Fanfic written by Rhael Akhil Elyen.
Author's note: This story contains yaoi, not lemon (which is porn). Rated M to be safe.
Sorry to have left the story dead for six years. I didn't know what to do with it, I even thought about deleting it for good, but now I feel confident about giving it a proper development and ending. Thanks to all who read and commented, I really appreciate it.
Not a dream, but a reality
Chapter 3
After walking through the snowy fields for a few hours, both men noticed a small town on the distance and decided to head there. Their feet were tired after walking for so long through the heavy snow. Soon after entering the town, Griffith motioned to Guts to look at the direction of a small tavern, then spoke.
"Maybe we should take a break there."
Guts nodded then smiled to Griffith.
Both men entered the small building, noticing a few drunkards and some other people there drinking and chatting. Some of them even turned to look at the two of them while others just simply ignored their presence there.
Guts approached Griffith and told him in a low tone. "I'll go fetch us something to eat." The pale man nodded then looked around to find a table for them both.
Guts went to the barkeep and asked for some meat and drinks. He waited until the food was ready, then headed straight for his companion.
Except for some looks he received, Griffith felt comfortable there. As long as he was with Guts he swore to himself he would endure anything, including the looks of scorn, disgust or any other dirty looks the strangers would give him.
Guts and he ate in silence, but he felt some people staring at him as he ate. Griffith thought to himself, 'Maybe is the fact that even though I'm no noble, I always have good manners on the table. I guess it can't be helped, I got so used to deal with nobles that I act like one whenever I sit at a table to eat.' Out of concern, Griffith looked at Guts worried. But the look he received in return was rather calm and content. He felt his heart relieved, for he knew that Guts felt happy just being with him.
After they ended their meal, they both drank a glass of alcohol. Guts decided to drink another glass but Griffith just passed.
"One was more than enough to warm me up. I'll go rent a room and go to bed. Don't keep me waiting for too long." Griffith said to his lover as he stood up from his chair. He then headed for the barkeep and paid for a room, and after receiving the key he headed to the stairs and disappeared from Guts' gaze.
After finishing his glass in a few gulps, Guts went to ask the barkeep for the room Griffith rented, then headed straight there. He entered in a silent manner, like a thief would, and noticed Griffith sitting on the bed, naked. He looked as if he was lost in thought, watching his own reflection on a small mirror that laid resting against the wall, over a small dresser. Guts sat next to him and hugged him, wrapping him between his strong muscular arms.
Griffith then turned to look at him. His eyes reflected his troubled mind. He then spoke to Guts in a calm, low voice. "Do you think it's unfair, to leave everything you have sacrificed yourself for, just for the love of someone?"
The question took Guts by surprise, as he was unable to give a proper answer.
Griffith caressed the man's cheek. "I believe that as long as that person has more emotional value than anything material or monetary and if he or she is a worthy person, then there is no reason for someone to not risk everything in his life for that person. For me it is a fair trade, for money can never buy the heart or the conscience of someone."
Guts stayed silent. Through Griffith's remark he finally understands what motivated the man to choose him over the acquisition of power through his marriage with the princess. He knew all too well Griffith felt something for him, all the times they had sex, he felt their bond growing ever stronger and passionate. And the more they shared those moments together, it only served for them to long for more. But even after all that, Guts harbored doubts. Griffith had said he would call a friend someone who was equal to him, someone who, like him, had dreams and gave their all to achieve them. And when Guts never heard him call him friend, he thought he was nothing more than a distraction for Griffith. Even Caska once said it was his fault Griffith was losing his perspective, his reasons to achieve his goal. He even heard from Judeau, that Griffith liked him from the moment he laid his eyes on him, even to the point of risking himself in a fight just to have him. But in the end, Guts convinced himself during all those years that for Griffith he was nothing more than a soldier with the benefits of having intimate conversations and sex with, nothing more. He felt content just with being close to him and protect his life and dreams.
But now, after all that's been said, he finally felt his mind free of any doubts. Griffith watched him in silence, maybe expecting a reaction from his lover. Guts caressed Griffith's cheek then placed a passionate kiss on his lips. He then broke the kiss and placed both his hands around his lovers head, touching his silky hair between his fingers. "I will always love you. Even after you cease to exist. For all eternity."
A tender yet loving smile formed on Griffith's lips. He then caressed Guts' hair and face, then clasped their hands together and leaned back, resting his body on the bed.
Guts leaned down and kissed Griffith's neck then his lips. Soon after they broke the kiss, Griffith licked his lovers lips then said, "Take me, Guts."
Author's note: As the end of the chapter suggests, the next chap will be very entertaining, but unfortunately not suited for yaoi haters. Hope my english grammar is not confusing. Chap 4 will be up soon. Please read and review.