Hello, back again. Thanks for the reviews and will take your comments on board. Sorry about my spelling mistakes. Bit shorter but wanted to continue main story plot. :)

How?

He looked at me with eyes I couldn't read. Shock? Disappointment? Angry? Maybe he doesn't believe me ? I can feel tears building up.

" I don't know how but" I choke on a tear, as it trickles down my cheek. " I am" now I'm full on crying but still staring him in the eye. Those deep eyes looked so shocked, dumbfounded and surprised. Dimitri just hugs me close and whispers Russian while he rests his head on mine. He's trying to comfort me, to make the tears go away but it won't make our big problem go away.

I push back, trying to I regain control.

" what are we going to do?"

" I don't know Roza, but first of all we need to make sure."

" Dimitri, I did a test this morning and I've just thrown up, I'm pretty sure that I'm pregnant" I whisper the last bit. He takes my cheek so I look him deep in the eye, I don't know how, but whenever I look into them the world seems fine, like nothing's wrong.

" rose we' ll get through this, I promise you we will." Theres a pause before he says. "Do you know what you want to do?" Do I know what want to do? Give me five seconds.

" Dimitri I only found out this morning, I still need to comprehend that there's s baby growing inside of me." Our baby.

" of course , of course but whatever you decide I'm with you."

He's not asked if I've cheated? Why? Thank God he didn't I don't think i could cope if that became a problem. He trusts me.

It's only then that I realise that this baby is half of him. My own Dimitri. He always wanted a family, he nearly left me to have one. To give him what he really wants would be amazing, but what about me? The thought of giving birth already frightens me. Yes, I want kids but now?

" I bet you didn't think this would happen "I slightly chuckle even though the wet tears are drying on my cheeks. I must look a mess.

" rose I don't regret it"

"What?" How could he not regret it? If we have a baby, our lives are going to be flipped and everyone will find out about us. Or they'll think I'm a slut and got pregnant by some random Moroi. I'm over thinking again.

" Rose what we did was love and I would do it again in a heartbeat. I love you. No, I didn't realise that this would happen but I'm with you all the way. If you want to keep it or not?"

It? It's a baby. A life and I'm deciding whether to kill it or not. But what's the point in its' life when I'm not able to give it what it needs? I resent my mom, I can't do that to my child? I want a life, I'm 17. Am I ready?

He senses my internal conflict so kisses me and boy, was it a kiss. My arms wrap and his neck bringing him closers but he pulls back so he can catch him breath. In that moment I didn't care if anyone walked in.

" Dimitri, I'm really young" I hate to admit it but I am." I don't know if I'm ready for a baby, and I don't want it to resent me like I do my own mom. I've not decided but just keep that in mind."

" rose I still don't think you realise that I'm here for you. Your mom brought you up on her own but you have me. I'm not bailing at any point. I love you."

" I love you too" I kiss him again though it's shorter this time.

He pulls back. " you should get going, it's late."

I only realise that it's getting light outside, how long have I been here?

"Okay" we leave together and hold hands for a little bit before we hear footsteps of the dorms.

Once back in my room, the nauseous feeling comes back. I just made it to the en suite. God is this what it's going to be like? I didn't realise but unconsciously my hands were rested on my Stomach. A baby?

So what do you think?

What will she do?

I know it's a controversial topic, abortion, but I thought that this would be an interesting direction to take and it is different to most stories. I don't mean to offend anyone at all as this is all just make believe and not real.

I will not be changing the category of this story and will simply CLEARLY state when it is m rated. People are welcome to skip m rated parts as they wont affect the essential story line.

Thank you

Thistleandweed.