Chapter Three –
I lay on my bed and put my head phones on.
Turning on my ipod I put the first song on that I came too. I didn't care what it was.
Just as long as it wasn't McFLY!
'Know your enemy',Greenday. Perfect.
I turned the volume up as loud as it would go. So loud that I couldn't hear myself think. That was the point. To make all thought impossible and to rid myself of the misery. At least for now.
I closed my eyes and thought of the song. I didn't hear or see anyone enter my room but I felt my bed move slightly as someone gently sat down on it.
My eyes flashed open and then widened in shock. It was Tom! Sitting on my bed, looking more like an angel than anyone had the right too.
My shaky hands pressed pause. Halting the sound.
"Hey" Tom said.
I couldn't say anything. I just sort of gawped at him like some sort of goldfish.
Tom talks to me,
I laugh cos it's so damn funny,
That I cant even see,
Anyone when he's with me.
"Just came in here to see how you are. Harry said that you seemed a bit upset about something." Tom's voice was soft with concern. It made me melt.
"N-no I'm fine thanks, just time of the month thing you know."
I grimaced. Why did I say that? He didn't want and didn't have to hear about my girly problems.
But he nodded and tried to look like he understood.
As I looked into his eyes time seemed to stop. It was just me and Tom. No one else. The world could have come to an end and I wouldn't have noticed.
He cleared his throat.
"There was actually something that I wanted to talk to you about" he said.
He says he's so in love,
He's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows.
He's all I think about at night.
"Well you know, you being a girl, I can talk to you about stuff that I cant talk to the guys about"
I wondered where this was going. What could Tom possibly want to talk to me about that he couldn't talk about with the guys?
"It's about…Cassie" he said.
"Oh" I whispered.
"It's just that we've known each other for about a year now and…."
I interrupted him. "Hand on a year? I thought that you only went on your second date with her last night!" I frowned.
"Yeah I know but I knew her before we started dating. Though that's not really the point. The point is I think, I think I love her."
There was a silence as what Tom had said sank slowly into my head.
He loved her?
Then I sighed. I guess that deep down I saw this coming, had been expecting this. I couldn't doubt the adoration in his eyes when he spoke of her.
I had to bite my lip to stop it from trembling. When I was sure that that I could talk without my voice shaking I smiled.
"That's great. I'm really happy for you Tom"
I hoped that my face looked more sincere than my voice sounded.
Tom beamed at me. "Yeah isn't it? I never knew that love could feel like this. I mean, I've had strong feelings for girls but it's never felt this right….."
Tom babbled on happily but I couldn't properly concentrate on what he was saying.
I saw his lips move but I heard no sound.
The pain on my chest was worse, so bad that I could hardly breath. I closed my eyes. I just felt like crawling up in a corner and dying!
Then I felt anger. Why was he doing this to me? He must know how I feel about him.
Even Harry had noticed, and lets be honest people, he isn't the most observant person in the world.
I clenched my fists, my nails digging into my palms. I ground my teeth together.
"Delilah? Are you ok?" I heard Tom ask me. But he sounded so far away, like he was talking to me from a distance.
"Delilah?" he sounded nearer now. He gently shook my arm.
I opened my eyes. As I looked at Tom's worried face I felt all of my anger just ebb away.
"Are you ok? You looked like you were in pain" Tom said.
"No I'm fine; I'm fine just got a bit of a headache. I smiled shakily.
Tom smiled back and hugged me. "I love you too you know Delilah, not in the same way but like you're my little sister" He ruffled my hair, why do people do that? And then headed for the door.
He was half way through when the turned back to me.
"Oh yeah I nearly forgot. Cassie is having a party at her house tomorrow night. The guys are going and I wondered of you wanted to go too?" he asked.
I didn't really want to go. I'd have to actually see him and Cassie together and that would hurt too much.
But then Tom had asked me. I could never say no to Tom.
"Yeah ok that would be great" I tried too look enthusiastic.
Tom grinned and walked out of my room, shutting the door behind him.
As soon as he was gone I buried my head in my pillow and sobbed my heart out.
Tom's words were still ringing in my ears.
"I love you too you know Delilah, not in the same way but like you're my little sister"
He loved me, but not the way that I wanted him too.
Not the way that he loved Cassie.