Secret

He's been thinking about it, what Temari said….about Matsuri.

What they have is something different, not entirely unusual. But still out of the norm.

He didn't know there was anything there until Kankuro explained the difference. It was hazy for awhile, but now Gaara understands. He was never sure about Matsuri. His Brother told him what to look for, if she batted her eye lashes when they spoke, or if she asked if he had noticed something about her appearance, or if her face got red when they spoke.

None of the signs were there. It took a long while before feeling were made known. And Matsuri was the one to ask him. He liked it, he did, she knew what had to be done and he didn't mind. After all he was the one who was able to make the first move and kiss her.

It's only the two of them, Kankuro is asleep and they sit by the fire. He wants to ask her, what does she think of babies; he has heard that childbirth is more painful than anything-and he knows it can be deadly….

"Such high risks, why do woman do it?"

"Because.", Matsuri smiles. "It's something amazing."

"But there are so many risks…."

"Yeah, but there is no reward without risk."

Gaara doesn't know what to say. He still doesn't understand. How woman think, he just doesn't understand it.

"Do woman and men think differently?"

"Maybe. Are you asking because of Temari being pregnant?"

"What do you think about babies?"

"I think they are the most wonderful."

"Oh."

Matsuri can't help but laugh. Secretly, she is enjoying this. He isn't struggling, but he isn't enjoying the conversation. She can tell. His eyes are staring into the fire, he's so focused on the question. She can guess how his mind is going a mile a minute.

"What do you think of babies? About Temari, having a baby inside her?"

"Serious, it's all so serious. I don't know about babies…."

"Are you worried?"

"Yes. What if he doesn't like me?"

"Is that the secret you have been keeping to yourself? Why wouldn't he like you?"

"I don't….I don't know how to hold a baby. I don't know anything about babies."

"We will practice."

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I think being pregnant is one of the most amazing things in the world. There are just no way to explain it.