Hi Guys! I'm back with another chapter. This one is kind of short, but delves into some of the problems of being abused. Levi helps Eren when some of these problems emerge. This one is in both Eren and Levi's perspectives. Eren first, Levi second. Anyways, Enjoy! Don't forget to leave a review, it keeps me motivated. Happy reading! ~HeartQueenVivaldi

My Alpha

Helping Me

Hearing the words "someone else's pup" from Levi had been like a punch to the gut. Of course, the alpha wouldn't be pleased at the new information. The knowledge made me feel like puking all over again, falling to my knees on the hard tile floor of the bathroom. My emotions changed rapidly, making me feel slightly dizzy until they settled on the strongest of them all: hate and rage. I could feel Levi's apprehension as I basically growled at him to help me get that thing out of me. I would never come to regret the decision I made that night. I had been raped. I didn't want that baby, and that was all there was to it.

I woke up the next morning with Levi curled around me from behind, one strong arm keeping me close. His hold was loose enough I was able to shimmy around and turned to face Levi and was met with a relaxed face, eyes still closed. Levi looked much younger while asleep, no scowl scrunching his face together. I smiled a little and kissed him on the nose before shimmying out of his grasp completely to go make us something for breakfast. When I stood up I felt every ache in my muscles from our activities the night before. A few joints cracked, and my ass probably had a small tear in it somewhere.

I decided on something easy for breakfast to not overwork my sore body, and I figured I didn't have much time before Levi would notice me gone and join me in the kitchen. Pancakes and sausage links were what I could throw together quickly, and by the time I plated the food, Levi was standing behind me, as predicted.

Levi asked how I felt, and I couldn't help but apologize, feeling bad that I hadn't thought more about the possibility of me being pregnant after being raped multiple times while in heat. It should have been more obvious that it would happen. He ignored my apology, simply asking me if I felt alright, letting me know that he had already forgiven me.

While we ate in silence the gears in my head started to turn. I had basically forced Levi to have sex with me and pull his knot, which is known to be painful for both omega and alpha, and he didn't complain once about it. He seemed to be only concerned for my own well-being. I may have not been ready for sex with him yet, but I've known he's wanted it for some time now, if his daily morning wood was anything to go by. He knew I wasn't ready, but he did because I asked him to. At this point I couldn't really keep that from him when he already had a taste. That would be cruel and awful. And I trusted Levi. I had nothing to fear.

So, as we washed the dishes in the sink I addressed the situation. "I've been thinking, Levi. I want to start being more intimate. I've liked our relationship as it is, but I've felt as if something's missing for a while now. I thought I would be scared to finally have sex with you after everything that happened, but I found myself really enjoying it, despite the situation. I want to try and make that a normal part of my life again, and not something I need to be scared of. But only if you want to, of course!" I panicked at the last part, realizing how forward I was being.

I was surprised to see a small smile tug at the corners of Levi's lips. Being the courteous alpha that Levi insists on being, he still had to make sure, "Are you sure you're comfortable with that?" I simply nodded, just happy to have such an amazing alpha to call my own. Before I could react, Levi had pulled me down into a passionate kiss. Our tongues intertwined, and Levi took to the newfound permission like a moth to flame. He held the kiss, even as he started pushing me back into the bedroom. He pushed, and I walked backwards, removing clothes as we went, leaving a trail down the hallway.

He laid me gently down on my back on the bed and started to kiss every inch of skin he could reach. His hands found their way to the waistband of my boxers and started pulling them down, kissing the newly revealed skin bit by bit…. Ding Dong.

Levi groaned into the skin of my abdomen, and I asked, "are you expecting company?"

"No. I'm just going to ignore it." He returned to worshipping my body until the doorbell rang five or six more times in quick succession. "Fuck you."

I raised my eyebrows at him in surprise. "What?"

"Not you. Only one person on this entire planet is impatient enough to do such a thing. Hanji." He seemed to come to the conclusion that this person wouldn't be leaving us alone any time soon, so he told me to stay put, retrieving his sweatpants from the hallway and storming out to the entry to answer the door. I could faintly hear him say, "What?" and then a high-pitched squealing sound that I wasn't quite sure was made by a human. After that everything was unintelligible.

After a few minutes, Levi returned to the bedroom and sighed, going to the closet to get dressed. "You might as well get dressed, too, Eren. She's not going anywhere until she meets you."

I groaned and flopped down on my back. "We were just getting to the good stuff."

"I know, and I even told her that, but it just made her more excited. I think she called Erwin, too, so we might as well just prepare for company today." He pulled a black v neck over his head then crawled over me on the bed when I didn't move. "We can pick up where we left off later." He leaned down to give me another passionate kiss filled with promise.

When he pulled away I didn't want him to, but I figured I didn't have a choice. "Fine." I pushed myself up and off the bed, retreating to the closet as well.

"Better hurry, too. Hanji is known for barging in without warning." He said, pulling jeans on over his boxer shorts where I could see that he still had a boner going on. The jeans very nearly hid it completely, though. I still had my own hard-on happening, but at least my cock was small. Levi's was the exact opposite.

Levi left the room before me, but I followed only minutes later. When I rounded the corner, I didn't even have time to react before I was pulled into a crushing hug. I couldn't smell much coming from this person, which told me she was a beta. My face squished between two squishy boobs, I tried my best to escape the death grip held on me and my eardrums nearly blew from the high-pitched squeal directed right at me. I started to panic, not knowing this person, and unable to fight back.

When the crazy woman finally released me from her clutches I took a deep breath and looked to Levi for help, grateful to see him standing close by with an understanding look in his eyes. He had a hold on the woman's (whom I assumed to be Hanji) wrist, and I assumed the only reason I was able to breathe again was Levi's doing. "Stop suffocating my mate, dammit." He said, confirming my observation.

Hanji squealed again, and I had the urge to cover my ears to preserve what was left of my hearing. "Mate? Really? Levi, I can't believe it. I thought you told me you would never take a mate? Oh, this is so exciting! I smelled an omega when I opened the door, but I never thought it would be a mate! You only ever take on an omega to spend your rut with, then they're out the door. But mate?!" Hanji's high-pitched sounds were cut off by Levi slapping a hand over her mouth.

His face took on a whole new look, one I had never seen before. He looked angry and sent her the scariest glare I had ever seen. "Shut your goddamned mouth, Hanji. You're making him nervous, and you're too damn loud." He removed his hand, cursing more than I had ever heard anyone curse. This side of Levi was one I had yet to see. Though Hanji didn't seem put off by it at all, so I guessed it was actually quite normal for the short alpha.

"Why would he be nervous? It's just me. I won't hurt him." Hanji said, quieting down, but still trying to bring me in for a hug. I took a step back, not realizing how nervous I would be around strangers until I was faced with it.

Levi groaned softly, but I could still hear it. "See? Would you just calm down? New people are bound to make him nervous, if not give him a full on panic attack. Sit your ass down and don't touch."

He pushed the beta toward the couches in the living room and approached me slowly, seeing the panic in my eyes. I could feel it in my throat, making it hard to breathe. I didn't want to panic. I wanted to be brave, like I always was before, but I couldn't stop my heart from racing, or the sweat from breaking out on my forehead. I felt like running. I had been fine only a few minutes earlier. I didn't understand, but images flashed behind my eyes: the alphas killing my mom, raping her, raping me, chaining me down. I whined softly and cowered at Levi's outstretched hand, not seeing his hand, but another that had done me harm. He stopped and called to me softly. "Eren…"

I forced myself to push the images to the back of my mind and start to calm down. I squeezed my eyes closed and took a deep breath. I wanted to be good for my new alpha. I knew it was him. I was safe, and he would protect me. I pulled up a new image of Levi taking care of me, washing me, tending to my wounds, and speaking softly to me. When I opened my eyes, I could see Levi again; the kind, loving alpha that helped me and cared for me. I took the last two steps, closing the distance between us and let myself basically collapse in his arms, trying not to cry but failing as a sob ripped from my throat.

He caught me, holding me upright and dragging his fingers through my hair. He whispered quietly into my ear, "it's okay, you're okay. I'm here. I won't let anything happen to you. You're safe now. Come back to me Eren. You're okay."

I didn't know how much time passed, but I was eventually able to make myself calm down. When I came back to my senses, I realized we were sat on the floor. Levi had pulled me into his lap where I curled myself into a ball while I cried my fears away. I took a few deep breaths and used my hand that wasn't squished between our bodies to wipe away the last few tears. I could feel Levi's steady breath and heartbeat in my ear that he had pressed to his chest as he ran his hands up and down my back and my free arm. I sighed once, exhausted from my panic attack. Levi spoke softly, realizing I had calmed down enough to think straight again. "Are you okay? You don't have to do this, you know. You can go back to the bedroom and I can make them leave."

"Them?" I asked quietly.

"Erwin walked in about ten minutes ago." Levi explained. I hadn't even realized that someone else had joined us in the living room but peeking over Levi's shoulder I could see a giant blond alpha sitting on the sofa next to Hanji. Alpha. Nope, wasn't going to happen. Levi and Mikasa, or even Hannes were one thing, but a strange alpha that I had never met before was a whole different scenario. I could feel a new wave of panic rise in my throat and I whimpered into Levi's shoulder.

"Please. Take me away. No alphas. Please." I could barely speak through the rising panic, but Levi understood and quickly stood with me in his arms.

Levi called behind him as he walked toward the bedroom with me. "Erwin, I'm sorry, but I'm going to ask you to take Hanji and leave. We'll do this later. Please lock the door behind you as you go."

Erwin called out an "okay," as confirmation that he understood, and Levi walked with me quickly to the bedroom where he closed the door and laid me down on the bed. I felt much safer enveloped in sheets that smelled of myself and my alpha. I snuggled down in them, and Levi crawled in next to me. I curled myself into a tight ball, and Levi wrapped himself around me as much as he could, making me feel as if he was trying to shield me from the world.

"Are you okay?" Levi asked after a few hours. It had been about two since he had carried me into the bedroom if the clock was really correct.

I sighed and turned to face Levi and stretch my legs out away from my body for the first time in hours. "I'm okay now. I'm sorry."

"For what?" Levi asked me, kissing my forehead.

"For panicking. For making you send your friends away. I wanted to meet them, I really did. I just couldn't. I don't know why?" I buried my face in Levi's chest, hiding, afraid he would be angry with me.

"Eren, it's not a big deal. We can try that again another day. Erwin works closely with omegas and alphas who have PTSD, so if anyone understands, it's him. And Hanji can get over it. She won't be upset by it, I promise. We are all very understanding people." Levi explained, letting me hide.

"You aren't angry?" I asked, pulling away a little to look up at him shyly.

"Oh, Eren. Of course not. I would never be angry at you for something like that. You can't help it. It's not your fault." we sat in silence for a while until I thought about what Levi said about Erwin.

"Do you think I have PTSD?" I asked quietly.

"Probably. I wouldn't be surprised. Certain things will trigger panic attacks and make you nervous. You'll probably flinch at loud noises and be nervous around new people, as we've discovered today. I would say yes, you do. At least mildly."

I nodded and dropped the subject, not wanting to think about what treatment for PTSD would entail. "I'm tired," I said instead, and backing up my statement with a big yawn.

"Go ahead and sleep. I'll stay right here until you fall asleep, then I'm going to go call Erwin and tell him and Hanji you're sorry. Sound good?" Levi asked, and I nodded, already half asleep.

"Thank you, Levi." I said, and my world went black as I fell asleep.

Levi POV

I left Eren sleeping in our bed after about 10 minutes when I knew he for sure had fallen asleep. I knew he would be tired after everything that had already happened. Between the abrupt abortion the night before, then having a panic attack and crying his heart out for over a half an hour, he was bound to be exhausted. I also knew that the trauma was likely to cause some kind of nightmare, so vowed to myself that I wouldn't leave Eren alone for too long while I made a quick call to Erwin to apologize on behalf of both myself and my sleeping mate.

I extracted myself carefully from Eren's arms and gave him my pillow in my place, which he clung to and buried his nose in. I let a small smile curl at the corners of my lips at the sight. I padded quietly to the door and left the room, closing the door behind me. I took a deep breath and went out to the kitchen before pulling my phone from my pocket and dialing Erwin's number.

The line rang twice before clicking and Erwin's deep voice came over the line. "Levi. Is everything alright? That poor omega was terrified."

"Eren's fine now. He's sleeping. He wanted me to call you and apologize for him. He really wanted to meet you, but Hanji kind of ruined that. He feels bad for freaking out. I told him you would forgive him." I said.

Erwin chuckled and said, "there's nothing to forgive, Levi. Does he have PTSD? And what did Hanji do before I got there?"

"I think so. He never showed any signs of it until today, but he hadn't really seen anybody he doesn't know until now, so I guess that would make sense. I think he's going to need some help. And Hanji practically smothered him the second he rounded the corner. He didn't even have time to react before he was squished to death. It terrified him. At first, I just thought he was nervous, but it quickly escalated from there into what you walked in on."

"Damn, that Hanji. Omegas are skittish as it is. She should know that by now. I can help him if he'll let me, but that's the hard part, isn't it?"

"Yeah. He's terrified of all alpha's I assume, and I don't really blame him. Just wait until you hear his story and how I met him." I decided not to tell Eren's story without permission from the omega himself. "I think he'll want to try meeting with you again soon, though, but I think we should wait a couple of days until he calms down a bit. The last 24 hours have been more than a little rough."

"I think that would be a good idea. That's one of the things we encourage omegas to do is face their fears in a safe environment where they feel protected. I think if you were there and Hanji and I didn't touch him he would be okay. After he calms down for a while first, though." Erwin said, and I couldn't help but smile a little into the receiver.

"You know, Erwin, you're a good friend. I'm grateful to have you."

"Aww, I knew you cared under that hard exterior, Levi. I think your omega has made you soft." Erwin teased.

"Shut the fuck up. I still hate your guts."

Erwin only laughed. "I'm sure you do." Just then I heard a scream come from the bedroom.

"Shit, Erwin I gotta go. I'll talk to you later." I hung up the phone with no explanation and ran to the bedroom where Eren was curled up on himself at the head of the bed with my pillow still clutched between his arms, but his knuckles had turned white from gripping the pillow case too tightly. It seemed like he was on the verge of tearing the fabric. "Eren?" I asked gingerly, wondering what he was seeing right then. Was he seeing me, or the monsters who hurt him?

"Levi." He sat up and reached his arms out to me, so I approached and took him into my lap where he cried once again. This time, I was able to calm him down rather quickly and he was soon sleeping in my lap. The poor kid was probably exhausted. This time I had nowhere to go, so I simply changed our positions so that I was curled around him in a spooning position.

I laid in bed with him for hours, rubbing soothing circles into his abdomen and waking him up from two more nightmares before they could reach their peak. When five o'clock rolled around Eren's eyes fluttered open and he stretched in front of me. I loosened my hold on him and he turned in my arms to face me and kiss me softly on the lips. "Feeling okay?" I asked softly.

He nodded, "much better. Did you sleep at all?"

"No. I'm not tired yet. And if I take naps I don't sleep at all at night." I was interrupted by a gurgling sound coming from Eren.

We both looked down at Eren's tummy, and Eren smiled shyly. "I guess I'm kind of hungry."

"Probably. It's after five. I'm hungry, too, so let's eat. Do you want take-out, or should we make something?"

"Let's make something. I like cooking." Eren said, stretching again.

"I know you do. Now, let's go." We walked out to the kitchen and made dinner together. I had salmon in the refrigerator, and decided to smoke it, and Eren worked on the side dishes. I watched as Eren cut up vegetables to steam and put rice into the cooker. We still had a lot of work to do, and we needed to figure out some of this shit, but I was willing to be patient for him. I had a feeling it would be worth it in the end.