Solavellan Angst (Or rather How Both of Them are Selfish Even as They Try to Make it Work)
Selfish
Solas was selfish.
He would be the first to ever tell you that if you were to ask him. He wanted things he could never have and held those things he could keep close.
It was something that he made sure wouldn't get out of control. But when she kissed him for that first time, he found that something in him had snapped and he kissed her back. Later, he had replied that he wasn't sure it was a good idea. But she wanted to try, and so, he was willing to think about it. It brought about many sleepless nights, of him simply tossing and turning and trying to wrap his mind around it.
And when he finally managed to fall asleep, he found that his friend, a spirit of Wisdom, had been captured by humans.
She had helped him then without hesitation and he realized that he was willing to try to make it work. But he had so many secrets that he couldn't share with her, no matter how much he wanted to.
That was why it wasn't working. Another day where he sees the unspoken pain in her eyes, the pain that always cropped in whenever she asked him about his past and he would reply cryptically, always dodging and never directly answering her questions was another day where he could feel her hurt and silent crying in the Fade at night while they slept. He could feel her sadness whenever she wanted to say something, but couldn't.
He wanted to stay with her for as long as he lived, but then he realized how selfish he was being. How his distance was only hurting her.
So he ended it. But she told him not to go, that she wanted him to stay. And when he looked into her tear-filled eyes, he say the fear and hurt and anger bottled up inside.
And that was when he realized that she was just as selfish as he was.