Chapter 3
I lied to Nii-san. I made him believe that I still couldn't control my eye. I made him believe that I gained a heartless character but in reality, I only saw it. The power no longer affects my character not unless I chose to.
I pretend to be heartless because I don't want to be attached. Lavi is just one of his personas that will soon be disposed of when they're finished. None of his smiles or affections is real.
I don't want to get attached to someone who will soon die.
I don't want someone to show me affection that isn't real. I don't want to feel the pain that I felt when Nii-san was separated from me. I don't want it to happen again so I have to be heartless to be unaffected. I don't want to be shown care that will soon fade.
I don't want to die a second time.
Lavi brings Kayin to the science department for the measurements of her uniform. He needs to leave in a few minutes for a mission with Bookman and Lenalee. And of all places, he leaves her in Kanda's room.
"Take care of my sister for me while I'm gone, Yuu-chan! Thanks in advance!" says Lavi as he leaves his sister sitting on Kanda's bed then runs to the door.
"Oi Baka Usagi!" says Kanda pointlessly as he is unheard.
He then looks at the girl sitting on his bed with an expressionless face.
"Get out!"
She just sits with same expression and just stared at him.
"Are you deaf? Leave!" says Kanda as he draws out his sword.
She slowly gets up irritating him each second then walks out the room.
"You're as annoying as the usagi even if you don't talk much," mutters Kanda to himself as the red head is no longer there.
She walks away from the room then tries to find the cafeteria but ends up getting lost. A German woman who is probably in her twenties suddenly bumps into her which leads to both of them ending up on the floor sitting.
"I'm s-so s-sor-rry. P-please f-forgive me," she says while bowing down in apology with her face almost in tears.
"Where's the cafeteria?" she asks with the usual calm voice and ignores the statement as if it didn't happen.
"I was heading there myself, I'll show you the way if you'd like," answers the German with still a few stutter in her words.
The red head pulls the woman back on her feet then gestures to her to lead the way. They walk in silence until the red head asks for her name.
"What's your name?"
The young girl didn't really care much but it would be hard to call for others if she didn't know their name if needed.
"Miranda Lotto."
"Kayin."
"You're Lavi-kun's sister?"
"Yes," the red head answers in German unexpectedly.
"You know German?"
"What does it look like?"
"Sorry."
"Stop apologizing too much."
"Yes.
While heading there, Miranda tripped about five times then kept apologizing again. They almost arrive there and are a few meters from the door after half an hour and she is practically on her knees asking for forgiveness.
Kayin couldn't really understand her and decided to do something reckless just to experiment how much control she has on her eye.
She quickly removes the eye patch on top of her left eye then looks at Miranda with a golden iris. She quickly returns it before the woman notices the color.
"You've been down and a failure lots of times but you strive hard to be helpful. You already have a purpose now. You're not a failure as long as you don't think yourself as one. Stop the negative ways of thinking you have on yourself. Have more confidence. Stop worrying too much. It makes you look older than you really are. You are very pretty and kind you know. You are very helpful and kind. So stop that way of acting since it's a bit annoying."
Miranda suddenly becomes quiet and thought about what Kayin just said. The woman cries a bit then give the girl a smile of gratitude.
"Thank you."
They then go inside and seem to have caused a bit of misunderstanding since Miranda is still teary while the girl has the look of indifference plastered on her face. Kayin just walks over to Jerry not caring about the whispers going around that she might have bullied the older woman who is easily affected by the most trivial things. She orders her food then Miranda. They walk towards a vacant table where they eat in silence.
"Kayin! Komui is asking for you in his office."
"I'm already finished, would you like me to accompany you there?" says Miranda with her usual tone of voice but less strained and worried compared to before.
Kayin stands up then gestures her to lead.
"Thank you. You've been a real help. And kindly remember what I've said."
The young girl tells the older before entering the office then closing the door.
"Welcome," Miranda replies with a smile.
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(^.^) Edited: January 6, 2013