calloused hands and the way he had always felt large and full inside of him. Owning, protecting. Loving.
But it's been years now and Sam loves Jess, but he's not in love with her (godDeanpleasenoILoveY-). He'll never love anyone else. And maybe Jess knows that because she never asks him to turn the lights on when they fuck and she never asks him to take her from the front unless it's her birthday or something grand has happened (I'vewonaScholarshipPleaseSam?) Never asks him why he's utterly silent, why he's never uttered her name when they're together. Never asks why the picture of the beautiful hazel eyed man is the only one he keeps with him at all times.
Jess is enough like Dean that he can survive. She's just enough. (Deanohgod…)