Love is an emotion. An extremely powerful emotion that can send your heart and soul soaring to the heavens or thrust it deep down into the depths of despair. But is an emotion none the less, and emotions can be controlled and forgotten. Ground out or deleted. You can make it so that you even forget how to love, know how to love or to be loved feels like. Because after all emotions are nothing more than a function of the human brain. The human brain is a muscle and if you exercise it enough, you can make it grow strong enough so that it will forget even the most tender of moments. The most passionate of kisses, the greatest hugs, the warmest cuddles, the sweetest of smiles, and the world's softest curves, and the dreamiest eyes, you can make yourself forget her.
Her curves, her kisses, her hugs, her eyes, and her smile. You can forget them all. You can make yourself forget that she was ever in you life, let alone in your heart. Because love is an emotion and emotions are a function of the brain and the brain is a muscle. Therefore if try hard enough you can forget love. You can go back to living life the way it was before she entered your world. And you can reorganize what was in order before whirlwind that was her left you, and everything in chaos. You can go back to functioning the way you did before she uttered those three little volatile, dangerous words that you had taught yourself to live without.
"I love you."
In time all wounds heal even those that leave scars. Because all scars fade in time, even the deep ones that you can't see. You can forget and you can heal your heart, soul and mind. For a time, yes, they will ache and be ripped apart, but as the human body tends to do they will mend and heal and you can go on living like there never was such a thing as love.
And for that I am grateful. Because once I can forget I will never remember the name of the one who caused me to hurt so deeply. I will utter your name this last time so that my heart can fully heal and so that I may move on in my life.
"Saria. You were the light of my life. The reason I got up in the morning. You were my everything. I still don't understand why you left. I though at first the reason that you didn't visit was because the accident. I thought maybe you were recovering as well. You were the reason I lived through all the surgeries, procedures, tests and experiments. You were the one thing that kept me going all that time. The though of seeing your sweet face again. Seeing you, touching you holding you in my arms. That fueled m. I had to see you again to know that you were all right.
I was driving the car and you were in it. That's why I had to know you were ok, or even still breathing. Then one day the doctors showed me the pictures from the crash. There was so much blood yours and mine. The final picture was the one I dreaded the most. It was either of you lying helpless in a hospitable bed or of your body lying on a cold metal slab all alone in the dark. They told me the girl named Saria had died at the scene. You died and its my fault I am sorry.
I took away every thing that you were gave everything that you hated. They buried you in the dark ground all by yourself in a cold metal box. You hated the cold, being alone, and hated the look and feel of cold metal. And you were afraid of the dark and were absolutely terrified at the thought of any combination of the three. So I am sorry that I put you in a place in which would have terrified you if you were still alive. But you're not because I killed you. I took away your life and can't stop loving you even though you're no longer here.
So, Saria please know that even though I'll try to forget you. I never will be able to. I can de program you out of circuits and I can't dig you out my heart no more than I could dig you out of the ground. I wish I could just push the erase button and forget you. God knows I am going to try. Its just too much and I can't do it any more. Good-bye forever my love."
Love is an emotion, an extremely emotion that you should be able to make yourself forget. But you can't because one you love someone you will always love them and they will always be a part of you. So no matter how hard you try cannot force yourself to forget an emotion as powerful as love. Even if emotion is just a function of the human brain. You delete the memory files off your hard drive. But there will always be some tiny piece of memory left. You should be able to make yourself forget it right??
Wrong. Because even with my half my brain made out of metal I can't permanently delete you from my heart. Even with the all the circuits, wires, fuses and microchips you're still in my heart. Because my heart is the only part of me left that isn't at least half electronic, and with all my circuits and software I still can't forget you. After all wires and circuits can't make you forget someone you loved with your whole human heart.