A/N: I'm sorry that this wasn't out as quick as the last but this aggravating thing called a school keeps taking up my time. Anyways, I can't thank everyone enough for all of the reviews, favorites, and watches. This really means a lot to me since I'm new to all of this. Please keep up the awesome reviews and what have yous :D. But now moving on with the story. Tally-ho! :D

Disclaimer: if I owned Bleach it would be a lot different...

In the darkness I hear voices. They are faint whispers that I almost miss, but they catch my interest so I close my eyes and concentrate on them in hopes of understanding what they are saying.

"…massive…multiple…lucky…"

That is all I hear before there is a loud, steady beeping filling the silent darkness within my head. In my mind I snap open my eyes from surprise at the sudden, obnoxious noise, but in reality it takes much longer. My vision is blurry at first but as my eyes slowly adjust to the scene that is before them it becomes clearer. There are fluorescent lights on the white ceiling above me, the walls are white and dull, there is a certain hanging to the right so as to cover the other half of the room, but when I look down and see the bed with the railing and the too think gown I'm dressed in, I sit up abruptly causing the two men at the end of the bed to look at me as I grab my head in hopes of stopping the dizziness that momentarily blinds me from the blood rushing from my skull.

I turn to my right and look up as Grimmjow comes up beside the bed and rests his hand on my shoulder, looking down at me with relieve evident in his eyes.

"It's about time you woke up Ichi. You've been out for hours. You scared the living shit out of me," He grumbles the last part to himself thinking that I can't hear him. He looks back at the doctor.

"What were you saying doc?"

I look over at the thin pink haired man, with the wild gleam in his golden eyes that are partially hidden behind a glare off of the rectangular glasses he wore. This creepy freak is really a doctor? He looks like he would rather be examining everything inside of me for his own sick amusement. I shudder at the thought of the man operating on me.

The pink haired man looked at Grimmjow and they continued on with their conversation.

"Yes. As I was saying he has obviously suffered from massive blood loss from the multiple wounds he has suffered on his right arm. You are lucky you got him here when you did or else much more damage could have been done."

"Ya, ya. You've said that already. How long is he going to be here?"

"We will have to keep him over night to make sure everything has stabilized after the transfusion we performed today, but once everything looks good he should be able to leave by tomorrow. I will be back in a couple hours to check your vitals." With that he swiftly turned and walked out the door.

During Grimm's and the doctor's discussion my eyes had dropped to my lap and my hands were fidgeting with the bedding.

How could I have been so stupid as to get caught by him? Now I have no choice. I'm going to have to answer all the questions I hoped would never come up.

I look back up when I hear Grimmjow clear his throat. I get caught in those magnificent eyes once again, as they seem to stare into my broken soul. I look away; the intensity of the stare becoming too much.

"Are you ready to talk yet?" I hear him practically growl.

"Grimm…I…Just give me a minute…please?" I look back at him with pleading eyes and this time he is the one to look away.

"Fine, fine. Just…please explain why you have been staring at me with that tortured look in your eyes since I found you in your bathroom…"

I nod and my eyes travel back to my lap as I contemplate how to answer him without actually telling him he is the reason behind my actions. I want to tell him so much that I love him as more than just a friend, but I know that the rejection will too much for me to handle. I couldn't handle watching him walk out of the room after bluntly stating that there is no way we can be together. My hands start to shake and my breathing becomes short gasps as all of the possible ways of rejection fill my mind. I barely hear the heart-rate monitor as the beeping speeds up to keep up with my racing heart or the quick footsteps that rush across the room.

I feel the shifting of the bed as weight is added to it and turn just in time to be caught in long muscular arms. My shaking hands and breathing becomes steadier, but my heart is still racing as I realize that Grimmjow is holding me.

"Calm down Ichi. You don't have to tell me right away…I'm just worried about you…I've never seen you like this…"

I can feel his warm breath on my ear as he speaks and it's nearly enough to drive me crazy. I snap out of my daze after I register his words and will myself to take deep calming breaths. Only after I calm down enough so that my hands are only shaking slightly, am I able to speak.

"I'm sorry that I caused you to worry so much…I never meant for it to get this far…" My voice sounds pathetic and weak, even to my own ears.

He pulls back to look me at me, "I know you didn't. Nobody does, but you need to talk to me Ichi. What is going on with you?" I can hear the concern dripping from his voice and it makes me regret even more that I have put him through this. He removes his arms from around my neck and stands up to move to the uncomfortable fake leather chair. I miss the warmth, but I know I will need the space if I want to think clearly.

"Where do I even start…?" I whisper, mostly to myself.

"The beginning would be a great place." I hear him grumble and I half glare from across the room.

"Shut up asshole. I'm thinking here," I say, earning a slight glare from the other man.

We laps back into silence, both of lost in our own thoughts, staring into nothing. I continue to war with myself but I keep calm so as not to cause another episode. I can feel when his eyes turn to look at me but I ignore the feeling for a moment before I take a deep breath and ready myself for the risk I am about to take. I turn and look him dead in the eyes, suddenly feeling more confident than I had in a long time.

"I started this because…I love you Grimmjow…and now…I can never have you…"

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