SNOWS POV
I never knew perfection till
I heard you speak and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
I am conflicted with my daughters upcoming wedding, this should be such an exciting time for Emma, but whenever I look at her I see a fake smile plastered to her face. Her heart is still broken and aching for Regina, I can't believe my daughter fell in love with Regina Mills. I still remember like it was yesterday when Emma told me about the two of them. Never in a million years would I have imagined that the two of them would have ended up together, but then I wasn't totally surprised because you don't fight like that with someone unless you love them.
Flashback:
I was sitting at the table drinking some hot cocoa with cinnamon, I had just got Neal down for his nap and was enjoying some quiet time. I heard Emma coming down the stairs and from the look on her face I know she had something to say and it was apparently quite important. Emma doesn't say anything and I can see she is fighting within herself to open up to me, it has only been since we defeated Zelena that she has finally opened up and let her walls down and accepted me and her father. The trip to the past in the enchanted forest had been quite an adventure for Emma and when she came back she embraced us as her parents, embraced Storeybrooke as her home, and embraced her family. My heart swelled so much that day finally I had my daughter and my family together. I just sit and wait for Emma to come join me at the table. After what seemed like hours which in reality was only about 10 minutes she finally sat down.
Now waking up is hard to do
Sleeping's impossible too
And every thing's reminding me of you
What can I do?
Snow: What's on your mind Emma?
Emma: I need to talk to you mom and it is really important and I need you to not interrupt me or freak out.
I can see Emma starting to panic and her breathing becoming heavier and she is talking faster. I lean over and rest my hand on top of hers calming her down. This must be important to her as I have never seen Emma like this before, and quite frankly it has caught me off guard.
Snow: Emma honey just breathe. No matter what you have to say I am here and I love you.
Emma: God I hope you feel that way after I tell you what I have to tell you.
Snow: Emma there is nothing you can say that will ever make me love you any less than I already do.
Now I am starting to worry, Emma is scared I won't love her anymore? Now my heart starts racing, I know she is always worrying about rejection and god I wish she wouldn't feel that way anymore but I know that isn't going to change over night. I know that we have come so far but still have miles to go.
Emma: Ok so here it goes…..IhavebeensleepingwithReginafor3monthsnowandIthinkthatIaminlovewithhernocorrectthatIaminlovewithher.
She was speaking so fast that I could barely make out what she said but what I did catch was Regina, 3 months and love. I can't say that it didn't catch me off guard but I can say that it didn't completely surprise me either. They have been spending a lot more time together lately and getting along more than they ever have in the past. I look at Emma and I can see relief, worry and fear written all over her face. I get up walk over to her take her in my arms and hold her.
Snow: I love you Emma and if Regina is what you want and is what will make you happy then I am glad you found her. Emma I only want you to be happy and I don't care who it's with as long as your happy. Am I thrilled it's with Regina no but I am also not totally surprised nor am I angry and I don't love you any less. You can't help who you fall in love with, you can't help what your heart wants.
I feel her relax in my arms and her grip tighten around me, then I feel her trembling and I know she is crying. I just held her tighter rubbing her back like I did that time in her nursery.
It's not right, not okay
Say the words that you're saying
Maybe we're better off this way
Snow: Emma honey what's wrong?
Emma: Thank you, I just…..I just didn't expect….I thought that
Snow: No matter what Emma I love you and I am here for you.
I pull back looking at her wiping her tears from her cheeks and smile.
Snow: So how about some hot cocoa and you tell me about Regina. Hey wait what about Killian?
Emma: I know I know I haven't ended things with Killian. Regina and I it just kind of happened, I didn't see it coming and before I knew it we were sleeping together and I fell in love with her.
Snow: When?
Emma: It was the night that Gold tried to kill Killian after I put his heart back in. I went into granny's and sat down with Regina and had a shot with her. Then Henry came in and told us to come with him and we found a library and we were hoping it was the link to the author who wrote Henry's book. Well Regina said they were looking for him to see if he could write her a happy ending. After that we ended up back at her place had a few drinks and the next thing I knew we were…
Snow: That's ok I don't need all the details.
I cut her off laughing slightly as I knew she was probably going to continue and I really don't need to know the details of my daughters Sex life. I smile at her as for the first time I see her face light up talking about Regina, the way it lights up when she sees Henry. She is beautiful and love looks good on her.
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
It's better that we break
Emma: Sorry I…. Wait you said that you weren't totally surprised. How?
Snow: Emma it is with my knowledge that you don't fight with someone as hard as you guys fought each other, or fought together on the same side the way you guys did if there wasn't something between you.
Emma: I guess your right, we were probably blind to see it then.
Snow: of course you were, you were both fighting for the affection of Henry and you were both a threat to eachother, but once you guys got over that it made things easier for you. Now what about Killian? You know it isn't fair to either of them, and especially Regina. If you love her and you want to be with her then you owe it to her and yourself to be with just her. She deserves better than just a few hours of sex a night and so do you Emma. You both deserve to have your happy ending. You weren't brought here to bring back everyone's happy ending and not get one for yourself.
Emma: Your right. Thanks mom
Snow: Hey where are you going?
She leans down and kisses me on the cheek and grabs her jacket as she runs towards the door.
Emma: I am going to end it with Killian and tell Regina I love her and that she is my happy ending. Don't wait up.
Snow: I won't and Emma good luck
Emma: Thanks.
PRESENT DAY
A fool to let you slip away
I'll chase you just to hear you say
You're scared and that
You think that I'm insane
I am brought back to the present as I hear Ruby and Granny teasing Emma that this is the last night of freedom. When I look at her face, I see something I have never seen on Emma's face before and I am left confused. I walk over and take her hand dragging her over to the kitchen with me.
Snow: One sec ladies we are just going to get a refill want some more wine?
Red: Sure
Snow: Emma what's wrong?
I look at my daughter fighting back the tears, and pull her into my arms hugging her, rubbing her back trying to soothe her. I may not have been there to comfort her as a child but I am slowly learning that she loves her back rubbed when she is upset and needing comfort.
Snow: Sshhhh Emma tell me what's wrong?
Emma: It's funny them talking about this being my last night of freedom. But what is freedom? I haven't felt free in so long, she has my heart mom and she always will. So free is not what I feel.
The city looks so nice from here
Pity, I can't see it clearly
While you're standing there
It disappears, it disappears
It's not right, not okay
Say the words that you're saying
Maybe we're better off this way
I am stunned to hear the confession coming from my daughter as I see her walk away and head to her bedroom. I knew that she still harboured feelings for Regina, but I never expected that she would openly admit them to herself let alone me. I realize now that it is time to end the night and send the ladies home. I need to be there for my daughter tonight and I think she needs some time alone. I grab my phone and phone Charming telling him I was staying with Emma tonight and checking in on Neal and Henry, before turning my attention to Ruby, Granny and Belle.
Snow: Well ladies I hate to cut this short but I think we should call it a night.
Ruby looks at me knowing that something was bothering Emma she could tell, she always could tell and aside from me and Charming, she was the only one who knew about Emma and Regina. She nods and the three ladies head out the door. I sit on the couch my face in my hands and I silently sob for my daughter. Her heart is still broken and she is trying so hard to be strong for everyone, I knew deep down that she was settling for Hook I guess part of me just wanted to hope that she was happy and finally moving on, as I know how hard the break up with Regina was on Emma. The night she left here she was so happy and when she came home I have never seen her so broken or so lost before. That night I held her for hours while she sobbed violently in my arms and threw up a few times with how distraught she was. It took hours of her trying to tell me what happened until she finally got it all out and succumbed to sleep. That night I held her in my arms and every night for weeks after that while she just sobbed, no words were spoken after the first night. I wipe my eyes and look up to see Emma standing in front of me.
Emma: Thanks for telling them to go. Sorry I didn't mean to upset you
Snow: Emma you didn't upset me. I am upset because I am worried about you.
Emma: Well don't I am fine. Everything is fine.
Snow: Emma it isn't fine, everything is not fine. You still love her don't you?
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
It's better that we break
Saw you sitting on the lawn
You're fragile and you're cold
But that's all right
I look at my daughter and there it is not hidden anymore it is written all over her face, she is still in love with Regina. Then why the hell is she marrying Killian. Then she speaks ever so quietly while falling down on the couch beside me.
Emma: Yes
Snow: Then why are you marrying Killian? Why are you settling for something you don't want?
Emma: Because mom she doesn't love me, she said so herself. So what am I supposed to do? Spend the rest of my life alone hoping she will change her mind? I can't she doesn't love me and she told me to move on so I am moving on. Killian is a great guy sure he is a pirate, but a pirate who loves me, someone who loves me and wants to be with me, someone who has shown time and time again that he is reliable and that he will always be there. I love Killian and I will marry him because I love him.
Life these days is getting rough
Knocked you down and beat you up
But it's just a roller coaster anyway, yeah
It's not right, not okay
Say the words that you're saying
Maybe we're better off this way
Snow: Oh Emma you may love him but your not in love with him and he isn't the one your heart wants. It isn't fair to you or him Emma, your heart is not in it.
Emma: No what's not fair is that for 3 months I was blissfully happy, I let my walls down, I let her in and loved her with every ounce of me and for the first time since Neal I felt like I had a home. What's not fair is that she destroyed that, she broke my heart and all I wish is that she would have ripped it out of my chest and crushed it so I wouldn't have to feel my heart ache everytime she walks into the room.
Snow: Oh Emma no you don't mean that.
Emma: Actually I do, because then this wouldn't hurt so much none of this would hurt.
I wrap my arms around Emma feeling like she is holding back her tears, fighting with herself, I want her to know she is loved, I need her to know she is loved and she needs to feel loved. God damn Regina what the hell was wrong with her, god I hope she doesn't let Emma marry Killian. I hope she comes to her senses and comes for Emma. I don't want my daughter settling she deserves so much more then that, she deserves a real happy ending they both do.
Snow: Emma honey it's all going to be okay I promise
Emma: It will be because tomorrow after I marry Killian I will finally have closure from Regina. I will finally have moved on and I will make a new happy ending. Well I think I am going to try and get some sleep big day tomorrow.
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
I watch as Emma gets up and I can see the fake smile she is plastering on her face for me. I smile slightly at her and nod as I know that she is stubborn and will do what she feels is best, even if I do disagree with her.
I'm not fine, I'm not okay
Say the words that you're saying
Maybe we're better off this way
An hour later I am upstairs and I can hear Emma downstairs sobbing to herself, she must have waited until I went upstairs before emerging from her room. I went to go downstairs when I heard a knock at the door. I stop and wait and can't help but smile when I see Regina wrap her arms around Emma and kiss her, my heart swells when I see Emma kiss her back and wrap her arms tightly around Regina. When Emma pushes Regina back my heart begins to race, she wants to talk listen to her Emma before you make the biggest mistake of your life. Sure I like Killian and he has been great to Emma and Henry, but Regina is her true love and true love is the best kind of love. I smile once again and release the breathe I didn't realize I was holding while I see Emma letting Regina in. I quietly creep back into Henry's room giving the women some time alone.
I'm not fine, I'm not okay
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
It's better that we break, baby
Song: Better that we Break by Maroon 5
So ya sorry had to throw in another perspective before I give you the outcome of when they talk:)