Cosima: Sarah seeing how bad things really are after hearing about Cosima being sick
Blood, thick and bubbling, slipped past lips pressed so tightly together. A flood behind clenched teeth as a cough rattled in a chest tightening with every moment without regular air. Cosima leaned heavily into the sink in front of her, trembling fingers gripping the tile. A moment of panic flashed past her eyes when she felt blood start to slip back down her throat, only to fade out when the tightness in her chest softened and she was able to spit out the ocean in her mouth. Spots decorated the mirror when the last few rattling coughs wracked her body.
"Cos?" The whisper from beyond the bathroom sounded like a canon shot, Sarah's voice bouncing around her skull. As one hand reached up to cradle her head, Cosima heard Sarah's stifled gasp from behind her. "Shite, okay. Let me get you a towel and some water."
Muffled sounds of her clone's cursing and rummaging around brought a soft smile to Cosima's face. She'd come back to visit Sarah, needed to see her really. Alison as well but they hadn't told her about her illness yet so she wasn't sure when they'd get to that. Another cough had her spitting out a chunk of something thick and bloody. Shutting her eyes tight against the gruesome mess in the sink, Cosima moved back to her place on the couch.
A moment later, a light touch to her shoulder had her looking up at Sarah's worried eyes. She tried to give her a reassuring smile but it turned to a grimace when she realized her teeth would be stained red as well. The shifting expression dragged a soft chuckle out of Sarah though as she sat down next to her. "It's alright, Cos. Here, drink this."
Water bottle held tightly in her hands after taking a few long drags, Cosima let out a little groan. "My face is probably super gross right now isn't it?" She could feel it, sticky in places and tight in others where the blood had already started to dry. This fit had been a bad one, instantly drenching her in blood before she even had a chance to get to the sink. Looking down at her hands, they tightened even more around the bottle when she noticed the red staining them as well.
"Yea, you look pretty disgusting right now, Cos. I might just toss you in the damn bath." Glancing over, Cosima's retort died on her lips when she saw the gentle teasing in Sarah's eyes and the genuine smirk tugging at her lips. Instead she simply rolled her eyes and let her head fall onto her now whining clone's shoulder. "Ugh, god, now you're gonna get it all over me. Gross, Cosima, you're gross."
"Shut up, you're warm." She lightly punched Sarah in the side as she shifted to get more comfortable, eyes closing as she did so.
"Beating me up now too, eh? I see how it is." The tone of her voice was light as she pressed a soft kiss to the top of Cosima's head. "Cos, tilt your face up a little."
Brow pulling in slightly in confusion, Cosima threw one hand up in a sure whatever gesture as her head tilted back ever so slightly. There was a shift in the body next to her before a warm towel was being gently pressed against her jaw. Opening her eyes, Cosima watched Sarah as she cleaned the traces of blood from her skin.
Sarah was focused, concentrating on removing all traces of blood from Cosima's skin. Clean away the evidence and maybe they could forget about how sick she was for another five minutes of peace. Still, the deeper the shade of red on the towel got, the more trouble Sarah had with keeping her tears at bay. This was Cosima, the clone who helped her get used to everything and the clone who she felt the most comfortable around. Honestly, she couldn't even picture her life without Cosima at this point and the thought of losing her, at the thought of her dying had her heart aching so acutely it pushed the breath from her lungs.
"I couldn't do this without you, Cos." The words were whispered, a mirror of her previous statement, as tears dripped from Sarah's chin onto her thighs. Ducking her head, she tried to hide her face as she dropped the towel to the floor. A gentle grip had her looking back at her clone a moment later, however, as Cosima pressed a kiss to her cheek.
"I'm not going anywhere, Sarah." As Sarah matched her little smile, she settled back into her side with a sigh. Nobody knew what was going to happen, how many days were left, but in that moment it didn't matter. As they sat and whispered stories back and forth, laughing freely with real smiles on their faces, Cosima knew that this was okay. Even if these were her final moments, she knew she had a life full of fierce love and maybe that was enough to get her through until the next fit full of blood and sorrow.