We are gonna jump around in the time machine some. To those who have offered suggestions, thanks, one of you might be kinda close to what might happen, maybe.

TWO MONTHS LATER

Kensi was lecturing herself. "Dammit girl, he was there for you. He followed you, not Sam, G or Hetti (that's how we roll) to Romania, Afghanistan and dodged lasers for you and then he finally opened up, after all your badgering, kissed you to tell you how he felt and you RODE OFF. Get off your ass and find him. He's gotta be feeling deserted and alone. . !

ONE WEEK LATER

Kensi had been unbearable since her little lecture to herself. She still hadn't tried to see him and was constantly reminding herself that she had deserted a good partner, man, best friend and the man she loved, all rolled up into one shaggy surfer. As she sat there, pondering why she was stuck in 'don't go look for him mode' she finally heard "Earth to Kensi, where are we on the McAllister follow up interview?" This having come from Sam. He was lead on that case and had to write the final report and that included a follow up to insure the agents had handled everything properly from the victims perspective.

"Fine" she huffed "I'll get it today. He'll just trash my attitude like everyone else the last several weeks. Maybe I should just go. I bet I could partner with Deeks at LAPD. Maybe I could be the Mata Hari to his mole." She stormed out of OPS feeling like she had let Deeks down and mad at Sam and G for doing the same. As she passed Benji (a tech in OPS reporting to Eric) she muttered something about getting even with this place starting with G and Sam. She was furious at herself and taking it out on everyone else AND she knew it. Sam and G knew it was gonna get ugly given the comment about going to LAPD.

She continued her self-inflicted moodiness and downward spiral (aka generally being a bitch) for a few more weeks when "Miss Blye, a word in my office please. NOW!" ordered Hetti on her way past.

Sam and G tuned their radar to listen. As they strained to hear what was going on they noticed quite a few people lined up on the balcony doing the same thing. They heard phrases such as "disappointed in your attitude", "hand up my ass pulling the strings", "never meant to pull you 2 apart, not even because of Afghanistan" and "pick my things up Saturday" and then Kensi stormed out with tears running down her cheeks, throwing a hard stare at Sam and G both.

Sam and G ran over to Hetti and before G could scream at her she simply said "she's gone. I ran her off too."

Kensi went to Deeks apartment to finally confront him but he wasn't there. He wasn't at the beach either and she hadn't heard Monty inside, ergo he's gone undercover. Tomorrow she would see Bates and find out how to contact Deeks or get a message to him.

THE NEXT DAY

"That's the whole thing agent Blye (she hadn't mentioned the fact she quit)" offered Bates. "I'll try to get a message to him to contact you when and how he can, but it will be tough. We don't have any real back-up for him and he only checks in with me once a week as he sees fit. I talked to him yesterday so it could be 6 days before I hear anything. Oh, and so you know, Monica has re-surfaced and is acting as his girl on this op as part of a plea deal for past offenses. She is the one that got him in with the cartel. One final thing, someday you gotta tell me-why the hell did he leave NCIS-he found home and family there- -even told me to expect his resignation in the next few weeks. Then, a month later, he says he's back full time and he quit you guys."

"I'll be sure and ask him if he calls me" Kensi said with a smile. "By the way, if I wanted to join LAPD and partner with him, would I have to go thru the academy first?" "His resignation?" she pondered those words for a long time.

Bates chuckled at her answer and then said "Technically yes but I could probably get you waived thru that if you wanted to join the undercover unit with Marty. It would be nice to give that kid some backup he could depend on. We are spread so thin and many in the department won't work with him cause he won't tolerate bad cops or sloppy work. (That one surprised Kensi due to his laid back style at OSP). That surprises you? He keeps it in, but when he loses it do not be close. He could whip a gorilla when pissed. He also can't stand being hit in the face. Reminds him of being abused by his father. I saw him take down 3 marines after one of em hit him in the face on an op. You ever seen that side of him agent? Anyway I'm sure you know that those are about the only 2 pet peeves he has, the rest is his 'persona' that protects him from pity because of his past with his dad and then what his mom did really hurt him deep down. 6 years as partners is an eternity. I'm sure there is nothing you 2 don't know about each other."

"No" she said hesitantly, thinking "crap, add that to the list of Kensi screw ups and things I don't know about him. No wonder we had problems after I hit him." Aloud she added "thanks for the info. It's nice to know you can help me with the academy thing and it would be a big bonus working with him again. I don't trust easily and he is one of the few I do. "She offered her hand as she stood to leave.

"By the way, are you two a couple yet?" Bates smiled as asked the 64 thousand dollar question.

"I'll be sure and ask him that too" she grinned, a faraway look in her eyes as she left.

"That boy is done for and doesn't know it yet" chuckled Bates after she left. "Good for him."

ANOTHER 2 WEEKS PASS

Kensi was furious, no contact from Deeks and Bates was "unavailable" she was told. Just as she was getting good and mad, her cell phone buzzed. Caller ID said "LAPD". "What" she snarled assuming it was Bates?

"Your boy's in trouble, you up for joining LAPD real quick and backing him up? His previous back up was green and got made-didn't even know how to wear a wire properly. I gotta come up with something or he's gonna be dead soon."

"On my way" and all Bates heard was "click" as she hung up.

On the way home after being briefed Kensi went thru what she learned and needed to know. Most importantly, Deeks had contacted Bates and issued an ultimatum- -"get Kensi to back me up or I'm out-24 hours-get it done." That was late last night. They had found the wire on the last person who was posing as the drug buyer/distributor for the operation. Kensi was to buy 4 Kilo's of pure cocaine. Street value was huge after it was stepped on twice (cut with baby laxative by the distributor and then the street peddlers in the network). Her back story was as Deeks (Max's) sister. Her husband was not available as he was dealing with some issues with their "other operation." The last thing he said was the killer though. "Hetti told me everything, mole, your attitude, all of it. If I lose that boy because you can't or won't hold it together-run fast and far cause you won't want me to find you." Bates was making his feelings for Marty clear and giving her an out at the same time.

The next day she dressed in "slutty sheik" in order to both distract the frisker (she was warned it could be real close to a strip search) as well as have a little fun with Deeks. She was gonna keep her eyes on him as she walked in. Then she smiled for the first time in nearly 4 months. She would be wearing a newer wire-one that would go in her hair and was wireless. By wearing her hair down (Deeks favorite) the wire would be like a dot on her scalp and they could make her strip naked and never find it. That thought did not appeal to her though. She could live with hands everywhere but stripping naked was not an option, unless it was only her and Deeks. That she might do just to rattle him. Damn what was it with her trying to rattle Deeks cage. This was serious and she had gone from moody, freakin' out, bat shit mad to let's tease Marty. Not good. Again, thoughts that she was really losing it were creeping in.

There you are. Any ideas on where we are going yet? Can Kensi keep it together?