Hellooooo! You are reading the sequel to the story I wrote called 'Secret Love', a Kames two shot! You need to read that first to fully grasp what is going on in this. Okay on to the story!

I am sooooooooooooo sorry it took me sooo long to write this. I had major writers block and I was working on other things and yeah...

Disclaimer!; Blah, blah, blah, I don't own Big Time Rush, blah, blah, blah, I REALLY wish I did. Oh, and I wouldn't mind owning Kames! ;D

Where we last left off. . .

~Kendall's PoV~

Out of nowhere, I hear the door fall down and sets of footsteps come into the bedroom. 'Oh no, Logan and Carlos too.' "Shit" was all I could mutter. Suddenly, everything started to finally break down. First my lungs, I just couldn't breathe anymore, but I didn't care. Next my whole body just falls onto the floor, my head hitting the sink on the way down. Finally, the numbness takes over my body and I just let it happen. The last thing I see before my eyelids close are a horrified James kneeled next to me and a petrified Carlos crying into Logan's arms. With the last bit of my strength, I put my hand to James' cheek and use my dying breathe to mutter my last words to my secret love.

"Goodbye...love."

~James' PoV~

No...this can't be happening. All of this blood on the floor, the blade right across from...Kendall's limp, cold, lifeless, body, that I hold in my arms. This all has to be a sick, cruel nightmare, that I'm going to wake up from...it needs to be, Kendall is not dying, I will not let him die!

"Logan, call-" I was going to tell him to call for help but he already was. Tears start to flow from my eyes as I realize that all of this...is actually happening. The guy I adore with everything in my heart, is dying in my arms. I look around the bathroom and see Carlos, in the farthest corner of the bathroom, knees to his chest, his eyes blood-shot, sobbing uncontrollably.

"Carlos, I-I know your terrified right now, and I am too but, if you want Kendall to l-l-live...you need to listen to me! Okay honey?" Logan says to Carlos, trying not to break-down like Carlitos already did.

"O-Okay Logie...what do you n-need me to do?" Carlos asked trying to calm himself. He gets up on his feet and wipes away the tears on his cheek. Logan walks over to Kendall and me and kneels down next to us.

"Carlos, I need you to get me a hand towel, a wet one. James...give me K-Kendall please." I look at him like their are bugs crawling out of his ears.

"Are you crazy! I'm not letting go of him 'till he wakes up!" I scream high pitchly.

"He's not going to wake up if you don't let me help him!" He yells to me. He's right, if I want Kendall to wake up, I need to let Logan become .

"A-A-Alright." I say hesitantly before Logan gently but hastily takes Kendall into his arms. Just then, Carlos comes back into the bathroom, paramedics following. Carlos hands Logan the towels and the paramedics take Kendall into the living room, all three of us following close behind. I look to see a crying Katie in Mrs. Knight's shaking arms. 'I guess Carlos told them what happened.' Before the paramedics leave the apartment, Logan wraps the towel around Kendall's wrist, to stop anymore bleeding or oxygen from leaving or getting into the cuts. When the paramedics do leave the apartment, with Kendall on a stretcher, I follow them, even though everyone told me to stay. I needed to be with Kendall as long as I possibly could.

"K-Kendall you need to be okay. Everyone needs you. Logan needs you, Carlos needs you, your mom needs you, Katie needs you...I-I need you. I love you, I love you so much and I have to tell you when your pretty green eyes open up. I can't even imagine my life without you. Your the reason why all of us are in a band, and in L.A! You gave up your dream for mine and I don't know how I coul-"

"Sorry honey, but only people over 18 can go in the ambulance with a minor." I gave the female EMT a confused look, until I looked at my surroundings and see that we're in the Palm Woods' parking lot. I was going to fight with her but...I knew the longer Kendall was away from the hospital, the shorter the chance of him surviving would be. So, I nodded my head to the EMT and gave Kendall a kiss on his cold, pale cheek, while muttering "See you soon" before slowly making my way to the entrance of the Palm Woods, watching the ambulance lights flash to bring my love to safety. Kendall...my love, I could get use to the sound of that.

~Kendall's PoV~

*A few hours later*

I'm alive? Maybe...all I see right now is darkness and I can't feel anything...everything is just, numb. All around me is nothing but black. I can't move, I can't blink my eyes, I can't do anything, not even talk. As I lay here, in the empty silence, I start to wonder what is going on in the world outside this. Before my thoughts go any further I hear something for the depths of the black. Is that a voice I hear? Yes, a very familiar voice. Yes, it's his angelic, amazing, breath-taking voice. . . James'.

"Kendall, I need you to wake up. I can't stand not being able to hear your voice, even if it's yelling at me. When you said "Goodbye love" to me, I knew this was my fault and I will make it up to you when you wake up. I'll make sure that I tell you I love you everyday and I-I'll make sure to keep you happy always and to love & protect you forever. Oh, yeah. . . did I forget to mention I love you? Yeah, well, I do, more than anything. So hear this; Kendall Knight, I, James Diamond, love you more than you can & will ever imagine. Just please Kenny, wake up. I-I need y-you." I hear him start sobbing and it literally destroys my heart how much in pain he sounds. I start to think back to the last time I had 'talked' to James. It would have been a shame if a scream-off between us was the last conversation we would ever have with each other. Hopefully, it wasn't going to be.

I want- no, need to get out of this hell-hole of bottomless nothing and be with my family, my best friends. . . my James. I try my hardest to jerk my body in any position and way possible, just to make a slight movement, but nothing happens. Maybe. . .this is the end. Maybe there is no heaven and souls are just to wander in the blackness. Maybe this is what happens when you die. Maybe that voice. . .was all in my head too? No! I just can't believe that! I need to get back home. My last resort at this point is just to scream. I open my mouth to scream, but not even a whimper comes out. I keep trying and trying, for what seems like eternity, until finally, the smallest little whimper/whine escapes me. Now, I'm praying that someone is outside this dark nightmare of mine and heard my cry for help, even if it was a pathetic one.

~3rd Person PoV~

*Moments ago*

James was sleeping in the uncomfortable hospital chair next to his Kendall, no one else was in the room, only because it was 12:30 at night and everyone else decided to leave, but James refused to say no. The occasional nurse would stop by to make sure the couple was doing fine, but other than that, James was the only one there when...Kendall had whimpered. Luckily, the brunette was a very light sleeper, and his head was leaning right against the bed railing when the light noise left the blonde's lips. James' head shot up, not believing he had heard, what he thought he heard. 'Did Kendall. . .just make a noise? It had to be him! There's no one else-'

"J-Jamie? I-Is that you?" James hesitantly looks down to see scared, emerald orbs, locking in with his hazel eyes. James is frozen, trying to take in that the boy that he held practically dead in his arms only hours ago, was piercing through his soul with the green eyes he had come to love. Speechless, James just stares back at Kendall, reaching out and gently rubbing Kendall's still cold cheek, with his thumb, praying that this was real, and not a dream that would leave James in tears if he woke up. Finally, James finds the ability to speak again.

"Yes Kendall, it's me and I'm not going anywhere." A spark of joy passes through Kendall's features; his eyes turn a lighter shade of green, a slight grin appeared on his face, and all worries melt away, knowing James is going to protect him no matter what. James and Kendall are still just looking at each other, trying to soak in everything going on, hoping none of this is just a figment of both their imaginations. James makes the next move, by pulling Kendall in with an almost bone crushing embrace, the brunette holding on like his life depended on it. Suddenly, James starts to sob, Kendall starting to rub soothing circles on the pretty boy's back.

"I-I thought I-I lost you Kend-dall! I take back e-e-everything I said! I'm sorry about all those h-hurtful words I said! I meant none of them. I-I love you, I love you s-so much it hurts! W-When I saw you in the b-bathroom, d-d-dying, I thought that was it. I thought I lost m-my chance with you." He paused, to look up from his current position, head buried in Kendall's neck, to look into Kendall's emerald eyes, "B-But you're back, and I'm not letting you slip away." James said softly, as he placed a tender peck to the blonde's lips.

"James, I heard what you said before, you know, when I was unconscious and,. . . I love you too. I'm sorry I tried to kill myself. I was being selfish and didn't think on how anyone else would react. I just, I just couldn't handle the idea of you not loving me back. I was so upset earlier because. . .I didn't have Jo to keep me distracted from my love for you. But now, I don't have to worry about that anymore because...you really do love me." Then Kendall started to shed tears of joy. James smiles ,then takes Kendall face into his hands, wiping the salty tears away with his thumbs. James leans in and puts their foreheads together, just staring into Kendall's emerald eyes, as Kendall does the same to the hazel orbs.

"I'm so glad you're alive. I thought I was going to have to be forever alone with a broken heart and a guilty conscious for the rest of my life." James said, finishing off with a light chuckle. Kendall chuckled as well, also thankful for being able to live so he could be with his 'not so secret' love. As they stared into each other eyes and gave each other sweet, innocent pecks on the lips, they both had the same thing going through there mind.

'I could do this forever.'

! The official end! I hope it lived up to your expectations and...sorry if it didn't :( I liked it! Please, tell me what you think a.k.a review.

~Angel