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potterfanforever
2005-06-08
ch 2, signedyou will have to do some thinking to mkae this story stick out from all the other harry takes his own life in to his own han type fics , you should have moody tell harry that he is traing hermy and ron becouse he thinks its not right for him to do so and not train harry , this would be one adult on harrys side i say remus and tonks be the other maybe the older weasly brothers , fleur (i can dream cant i ) Ginny be a good seance her and harry is ment for each other. nevil and luna ,

what ever powers u are planing for him he needs t develip them quickly and learn Occlumency the rht wat so he can stick it to snape and he head master, you could also add harry having a power and mentail blaock keeping him fromlearning to fast also . these are just some of the ideas i have ,

A/N : You have no idea how alike we think. I have already done the Ron n Hermy thing and also many things that will hopefully surprise you. Watch out for them in the next 2 chapters.
About Fleur - I havent given thought about it. I do agree about one of the older weasley brothers. Definitely wont be the twins. Sorry to say but Neville and Luna will only come much much later in the story if at all.

Summary : Some people realize their stand. Harry comes to accept his destiny. But it is not as many think it. Tonks helps him cope. Startling revelations face Harry.

Chapter 3 : Realizations and Revelations

July 18, #12 Grimmauld Place

While Harry was making his plans, a shouting match was going on at Order HQ.

"Dammit Ron I don't get it. Why shouldn't I write to Harry? You two are his friends. We all should be helping him cope with Sirius's death. Not ignore him!" A red faced Ginny Weasley exclaimed. She was furious that her brother and his girlfriend Hermione(Whom she came to know only now that they were going out since a year) were forbidding her to write to Harry. He had faced so much and the death of a godfather as close as Sirius would be haunting him right now.

"I order you not to Ginny. He can deal with it himself. He has said so in our letters. I don't care what he has written to you but I don't want you to write to him or receive his letters from now on." Shouted Ron fuming with anger. How dare Potter write to his sister? He is worse than the git Dean. She will be in no danger if she is with Dean at least even though he is a prat.

"Yes Ginny. It would be better if you stop all correspondence with him. Look what happened at the ministry. He should have listened to me I told him it was a trap. We all got hurt because of him…" Stated Hermione imperiously before she was cut off by a hard slap across her face.

"I don't believe you two would do this. You stuck up thick headed morons." She stormed off before she got a reply. She decided to be there for Harry whenever he needed her. She would find a way to write to him. Yes! Luna could ferry our letters. She is my friend so they wont suspect anything. But she would not mention these two gits as it would only hurt him more and make him feel more guilty.

A quiet Remus Lupin watched the exchange in the corner. He was shocked that Harry's best friends were acting like that. He didn't think Harry would say anything like that in the letter. He knew that Harry disliked being kept in the dark or cut off. He decided to meet him on reading his letter.

The Order meeting was to commence and Remus Lupin took his place. He was surprised when Ron and Hermione stayed. Further more Molly didn't object at all. He thought she was against her kids being in the order. As the meeting progessed he was getting more and more anry. The wolf inside him was begging t be released at all these hypocrites. Only years on discipline stopped him. The facts brought out needed to be told to Harry. But he would go about it discreetly as he was ordered not to meet him. He noticed the only other person not impressed by this was Moody. He looked at him at him and tilted his head. Moody nodded indicating that they would meet after the meeting.

Moody even being Dumbledore's friend was not at all happy at the situation. The manipulations would fall on him heavily someday and he decided that Potter did not deserve any of them maybe save for Lupin. He didn't know about Tonks as she was not at the meeting. He only knew a bit about the boy but regarded him better than most people.

Moody and Lupin met after the meeting and told each other of their similar beliefs on Harry. Lupin asked Moody to help him meet Harry on his watch in a few days. Moody agreed and offered his help for anything regarding helping Potter.

July 20, #4 Privet Drive

Harry was thinking about his plans he had started to make in the last two days to get free. He still pined and was in a world of hurt over Sirius but he knew he had to go on. He promised himself he would get revenge for his parents and Sirius. He decided not to withhold himself any longer. All the books he read while everbody thought he was moping about would be put in use. He would not act ignorant any longer. He embraced that he was better than most people and would not hide any longer. So he planned the basic stages. He knew he would need help. He didn't know who to trust anymore. He hoped professor Lupin would help him. So he waited for the letters.

Harry finally received replies to most of his letters. He was surprised that Hedwig was away for so long. But was happy to see a friendly face. He gave her treats and water and began to see who his letters are from.

He was surprised that there where no letters from Ron, Hermione or Ginny. He opened Neville's letter first.

Dear Harry,

I am alright now. Don't be sorry. I came of my own will, all of us did. I want to thank you for teaching me everything in the DA. I am happy to assist you anytime. My Gran was first very angry at me. When she read the Daily Prophet regarding the events, she was proud of me. She even got me a new wand. It is made of Dragon heartstring core and Holly wood. I am sorry for your loss. After Gran read your letter, she asked me to thank you for your help. Hope you have a good summer. Please feel free to write to me anytime.

Neville

Harry was grateful to Neville. He felt that he could depend on him. He opened Luna's letter next. He was surprised when another letter dropped out of it. He first read Luna's letter.

Dear Harry,

The other letter is from Ginny. I was looking for Snorlacks when I sent the letter. We did hear them. I am sorry for your loss. I felt the same after my mother's death. Don't worry about not writing me. You can write to me. The carrot necklace is nice. I came by myself, you didn't force me.

Luna

Harry couldn't make out the letter at first. After the third time he understood but was perplexed why Ginny did that. He read her letter next.

Dear Harry,

I had to send my letter through Luna because once they saw your letter to me most of them freaked out. Granted you never wrote to me but come on they are acting like you would poison me. Anyway we are at HQ. Didn't Ron or anybody tell you? We went directly there from the station. It wasn't safe at the Burrow.

Ron's acting like a prat. He wouldn't allow me to write to you at all. He even went so far to order me. Do you why he did that? Foolish git. Don't worry about him though. He is too busy with Hermione. They cant keep keep their hands of each other or their mouths. And they go off for many hours doing god knows what. Its bloody disgusting. And to think he isn't even letting me floo or write to Dean. I hardly talked to him before we left. I was only going out with him for 2 weeks after that git Michael cheated on me.

Enough rambling on my side. Don't you go blame yourself again. I had enough trouble to get you out of it last year. I know a bit how you feel. I too felt guilty after the chamber but couldn't help it. Don't blame yourself for not being there for me. I had nightmares too but I know they are nothing compared to yours. Please don't be angry at me for this. Don't be sorry for taking me to DoM. I came because I consider you a great guy. Sure we can write each other. But use Luna to write or they wont allow me to read it.

Percy came crawling back to the family. I haven't forgiven him. Nor have Fred George Bill and Charlie. Mon and Ron were ecstatic but I am confused. Didn't Ron show you his letter and wasn't he mad at Percy. Dad is busy with the Order and ministry. Fudge has finally accepted that Voldemort (yes I know I can tell his name. After him in your head its easy) is back. Nobody still tells me whats going on. Fred and George are busy at joke shop and I work for them this summer. Its so much fun to see all those pranks.

Anyway its long enough now. Write to me.

With love, Ginny

Harry was stunned. Ginny not only gave the news that was kept in the dark from him but was also the most open person he had encountered. She treated him like any other person and not as the bloody Boy Who Lived. Her fresh was of writing lifted his mood a bit but something about Dean irked him. He didn't deserve her. She was way too good for him. She was a funny witty and pretty girl. What! Pretty oh god what is this about? When was he thinking about her like this. Forget it. She is Ron's sister. But so what? I should not be thinking like this. No way. But she signed it with "With Love". But Hermione said she had given up on me. She has even a boyfriend now. Lets stop this.

He was pushed into rage again at the contents. Ron and Hermione got together? When…. They didn't even write to me. They even forbid Ginny writing to me. Why? Some best friends they are. He picked up professor Lupin's letter next.

Dear Harry,

Please don't blame yourself. Many people are at fault. I realized this now. There were some startling things at the last order meeting. I shall tell you everything when I meet you in a few days. Is it okay? Please don't get angry, I know you don't like to be kept in the dark. Call me Remus or Moony. I am not your professor anymore… yet. Please take utmost care on who you trust from now on. I shall tell you when I meet you. I would also like to get to know you personally. I feel we can help each other through this. I have no one else in world but you. Don't reply to this until I meet you.

Remus Lupin (Moony)

Harry didn't know what to think. What was that about? Oh well. He continued his review of the previous text books since he had started it two days back. He learnt the missing stuff and was more thorough than before. He finished his DADA text. He got his lunch and decided to reply to his letters.

Dear Neville,

It was good to hear from you. I am happy for you that your Gran is proud of you. Who wouldn't? Write to me whenever you feel like it. It will be a boring summer otherwise. I will be alone the whole summer. Best of luck for your OWL results.

Harry

Dear Luna,

Best of luck finding the Snorlacks. Thanks for ferrying our letters. I don't know the what the problem is but I will find out. I hope you keep up your studies being the Ravenclaw you are. Please feel free to write me. Give the accompanying letter to Ginny. Thanks again.

Harry

Dear Ginny,

Its so good to hear from you. Finally somebody tells me what is going on. Its tough you know with all that is going on. It lightened my heart a bit reading your letter. I give you permission to slap me whenever I act like I did last year. I am trying. Thank you for your concern I would love to be your friend. Please do write to me. I am to stay here for the rest of the summer so it'll be boring.

I didn't know Ron and Hermione had got together. When did it happen. I mean I am happy for them but at least they could have told me. They haven't even written to me all summer. Don't mention this to them. If it is any problem then I am sorry. Until I find better way for our letters, send them through Luna. It is a brilliant idea from a brilliant witch. You know you are going to a handful just like Gred and Forge. Give them my regards. This is if you can tell them.

Your friend, Harry

Harry was pleased with his letters. He still coulnt get over his death or the prophecy but it was good to open up a bit to them. He just didn't know what to do about Ron and Hermione. But he would wait for them to write first.

Tonks came over in the eveing again breaking the rules set by the old man. He was talking to her in the last two days. Whenever her shift was there, she would pop up in his room.

Today though it was different. He was still kind of ruffled over the letters.

"Wotcher Harry, whatcha doing?" Tonks had her usual pink hair and a cheery smile on her face. She was contagious and he also smiled.

"Hiya Tonks. Nice to see you too. I was just reading some letters. Hey take a look at this. Isnt it strange?" He gave her professor Lupin's letter and watched her. Once she finished, he told her "Don't worry Tonks I trust you. Werent you at that meeting?"

"No Harry I was here with you at the time. Me, the clumsy girl was not important to the meeting. Maybe Lupin will tell you. He told me to tell you that he will come tomorrow. Don't worry I didn't tell him I was visiting you. That damn wolf cought your scent on me."

"Thanks Tonks. I just don't know what to think. At the top of all this its getting frustrating that nobody tells me anything." He felt like talking today. Tonks was different. She didn't force him to talk. She was fun to be with. She listened and treated him like an adult.She was bloody beautiful too. Not that it mattered. He liked her company immensely. She always strove to bring a smile on his face.

"Hey that's okay. Its not like they have anything to do right? Anyways forget the bird club. Hey that's a nice name. Don't you think so Harry?" She laughed gesturing a chicken flapping her arms about her.

Harry laughed for the first time in the summer. Her cheery self was infectious. "Thanks Tonks I needed that." They then went on joking, talking about trivial things. Near the end of her shift, Tonks told him just before leaving "You really ought to get out of those rags you know. Any animal or girl will run away from the stench. Cya Oh great Boy-Who-Lived." She sighed dramatically and disapparated.

Harry roared with laughter. Maybe this was how he was supposed to be. He resolved that from now on he would live life to the fullest. He reinforced his vow to avenge all those who were denied the full life.