A/N: Well here is chapter three! Dear lord it's been a while since I wrote for this story and I ask for everyone's forgiveness! I have been having family issues and life issues as well. So this is kinda my way of saying sorry and hoping you all forgive me ^^;;

Enjoy the two lovers time and please for the love of god know I own NOTHING! Nothing except the child of Yuki&Shu :D

Month three was here and Shuichi was already showing some! Sure it was nothing, but a little baby bump that he constantly would talk to, but the sight was interesting. Yuki however was losing it! He had been without smokes for three months almost… Sure it was healthy for him and he normally would take his frustration's out by writing (Which his publisher was happy about), but he missed the sweet sting of a drag!

"Yuki? Hon do you want me to go get you some cakes?" Shuichi asked as he peeked into the study. The one good thing from this was that Shuichi seemed to be going into the whole mothering thing easily enough. Sure it was odd to Yuki how he was now called 'hon' from time to time, but he kinda liked it… Better then 'baby' or some shit. Running a hand through his hair the man looked at the empty coke can and sighed. "I'll go with you… I need to get out of here." Which was true… It still smelled like his smokes. Damn it all to hell!

So the two left the stuffy apartment and walked to the small grocery store just a five minute walk away. Since they moved so much Yuki had learned that they should be near a place he could easily walk and get something to eat for them or if the time called for it… A lube run. Yeah Yuki was the kinda man who would worry about that since he may have been a hard ass, but he didn't like hurting his lover. Never would he hurt him… Without reason. Shit their relationship was really fucked huh? Seeing as they never could stop fighting or stop having people interfere. So what were they going to do with a kid? Sure Yuki would love their child, but what… What would happen if he screwed him up more then he was? That was Yuki's gratest fear. He feared making a child (His own) Socially fucked and mentally. He wasn't good with kids already and he was always having to up his pills.. Hell last week he woke up from a night terror and was up the rest of the night watching Shuichi sleep.

Unlike him Shuichi was pretty normal. Hell compared to him Shu was sane! Shit he needed to get a grip on his shit, but… He was so damn scared. "Yuki? Yuki hey.. Come back to me." Shuichi said as they were already at the store and Shuichi had pulled him away from the entrances. He always knew when Yuki was gone and that was something that came with time. Yuki always got that dreamy look and would lick his lips. So when Yuki came back the smaller reached up and pulled him down. Inches from each other Yuki couldn't help himself as he kissed his lover. Deeply with desperation he didn't know he had before. As the blond kissed him Shuichi groaned softly. When did Yuki become so.. Demanding of him? Sure at home he was demanding, but out in the public? Cause it was only six and even at this hour people were out. Still as he felt Yuki's tongue lick his lips Shuichi gave in. Wrapping his arms around his lover without knowing the inner battle the writer was faced with. Shit if he knew.. "Ah… Yuki. Not-Not here…" He managed to get out as Yuki was making a move to do more. Since the whole baby situation came around their sex life had slowed some, but for good reason. They both didn't want to lose the baby.

Heavy panting came from both men as Yuki held Shuichi close even after. Somehing was wrong… Shu could see this much, but what? Running a hand through the others hair he put little kisses left and right on his cheek as he was held. "Yuki… Talk to me. What's wrong?" the little pink haired man asked as he felt his lover stiffen. Ah, so he hit the head on the nail. Sighing softly he kissed Yuki once more. "Shh… You stay here. I'll get us some food and we'll tlak at home okay?" Though.. Shuichi wasn't going to be going home with Yuki. Oh no… Since the whole kiss had been Yuki's goodbye. Yeah he was going to run from this. He realized he wasn't a man… At least not the kind that was capable of caring for a child. Though he gave Shuichi a smirk as he watched his lover…

As soon as Shuichi was gone around the corner of an aisle Yuki felt his chest tighten. He was really going to leave his lover.. The only one who seemed to understand him and leave their child. Shit he was a bastard. "Bye Shu…" Was all the blond would say as he turned on his heels and ran. Literally he ran from the store all the way out of the city till he couldn't run anymore… He had no where to go and even though he could stay somewhere he didn't want to be found. Sighing hard he looked around. He had ran all the way to the outskirts of the city. He could hear a loud scream and knew who it was… He didn't look back as he went off. Running from the city and heading to god knew where. Anywhere where Shuichi couldn't find him.

- X -

"Doc is he alright? I mean…" Hiro asked as he was watching his fried through the thick glass window. It had been a hard few months, but here they were. Shuichi had his baby a month early and the little guy was fine. Perfectly healthy even though he was a month early. He came out looking like his mother, but had the same hair and eyes like his dad. God he was gonna be a constant reminder of the man who Shuichi had loved. Hiro knew this all to well as he saw how his friend looked when they gave him the baby. Shuichi had cried so much since then he had a redness around his eyes that had yet to go away.

Doctor G sighed hard as he watched his patient. When he had come to him back when Mr. Yuki was around there was such a glow about him… Now the boy looked so pale and almost dead. "He'll be fine… Lucky for us." He said as he looked to Hiro and gave the redhead a small smile. God Doctor G worried for the singer. Still clearing his voice he pat Mr. Hiroshi on the back before he said he had to check on the baby. Whom had yet to be named.

Hiro nod as he understood before he slipped into the room and sat with his best friend. God he looked like shit and he could only imagine the living hell Shuichi was going through. Hell he'd been going through it with the pink hair singer since Yuki left so suddenly. No one knew where Yuki was and even K-san couldn't find him. So obviously he didn't want to be found. Shit Hiro was gonna mess up that pretty face of his… God help him! "Hiro… Where's my baby? I want him…" Shuichi whimpered from the bed. Poor Shu had to have a C-section like most men who had a baby, but he was going to be in more pain because of how tiny he was. Sure Shu had been tiny before, but… He was tiny mainly from him eating only for the baby. Now though? Hiro didn't know.

Running a friendly hand through his friends hair Hiro sighed. "I'll make sure the nurse bring him soon… For now I wanna know how your feeling? I mean I'm sure like shit, but…" Crap he was rambling. Mother fucker! Though when he heard a small chuckle he almost couldn't believe it. It was Shu who was laughing and he was also crying. Nothing new. Shuichi was a cry baby, but he had a reason now.

"Heh… Your right… I feel like shit, but I had.. I had him… Our baby… Good god.. Yuki would be so-so proud… Heck…" As soon as Shuichi 'heck' Hiro had gathered him into a hug. That was when Shuichi broke. He hadn't cried over Yuki the whole time cept when he first left. That whole day he cried, but after… Shuichi acted so damn strong. Only now he was at rock bottom. Hiro could hardly stand this!

"Shh… Shu calm… Stay calm with me." Hiro tried, but Shuichi kept crying.

"He… He left us! God what did I do? I-I thought… I thought he loved me enough… Fuck I am an idiot!" Shuichi yelled as he clinged tightly to his best friend. Shit… This was why Hiro hated Yuki so much. Mother fucker was a damn pussy! Leaving Shu and a baby? What kind of man…

"I won't let you deal with this alone… I promise I'll help. So please Shu.. Please just… Just breath." Hiro pleaded softly. Sure he was taking up what Yuki should have been caring for, but that was a shot in the dark.

"Yuiki… I-I just want him…." Was all Shu said for the next two hours before he passed out again. As Hiro watched his passed out friend he swore he was gonna knock Yuki till he realized how much he hurt the one he apparently loved. Mother fucker would pay.

A/N: Ha ha ha! You all thought I wouldn't pull something like that? Well you were all wrong! Shuichi will be alone… Sadly till oh who knows! BWA HA HA HA! I am an awful person xD

But, Hiro has come to save the day :D

Well till next time kiddies!