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Emily hold the cup of coffee closer to her face and let the scent wake her up. Last night was terrible. Last night was awful. Last night was a nightmare. She remembered her dream. She remembered the happiness she felt during the beginning of it. She remembered how quickly everything collapsed. She remembered how terrible she felt. How quickly the truth hunted a beautiful dream. No you can not dream. You can not even dream about him. She thought. You lost him and you can't have him back even in your imagination. You can't. She could feel her heart being heavy. She couldn't move on. She couldn't forget. And the fact that even her dreams had that kind of ends was causing her unbelievable pain. She wanted to be able to dream of him. She wanted to be able to think of him. To dream him and thinking about him without feeling her heart ready to explode. She wanted to be able to remember the good moments, the happy smiles, the promises without fighting her tears. I am sorry Aiden. I miss you. I need you. She screamed with her mind.
«Are you ok? » Her father asked her placing his hand on her shoulder.
Last night he woke up of her screams. He woke up and found a terrified and devastated girl crying. Because when he walked into her room and saw her that's how he saw her. Like a girl. Like a small girl that cries and begs her father to send away the monsters. But he knew that he couldn't just open the closet's doors to prove her there was no monster. He knew he couldn't just say a magic spell and make her feel safe. Because she wasn't a small girl anymore. She wasn't afraid of the closed doors, or the darkness under her bed. He knew that the monster she was facing was inside her. Inside her mind. Inside her memories. He knew that he ended up protecting the monsters.
«I am fine. » She said and placed her cup on the table gently.
«Listen… about Victoria… »He started but Emily cut him off. She was happy her father chose to spare Victoria's life. She was glad her father chose to keep his hands clean of more blood.
«It's fine. I didn't ask you to kill her. I am not a murderer, and neither do you. » She said and gave him her warmest look.
They stayed in silence for a few moments before Emily manage to speak.
«You would like him you know. » She said with a sad smile. She knew her father would love Aiden. He would love that he was so protective towards her. He would love that she was his first priority. He would love that he was a fighter. He would love him.
She thought about it for a moment. Aiden and her father. Something she would never be able to see but she wished she could more than anything. She dreamed of a place were she, Aiden, David and Nolan would have dinner together. A place in which they would be in each other's everyday life.
«He was always there for me. I… I… He was always coming back for me. He changed his life for me. » First tears made their presence. «More than once» All the times he came back. All the times he fought for her. «We trained together. He used to come in my room every morning to wake me up. Either with a kiss at my forehead, or by whispering to me beautiful words. » She smiled. A genuine smile. She remembered everything.
She felt someone cuddling her from behind and placing a kiss at the back of her neck.
«Wake up sunshine. » She heard someone whispering at her ear.
She slowly turned around so she could face him but she kept her eyes closed. She crawled even closer to him and hid her face and his collarbone.
«I want to stay here for the rest of the day» She whispered.
«You can't just stay at the bed all day Amanda. Come on. Takeda doesn't like it when we are late. » He said and kissed the top of her head.
«I want to stay in your hug you idiot. » She said not making any effort to move from her position.
She felt him tighten his hug and let her smile grow bigger.
«I wish we could. But we have to go to our…» She cut him off by kissing his lips. It started as a gently and quite kiss until he deepens it. He ran his hands to her body and she held his face with both her hands. She was feeling like she was in heaven until he pulled away.
«We have to go to our training. I don't want to get you in trouble. » He said and crawled out of her bed.
When he left he stayed still with a big smile on her face.
He was perfect. «He was calling me Amanda you know. He was the only person in my life that knew Amanda Clarke. He was the only person that knew all of me. » And she truly believed that. She was pretty sure that he knew Amanda Clarke better than her own father did.
«He saved me a million times. From others but from myself too. There was a time in my life that things were really… confused… And he was the only one that knew how to save me. He was the only one that knew what I needed. » She stopped for a while trying to control her breathing and then she continued. «We fitted. We belonged together. » She said quoting one of his last words towards her. She felt tears rolling down her cheeks and she didn't bother to wipe them away.
«He sounds like he really loved you. » David said feeling his throat dry. Seeing his daughter talking about her dead fiancé, seeing his daughter talking with so much love about him caused a constantly pain in his chest. The dream in her eyes, the lost hope was making it even worse.
«He did. » She said and tangled her fingers. «I did too. » There was a little sob. Then she stood up walked slowly to the couch opened her bag and pulled out her wallet. Then she opened it and took out his photo. Their photo. She walked back at the table, sat back at her sit and gave the photo to her father.
«We never really… This is one of our few photos. It's… He didn't really like photos. » She said keeping her eyes on the photo. On his smile. On his happiness.
«You both look really happy. » He said.
«We were. » She answered.
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