When we get back to the cafeteria, our friends watch us with curiosity in there eyes. Alexis went to sit at another table with the initiates. Uriah is the first one to speak "what did she want." "She just wanted to tell us something." Says Tobias he is wearing a look on his face that says drop it. Everyone does we just restart the conversation we were in before Alexis appeared.
When we are done eating Tobias and I head to the training room. On the way there I try to comfort Tobias. He seems pretty shaken by Alexis's confession. "I just can't believe that he would do that to her I mean he is a monster, but I don't think he was that bad" Says Tobias"
"I know I didn't think he was that bad either but some people are worse than you think they are"
We continue our conversation until we get to the training room. When we get we get to the training room the initiates are already there. Tobias goes to the middle of the room and slowly walks down the line of initiates observing every single one. He stops only when he gets to the end of the line. He starts to talk loudly and I can tell something is bothering him. I will have to ask him what later. " There are three stages of initiation stage 1 is physical stage 2 is mental stage 3 is emotional" Tobias yells the initiates differently look scared now except for Talon and Ben. Looks like there a team now. All they need now Is an ugly girl to complete their group and make them like Peter's gang. Both boys stare down Tobias but Tobias stares evenly at them. While staring at them he says "you will be ranked in each stage of initiation, the rankings will determine what order you will get to pick your job." When Tobias finishes his sentence I continue on with the next part "They also will show us which one of you will get cut" I say in my instructor voice.
Great now all the initiates look at me like I have grow a second head. Before we can be asked any questions Tobias yells "go to your dorm or do something around the compound. Don't leave without another dauntless with you and do not be late tomorrow for training. If you are you will be factionless." The initiates stiffly walk out of the room weather to the shops or the dorms.
As soon as ewe are in the safety of our apartment I ask Tobias what's wrong I just get a grunt in reply. "Come on Tobias something is bothering you and I want to know what it is." I say He just glares at the floor. I lean over to were he is sitting on the couch and kiss him. "Will you tell me now" I mumble with my lips still on his. He sighs and begins to tell me what's wrong " I am worried about Alexis she might not make it plus if anyone finds out about her past it will be extremely easy for them to control her. Your greatest fear is your worst weakness." now I understand what he means. " I know you will do everything to keep that from happening and so will I. There is nothing to worry about."
He sighs again and leans over to kiss me. I scoot over so I am pretty much on top of his lap. Evan this little bit of contact I have with him is enough to give me that pang of fear in my stomach. That doesn't stop me from kissing him but I want more. I would like to overcome this fear, but the only way for me to overcome it is to move slowly and work on it. We stop before things get to heated. Tobias decided we should watch a movie and I agree with him.
The next day I wake up In Tobias's bed. I must have fallen asleep during the movie. I hear shuffling and then I see Tobias. He is standing in the middle of the room with nothing but a towel on. I blush and look anywhere but his perfectly toned body. He has not noticed I am awake yet. I take the risk to quick look over at him When I see the look on his face he obviously noticed that I am awake he blushes a little and I suddenly feel very brave. I walk up to him and whisper in his ear " did I just make the almighty Tobias Eaton blush" he blushes evan harder. Then looks at me and says " do you like what you see" in answers I lean on my toes and kiss him hard on the lips he gets the memo and kisses back. I forget he is in a towel I forget my fear. The only thing I can focus on is us.
It all ends to soon. I notice the time on the clock break the kiss. Tobias groans and kisses me again. This time I mumble through the kiss "Tobias the initiates" "Tris I couldn't care less about the initiates right now." Says Tobias "yeah i Tobias I would rather stay here with you but we need to go" he groans one last time and then leaves to get ready.
I quickly put some eyeliner,mascara,eyeshadow(I used the Smokey eye technique Christina taught me it really brings out my eyes) concealer and blush. Then I just through on a pair of leggings a training tangtop and combat boots. My hair is a messy tangle so I just quickly comb through it and put it in a high ponytail. I am finally ready for the day . I run out to the living room and find Tobias at the table with to muffins. I grab one and we run to the training room only stopping for a quick make out section and to fix my hair after.
When we get to the training room we set up the targets and put out the guns. At about 8:10the United file in they are all late. Good thing Eric's not here he has official leader stuff as he put it today. So we are training the initiates without his guidance. "You are all late" Tobias and I yell together." However since this is your first day here we will make an exception you all better be on time tomorrow though. If you aren't there will be consciences." Right after we stop talking Talon decides to open his big mouth " consequences, like what. Sure like that little girl scares me." I stare at him with a deadly look. I know who he wa talking to me. I will make him be scared of me. " go stand in front of the target." I yell furious. He slowly walks in front of the target and when he tries to talk all that comes out is a moan. I walk over to the table Tobias and I set up and grab a gun. "This will be your only demonstration so pay attention" I point the gun at talons " I will shoot at you until you learn to keep your mouth shut and when you learn respect. I Fire niece he screams like a little girl everyone starts laughing except for Ben his minion. The second time I Fire it's less of a scream the third time he screams like there is an ax murder in the training room. That's mostly because I almost hit his neck. I put the gun down " back to your spot initiate" he glares at me the whole time he walks back to his spot I stare evenly back at him. The rest of the day goes very smooth and before I know it it's time for lunch.
The only people who still didn't hit the target are Ashton,Blake and summer. I don't let them leave until each of them has at least hit the target once. When they all did I will out with Tobias, and we go to lunch. After lunch we go back to the training room and work on guns a little more. At 6:00 we let the initiates go and Tobias and I quickly go to our apartment. As soon as the door is securely locked we start to kiss. I love him so much. Pretty soon we are in the bed with no shirts and still kissing. I feel the beginning of my fear prick my stomach. I push it away. I don't want to be afraid anymore. When Tobias slowly starts takeing my pants of I freak. The fear bursts out of me and I quickly pull away and run into the bathroom. I can't let him see me like this.
I hear him get out of the bed and quietly open the bathroom door. Crap it would have been a good idea to lock it. "Tris are you okay" he asks I shake my head as a reply. Tobias kneels down beside me and wipes the tears off my face. I didn't Evan realize I was crying." Do you want to talk about it." He asks I don't really want to but this is Tobias I am talking to so it might help to talk.I look up at those dark blue eyes I love and spill what was on my mind.
" I just am not ready for IT yet" then I ask him something that has been on my mind for a long time." Tobias why did you choose me. I mean I am afraid of intimicy, I am not pretty,you could have chosen from all those girls here yet you chose me looks me straight in the and says " because tris you are the most beautiful brave woman I have ever known and I don't need sex to keep me happy I just need you. I smile at him and at how cheesy he just sounded. I don't care though it was very sweet. I have finally gained my self confidence back and thanks to Tobias I am Evan closer to overcoming my fear. We lay in his bed with Tobias's arm around my waist. We fall asleep like that.
OMG I AM SO SORRY I DIDN'T UPDATE IN LIkE 4 WEEKS I SOMEHOW GOT CHICKENPOX AND I WAS TIRED AND JUST DIDN'T WHANT TO UPDATE. I PROMISED MYSELF I WILL NOT BECOME ONE OF THOSE AUTHORS WHO ABANDONS THEIR STORYS. I KNOW NONE OF THESE THINGS ARE EXUSES BUT I HOPE DESPITE THIS YOU WILL CONTINUE TO READ THIS STORY IT WILL BE at least 70-80 CHAPTERS MAYBE MORE . THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO REVIEW AND I TOOK YOUR REVIEWS INTO CONSSIDERATION WHEN WRITING THIS CHAPTER. KEEP REVIEWING PLEASE I STILL NEED TO KNOW HOW I AM DOING AND WHAT I NEED TO FIX.