Chapter

We were staying in a hotel tonight here in Ohio. Finally. An actual bed. I. Could. Not. Wait. I might actually get some decent sleep tonight. When we checked in I went to my room and sat my over night bag down on the floor and flopped my happy ass down on the bed. I laid back and stared up at the ceiling. I had laid there for a few minutes when there was a knock at my door.

"Coming." I said walking to the door.

I opened it to find James standing there. "Oh hey." I moved to the side and let him walk in.

"No fair. You don't have to share a room." He said looking around the room.

"Nope. Mel wanted her own room so I got to have my own."

"Arent you a lucky girl." He said

"So whats up?" I asked

"Oh yea the guys and I were going to the lobby to try to find a bar or something, wanna come with us?"

"Yeah sure." I put my flip-flops on, grabbed my clutch, room key and followed him out.

The guys were already in the lobby waiting when we got there.

"Yay Peyton!" Carlos said throwing his hands in the air.

Gosh I loved that kid.

We made our way to the lounge area. There wasnt anyone really there which was surprising since it was 930 at night. We sat at a table and ordered drinks. The guys were telling horror stories about each other. I was having a great time listening to them. One would think that it would make you feel out-of-place but not me. It was fun to hear them reminiscing about their pasts. We had a few rounds of drinks and shots. I don't think any of us were feeling any pain. The bar tender came over and said it was last call and for us to either finish up what we had or we could order another round. We ordered another round and then Logan asked if he had anything that we could buy and take to our rooms. The guy said he didn't but there was a liquor store two blocks over that didn't close until 2 so we could go there and get what we needed. We downed our drinks and made our way to the store. It was a longer walk then I thought it was going to be but we made it just in time. We got a bottle of Vodka. Oh man I was going to be hung over like a dog tomorrow. How fun is a show going to be in the blazing hot sun, hung over? I don't know but here I was getting waisted with four people who I have grown to love dearly.

We made our way back to Kendall and Logan's hotel room. Thank God mine was literally two rooms down. So walking back after this wont be too hard. We went in and started on the poison that was about to consume me. Ugh. we were taking shots left and right. We were laughing and having a great time. About 2 hours after that we noticed that Logan had passed out on his bed and was now snoring like a bear.

"Well thats my cue, I'm going to bed." Carlos said getting up off the floor.

We all said goodnight as he walked out the door.

Kendall was laying on the floor with his eyes closed. James and I were still laughing at Logan's loud snoring and James throwing things at him.

"He wont even budge." James said through laughter.

Then we noticed that Kendall was now snoring.

"I guess its time we head to bed too. Tomorrow may not be the greatest for any of us." I said standing up throwing my cup into the trash.

"Yeah really. Oh well." James said as we both made our way to the door we were both laughing hysterically. He walked me to my door which like I said was only about 15 feet from where we just came out of.

"This is me. Goodnight James." I said turning around to put the key card into the door. As I was opening the door I was being turned around by my arm right inside the door. James was standing in front of me, very close. He still had my arm and was staring into my eyes. My heart started racing and my breathing became hitched. Oh my God. What is happening? Am I dreaming? Is this for real? Before I could stop myself my arms were around his neck and his lips were on mine. He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He shut the door with his foot and led us to the bed. We were kissing passionately. I reached down and lifted his shirt up and he helped get it up over his head. My hands were now wandering all over his very sculpted body, up his back down his sides and back up his stomach. God his body felt good under my fingers. He pulled my shirt up over my head while breaking our kiss for only a second. I started working on the buckle of his belt and he was now kissing my neck. oh God this man knew what he was doing. I unbuttoned his pants and pushed them down he stepped out of them without breaking away from kissing my neck and down my chest. He made his way back up to my lips and started to unbutton my pants. I stepped out of them and let them join his clothes on the floor. We were both touching and feeling every part of each others bodies. I was in only my bra and underwear and him only in his boxer briefs. He put his hands on either side of my face while he deepened the kiss. He laid me down on the bed and he crawled on top of me. He positioned his self between my thighs and I could feel that he was as ready as I was for the rest of our clothes to get out-of-the-way. We kissed fiercely for a few minutes while moving gently against one another. Before it became too much for the both of us, he lifted me up a little of the bed and unclippeded my bra, he pulled it from me and then went to my underwear. Once I was fully exposed laying on the bed he stood up at the end of the bed and took off his briefs. Oh. My. God. this man before me is absolutely the perfect thing I have ever seen. My want and need for him only grew by the second. He climbed back over top of me and positioned his self right above me. Before he began kissing me again he said "Are you sure about this?" I was too far gone for us to stop now. I wanted him and I wanted him bad. I just nodded then as he began to kiss me again he went in and it was the most amazing feeling I had ever felt in my life this was pure bliss and I wanted more. As much as I could get.

The next morning I woke up to the bright ass sun beating into my room. I looked at the clock on the night stand next to me 9:43. Gosh why didn't I close the damn curtains before I went to sleep last night? OH GOD. LAST NIGHT. I looked over and saw a body laying next to me. What the hell did I do last night? Holy shit. Everything came back to me instantly. Oh God I had sex with James last night. Oh God I had sex with a guy who has a girlfriend. I'm am such a freaking slut. How the hell do I get out of this bed without waking him? Where the hell am I gonna go, this is my room? I'm beyond screwed. Please dear lord help me. Please. I laid there for a few minutes when suddenly I felt him move. Oh God. I closed my eyes and pretended I was sleeping. Hopefully he get up and goes back to his room. Please go. Please go. Please go. I felt the bed move. He is getting up hopefully. I heard him ruffle around and then after a few minutes I heard the door open and shut. Thank you Jesus. Thank you. I sat up and looked around. My head is pounding. I need to get the Tylenol out of my bag. Every step I took the harder my head pounded. I went to the bathroom and got a drink of water. I went back to my bed and laid there for a while before sleep took over. I woke to the sound of someone banging on my door.

"Peyton get you pretty butt up out of bed. We have to leave in 1 hour."

It was Mel.

"Mmmhmmm." I mumbled back.

"Dont mmmmhhmmm me girl. Get up and let me in." She said still beating on the door.

I slung the blanket back and through on some clothes. Gosh she can be so demanding sometimes. "OK OK Hold your horses, im coming."

I opened the door for her.

"Woah, what happened to you last night?"

"Ha, What happened last night? Well that's a story I will have tell you later my friend. But now my head is thumping and I'm ready to puke my guts out right here at your feet."

"Oh well I'm guessing you were with those four boys who I just passed in the hall who look like they have been hit by a Mack truck."

"Uh yeah, them."

I took my bag into the bathroom, got a quick shower. I got dressed and made myself presentable. I was ready in no time at all. Ugh Gosh how in the hell am I going to face James after last night. I feel sick. I'm not sure if it's the hangover or the James thing but it was getting worse with every step I took. The elevator ride was not helping at all. We reached the lobby and the guys were all down there waiting for the van to take us all to the buses. Mel was right they looked as bad as I felt. Wow what a night. There is that sick feeling again. James and I didn't make eye contact at all.

"How are you feeling this morning Pey?" Logan asked.

In that split second it took for me to answer that question I decided that I was going to play off last night as no big deal. Like I was just fine and dandy.

"I feel great. How about you guys?" I said with a cheery attitude.

"Im not feeling too bad actually but these three, well as you can see."

I let out a small giggle and James looked at me with a puzzled look for a second and then turned away. Oh great isn't this going to be just lovely. It is going to be so weird between the two of us from now on. I feel really guilty, probably just as guilty as he does about last night being as how he does have a girlfriend and all. Well there is that sick feeling yet again.

We boarded the van and I tried very hard not to have James sit next to me but he was the last on in the van and the only seat that was left was on my right. While driving I looked straight ahead and he looked out the window. No one said anything the whole way to the buses.

We had a show here in Ohio and then would be moving on to another city tonight to do another show the next day. I went straight to my bus and laid down for a few minutes. Mel came in a few minutes later.

"What are you doing Pey? You have sound check in 30 minutes. Get ready." She said nudging my leg as she walked by.

"Mel yes 30 minutes, it wont take me that long to get ready. I'll be ready I swear, just a minute." I told her putting my arm over my eyes.

"Well maybe you shouldnt have stayed up so late last night. Guess you have learned your lesson."

"The reason I'm like this is not only because I stayed up and had a few too many alcoholic beverages. Well its huge part but not all."

"What are you talking about Peyton?" She was now sitting at my feet.

I sat up and looked out the window. "I did something last night that I should not have done. I feel horrible about it and I wish I could take it back."

"Peyton What. Did. You. Do?"

I didn't look at her I just kept looking out the window. "I slept with James last night."

"You mean in the same bed slept right?"

"No Mel, we had sex."

"PAYTON MARIE. Are you serious right now? Why? Why would you do that?"

"I was drunk, he was drunk and things got out of hand and before either of us could stop it, it was already happening."

"Peyton, he has a girlfriend."

"I know and I feel horrible."

"What if this gets out? This could be bad for not only him but you too."

"Its not going to. It wont."

"You better hope not." With that she got up and stormed out the door.

I put on my fake smile and went to sound check. I tried to act as normal as possible, which was a little difficult with James not even looking in my direction. I was only a matter of time before the guys were going to figure thing out. James and I always talked and hung out so if that's not happening then they will soon put two and two together. I wonder if maybe he has told any of them. Probably not because they weren't acting any different. What were they gonna think if and when they find out. Are they going to think that I'm a bad person? Are they going to think that I'm a slut that goes around sleeping with other people's boyfriends? Ugh. I was ready for this night to be over.

The show was over and I was ready for bed. I needed sleep. Keeping up with this whole fake attitude thing is a little tiring and not to mention the lack of sleep I got last night. When I got to the bus Mel was sitting at the table reading her book.

"You didnt come to the show?" I asked as I sat across from her.

"No not feeling that great." She answered

" I'm sorry" I told her.

"No Pey I should be the one that is sorry. What you told me earlier was something that you were telling a friend not your agent. I'm sorry I jumped down your throat. I should have been your friend at that time not your agent."

"No I get it Mel. Your right what if this were to get out? It would make a huge mess. I honestly don't think that it will Unless he goes off telling the world which I doubt he will do because he has a girlfriend."

"So tell me what happened from beginning to end."

I told her everything that I could remember.

"Peyton you have to talk to him, you can't keep acting like nothing happened."

"I know but I'm just going to avoid it until the last possible second."

"The longer you wait the worse its going to be. You guys were pretty close so you don't want to damage that any further."

"Ugh your right. Why are you always right?" I said running my hands over my face. "Ill talk to him tomorrow. I promise."

I went and laid down in my bunk. I couldn't sleep at all. What if I don't talk to him at all? I meant the tour is almost over. I could keep this up for another few weeks and then once the tour is over I can just move on with my life and never have to see him again. No I couldn't do that I loved these guys to death. They have become like family. I hope that we stay in touch and remain friends once the tour is over. I'll just have to talk to James tomorrow. With that thought I fell asleep.