A/N- Wow thanks for all the reviews guys! I got some really good advice and I'm going to work that into this chapter, I hope you guys like it! I wrote the beginning of the chapter from the POV of Kate, just so that does not cause any confusion, she is still in a coma, I have read in some places that coma patients can hear and feel what's going on around them, even though they are not awake so that's what I tried to do! Enjoy!

Disclaimer- I obviously don't own Castle.

Kate's eyes fluttered open. She looked around but all she saw was darkness. Pitch black. Where am I? She thought, what happened? Then it all started coming back to her. The case, Maddox, Castle. She remembered being on the roof and she remembered the fall. She could remember her legs being crushed on impact and- wait, her legs were crushed. Why wasn't she in any pain? Was she dead? She stood up and walked forward. She felt a wall in front of her, she turned and tried the other way but there was a wall there too. She was trapped. It was like she was in a box. She sat down and leaned against the wall and let out a scream, why couldn't she hold on? Why wasn't she good enough to solve her mom's case? What had she done that so bad that she deserved this? Why her?

After she let herself cry, it was dead silent. Then there was a voice, several actually, but they were muffled, like they were behind glass.

"Hello? Hello?" She cried but to no avail.

The voices were soft, but she could make out a word here and there. Critical, bleeding, pulse. It was like they were in a hospital, then it clicked. She was in a coma. She had read about this, that coma patients could hear what people were saying to them, but she had never believed it, until now. This whole experience was unreal. She should be dead. But by some power, she was here. Unconscious maybe, but she was here.

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Castle and Lanie had made it back over to the rest of the group by now, and Esposito began walking towards them. Castle felt anger bubbling up inside him when he saw him.

"Castle look, I-"Espo started before he was interrupted

"Don't 'Castle' me Javier this is your fault!" Castle exclaimed

"Wha- My fault?"

"Yes your fault! You were supposed to be with her! Where were you when she was on that roof? Huh? "

"Hey I tried-"

"Don't make excuses Espo, if you had been there with her she wouldn't be in there right now dying!"

"He's right you know." Ryan said as he stood up from his seat across the aisle. "You promised Espo. You were gonna back her up. How can you be mad at me for going to Gates when you're the reason she's in there?"

"You cannot go telling me this is my fault" Espo said as he got up in Ryan's face "When you didn't even try. You stayed in the precinct. You weren't there for her either."

"Wasn't there for her? I was the one that ran across that rooftop. I was the one that tried to save her."

"You can't make yourself out to be there hero when you didn't even try!" Espo was mad now "This is not my fault and you are sure as hell not the hero here!" They were yelling by now.

Ryan was about to come back at him but Lanie jumped in before things got physical.

"Stop! Just stop! This wasn't any one of our faults, Kate is stubborn and this would have happened no matter what we did. But if you guys want to blame it on someone, Espo, you weren't there when you said you would be, you didn't back her up. But Ryan, you weren't either. And Castle you weren't even at the precinct! What I'm getting at is that this wasn't any one of our faults. It was a combination of our stupidness and Kate's stubbornness that put her in there and there's not one thing we can do about it now. We have to get over ourselves and help Kate because she can't do it on her own. We have to be there for her if we want her to live. That's just the facts."

Lanie sat down and everybody was quiet. They nodded before they all sat down. They didn't completely get over their anger for each other, but what Lanie had said had an impact on them. They were all lost in their own thoughts.

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Jim Beckett and Gates had both just watched the scene in front of them in awe. Jim knew that Castle blamed himself in a way, because he wasn't there for her, but then again Katie had pushed him away. He thought about it before he got up and pulled Castle aside for a talk.

"Sir I'm sorry" Castle said quietly "This is my fault, I should have been there for her."

"Rick this is not your fault, Katie pushed you away. You didn't leave because you wanted to, I know you are a better person than that. You did it because that's what she wanted, am I right?" Jim questioned calmly.

"I left because I love her and if she wanted me to stop protecting her, I had to stop. It wasn't easy for me. I tried to talk her out of it and I tried to stop her, you have to believe me I tried-"

"Rick I believe you, I understand. Katie is a stubborn one."

"Thank you sir, but I still feel like I could have saved her, if I was there. It should have been me."

"Rick you couldn't have stopped her. When she puts her mind on something, she won't back down."

"That's one of the things I love about her" Rick said with a sad smile.

"There is one thing I don't understand, how do you do it Rick?"

"Do what?"

"Love her, I mean her mom's case will always come before you. She will never be able to get past that until the guy's in jail, how can you live with that?"

"When I left today, I thought that I would never see her again. And I thought that was what was going to make her happy. I was trying to put this whole last 4 years in the past and move on but I realized something, sir, I realized that I could never really move on, never really forget. I love her with all my heart and that's not something you can just forget. I know that I will never be first, at least not until her mother's case is solved, and I've realized that I'm ok with it. I'm willing to wait for her and if I have to wait until that case is solved, well that just gives me more motivation to solve it. I've come to realize that if you truly love someone, it's worth the wait and sir, I would wait a million years for her. I would do anything to make her happy."

Jim just smiled and patted Rick on the back, giving him his silent approval. 'He's exactly what Katie needs' Jim thought to himself as the pair headed back to the rest of the group. 'If only she would realize it'

A/N- So how was it? I'll be getting more of the medical aspect in the next chapter, but I have not had any formal medical classes or anything. I'm just going off of what I have found online so I would be appreciative of anyone that knows anything about that field could send me a PM with details on how you think Kate's injuries would be treated so I have a reliable source, thanks! And keep the reviews coming, I love them, new chapter up soon!