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Forever,
Lizzi
"Rose." I looked up meeting those jade eyes. I backed away. "You came back without me." She looked all teary eyed.
"Liss." I whispered.
I couldn't believe who I was seeing. I looked at her, tears springing to my eyes. "You aren't real, I watched you die." I whispered. I heard the boys yelling at each other still. She walked towards me, I instantly took a step back.
"You're afraid of me." I looked away from her. "You're afraid of your best friend." I looked at her, seeing the pain those eyes held. "Dr. Cummings." I laughed at that, it was almost a hysterical laugh.
"Nurse Kitty." She smiled at me, a small happy smile. "How are you here?" she looked at me sadly.
"I don't know, I only remember waking up in the sun." I took a shaky breath in. She wasn't real, I had to be imagining this. "I was scared, so I tried to crawl to a shadow. It took me about five minutes and I should have been dead as soon as I woke up, even before that." She took another step towards me. "I have the magic again."
"Liss, you should be dead or killing people." She winced at my words of choice.
"It wasn't me that killed them." She hung her head. "It wasn't me." I took a step forward reaching out for her. She looked up at me, sadly. She flung herself into my arms. "Rose, I am so sorry. I shouldn't have followed you. I should have let you go on your own." She sobbed into my shoulder. I held her close, never wanting to let her go. "Rose, please forgive me." I looked her in the eyes.
"There is nothing to forgive, I should have been more careful." She hugged me again. "I don't know what to do now though." She nodded. "Only Oskana, Mark, and us know about changing Strogoi back."
"Rose," her voice had something new in her voice. I looked at her questioningly. "Who's hottie number 1 and hottie number 2?" I glanced to where she was staring only now noticing the twins staring at us. She was speaking Russian. "Are they yo-" I covered her mouth.
"They are Russian." I was speaking Russian too, damn. I looked over at them. "No, they aren't mine, but I do want one of them." I switched to Turkish. She laughed.
"Can I have the other?" I shook my head. Christian liked her. "Wow, you want them both, that'll be hot in bed." We decided to speak English apparently. Well damn.
I gaped at her. "Liss, right there." She laughed again. "Go to the outer cabin, you know where that is right?" she nodded. "Alik will go with you." Alik stepped forward, offering her his arm. They left quietly. I looked over at Dimitri. "What were you two fighting about?"
"He is still very immature. He wanted to try to fool you." I laughed. He quirked his eyebrow.
"He could never pull you off." I murmured walking right up next to him.
"How do you know?" I looked at him and smiled.
"I know you, I see you." I tried to leave out the fact that, I wanted him not Alik, I failed. "I want you, not him." My cheeks were on fire as his eyes ignited. "Dimitri, let's stop playing games." He nodded. He pulled me closer to him, his lips moving to mine, stopping a hair's length away.
"Are you sure?" he asked, his lips brushing against mine.
"Dimitri?" he met my eyes. "Why won't you kiss me?" he looked at me shocked, startled. I let my hand slide into his long soft hair. He watched me, slowly letting his arms travel around my waist, holding me too him. Our lips are just barely touching. "Dimitri, kiss me." He didn't hesitate. His lips crashed against mine, I moaned as his tongue slid against my lower lip.
"Rose." Someone yelled. I opened my eyes, shooting up. I ran a hand through my sweaty hair and over my now sweat covered face. I looked at Dimitri and Alik. Their faces held so much worry. I was barely breathing. It all made sense now.
"Lissa." I whispered as my tears fell, finally reeling from everything that had happened. I held my knees to my chest. I wish it would have been me. "I want it to be me." I cried softly. I let my tears take over my being. I have never been so weak before, I could always hold it back. It was all a dream, Liss and me. Dimitri and me. I wiped away my tears hastily. I took in deep breaths. "What time is it?"
"Midday." Alik answered. I nodded hastily, running my hand through my hair again. I crawled out of bed.
"I am," I literally shook. "I, uh, I, um, I am going to go…" I trailed off pointing at the door. "I just have to go." I grabbed my gym bag, iPod and sneakers. I ran out, leaving both boys behind. I knew I shouldn't be out, but I would say Dimitri sent me to do laps. I stood on the track, the one place I felt safe anymore. I shook out my hands, grabbing my iPod and starting my run.
To me the track gave me a chance to run away from my problems without actually running away from them. It meant so much to me to be able to protect Liss. I couldn't do it though, could I? Lissa appeared on the track, see through. I felt her. It was her soul. I ran faster passing her, watching her turn and reach out to me. I ran as fast as I could, as far as I could. She was showing up everywhere reaching out to me, asking, and begging for help. I was crying by the third time I passed her. I was barely breathing. I was trying to get a grasp on reality. I didn't have a grasp. I ran even faster, closing my eyes. I didn't stop, didn't slow down. I only gained speed.
"Rose, you have Strogoi speed." Liss exclaimed. I laughed. We were at the local high school, running. We were attempting to increase our speed and strength. We were actually getting stronger each day. Liss was used to the sun, could block it out with Spirit.
"Lissa that is such an exaggeration." I rolled my eyes, trying to keep the smile off of my face. She grinned at me, putting down the timer. She joined me on the main line, the starting line. "Fifteen miles?" She nodded.
"Do you think I will be able to keep up with you?" I looked at her, taken aback.
"Of course, even if you don't I won't let you fail. You know that." She nodded. We hugged each other, than stood on the starting line. "Go." We took off running. We were laughing by the tenth mile. That was one of my favorite memories.
I wiped away a silent tear, opening my eyes. I saw the finish line coming up and fast. I also saw Sparky sitting under the pavilion waiting for me to finish. I slowed down, jogging over to him. "We are going on a ski trip in two months. You will meet the Spirit user then." I nodded, smiling.
"Christian?" he turned back to me. "Thank you." He smiled a nice smile, not the snarky one he usually plastered on his face. He walked away, tired of the heat. It was supposed to get cold fast in the next week. I walked back over to the track, checking the time. I had three hours before my session with Dimitri, I had been running for almost five hours. I looked up. I regretted it instantly. Liss stood in front of me, reaching and grabbing my arm. She looked into my eyes, speaking millions. Then she really did speak. "Change me."
"Liss, I promise I will change you back." She smiled, letting my arm go, disappearing all together. I walked back to the cabin, thinking about Liss.
"How do we know it will work?" I looked at her.
"We don't not until we try. Oskana taught us how to control the magic and bring it in." she nodded nervously. "Liss, we will take care of it, think about how much we can help the souls that were kicked out of their body?"
"What if I go mad?"
"I won't let you."
"You promise?"
"I promise." I pulled her into a hug, a tight warming hug.
I entered the cabin, still lost in memories. I walked over to my shower things. I grabbed them, walking to the shower. I knew that Dimitri had a shift before practice every morning and Alik just disappeared. I stopped caring where he went every morning. I let the hot water crash down over me.
"Fuck!" I screeched.
"Rose, what happened?" Liss came rushing down the stairs.
"The water's to damn hot." She sighed.
"I told you it was." I pouted, going to get ice to attempt to cool my burn, and then I remembered. "Let me." She laid her hand on mine, feeling the usual tingle I did whenever she healed me, which was often.
"Thanks."
"I won't let you get hurt. You can't leave me alone to fight."
"I will never leave you Liss."
I did, I left her with the Strogoi who killed her. I finished up in the shower. I got out and went to the closet, a towel wrapped around me. I pulled out a flannel shirt that fit me perfectly, rising a little so you could see my stomach. I remember the day I bought this.
"Rose, you look so hot. You have to get it. The club's buying everything we want." I looked in the mirror again. It did make me look pretty hot. "Oh, and the skirt too." I laughed. It was a mini skirt with a hooker cowgirl shirt.
I sighed at the wonderful memories. I slid on my clothes. I was amazed it still fit; I had bigger boobs than I did then. I stood in front of the mirror, grabbing my black matching cow girl boots. I had to say I was hot in everything. I grabbed my gym bag, heading out to meet Dimitri. I listened to my music, walking slowly. I had at least ten minutes, I think. I got there quicker than I thought I would. I walked in, looking around for any sign of Dimitri. "Comrade, I'm here." I called. Alik walked out, he came right to me, kissing me. Our lips moved as one. I froze, knowing it wasn't Dimitri. He pulled away.
"Roza, what's the matter?" I looked at him.
"You're not the one I want to be kissing." I growled. "You're not him."
"Not who?" he asked innocently. In his eyes there was lust. There was no trust, honesty, or care.
"Not Dimitri." I growled.
"Why do you think I am not me?" I looked at him.
"Alik, you are not going to be able to fool me, give up." I looked around quickly. "Where's Dimitri anyway?"
"He told me he would be ten minutes late so I could try what I wanted." I sighed heavily.
"I am going to go change then." I walked over to the changing rooms. "Don't follow me." He grinned. I turned the corner, staying there. Listening to see what Alik did next.
"She didn't fall for it…" there was a brief pause. "I even kissed her… yes I know she is yours… because I can." He snapped the phone shut. "Roza, I have a meeting to go to, I will see you later."
"Okay." I called. I slowly stripped out of my clothes, my muscles hurting a little. I looked into the large mirror covering the wall. I placed my hand to my lips, touching my bottom lip softly. He kissed me, he shouldn't have, but he did. I slipped off my bra, changing into my training bra and a wife beater. I wasn't going as fast as I should have, but oh well. I wasn't caring, until Dimitri stormed in. I froze, gaping at him. I was so hoping the reception I got from Alik. Please, please God. I begged silently.
He pushed me against the mirror. "What were you thinking, kissing a guardian?" he asked darkly.
"Are you really that mad I kissed him?" I traced a finger down his chest. His breath hitched slightly.
"Yes." He breathed.
"Or, are you mad I didn't kiss…" I moved my mouth close to his. "You." He went to move in closer, but I stepped under his arm. I walked over to my shorts, sliding them on slowly. I just got them over my butt when he grabbed my arm, turning me towards him.
"Do not question the people you obey." I moved closer to him.
"Do I obey you? Do I really?" I whispered against his lips. He growled. I smiled. I moved a little closer to touch his lips a little bit more. "Dimitri, don't you want me?" he looked at me through lust hazed eyes.
"Yes." He murmured before crashing his lips to mine. He held me to him, his tongue fighting mine. I groaned into him. He was amazing, not even compared to previous boyfriends. It was over way to soon. He pulled away. "Roza, you obey me." He walked out; leaving me slumped on the floor like a mushy marshmallow. I gathered myself, exiting the dressing room to find Dimitri staring out the window. I walked up behind him.
"No Dimitri." He froze. "You obey me." He turned towards me staring at me, raised eyebrow and all. I slid my finger all the way down his chest, stopping right above his sweats. "Don't forget it." We got to work.
The next two months went like this. I went to practice and did everything I had to. I didn't get high again, okay that's a lie. Sadly, I didn't kiss Dimitri other than twice. I was dating Mason and we had our own gang. We hung out a lot. We were best friends. We had two days until our trip. My gang spent Christmas with each other, Christian's Aunt Tasha, my mom, Alik, and Dimitri. I was alone in the gym, lifting weights. I planned to spend the next two days alone until the trip.
I was getting up higher in the number I could lift. It felt like what I went through every day, lifting the weight on my shoulders, hoping it'll stay away. I hated the pain I carried, but it was always there, never leaving, just haunting me. I cleared my thoughts going back to the few things I now had. I had Mason, who I didn't appreciate. I have Dimitri, who I wish I could appreciate the way I would like. I needed to clear my head. Mason wanted me to spend the day with them, but I wasn't really up for it. I was in pretty bad shape. I was drunk, and stoned and a few other things I can't say.
I stood up, going to the dummies set up. I stood in front of the blonde male. He looked just like Nathan, I will kill him. I promised to myself. I got at it, just hitting and hitting. I never stopped working out until my body burned and it took a lot to do that. I was covered in sweat. I would so need a shower after this. I haven't slept a lot in the last two months, always buzzed, and always running, always falling deeper.
I eventually stopped my assault on the Nathan look alike, I had too though. It broke. I was pissed off still, to say the least. I decided to take a break, to go running. I never went running in more than I needed to go in. I had on a thick red hoodie and baggie sweats. If I was in the human world again, I would be considered fat beyond belief in this hoodie. I put in my ear buds and got started. Once I start, I don't stop.
When I did stop, it was because Mason was calling for me. I ran over to him. "Hey." I said, slightly out of breath, but not all the way out of breath.
"Did you know that we have been calling for you for the past half hour and before that we were watching you?" I looked at him weirdly.
"Why?"
"Everyone wanted to see you, Tasha wanted to be introduced."
"Oh, what time is it?"
"Almost sunrise."
"Oh, well shit."
"Why?"
"I have been running for almost five hours." He looked at me strangely. "What?" I asked as we entered the gym.
"How can you run so long?"
"I just can, I have been running for my life for three years."
"How many miles did you run?" I pulled out my speedometer. I gaped at the number.
"Forty." I could have done more. We walked over to where the party was socializing. I stripped off my jacket, revealing a tight purple tee underneath, it matched my black sweats. The shirt ended just so you could see my belly ring. A girl that looked just like Christian stepped forward with her hand on MY Dimitri, I didn't like her already.
"Hello." She held out her hand, I slowly shook it. I loved see the shock as my ice hand hit her warm one. "My name is Tasha Ozera."
"Rosemarie Hathaway, people only call me Rosemarie when they want to die."
"What would you like to be called then?" she laughed.
"Rose." I said simply. I just stood there while everyone talked. I wanted to go back out and run some more. "I heard you recently got back." She spoke to me later on, the twins on her sides.
"Two months ago." I watched Dimitri from the corner of my eye.
"Can you tell me about your time away?"
"What do you want to know?"
"Where all did you go?"
"Any place we could, mostly Russia and lower Australia. We spent some time in the US though too."
"What did you do for money?" I looked at her judging if she could handle the truth. I smiled at her.
"Prostitution." She just looked at me judging whether to believe me or not. She laughed after a minute, an 'I got it laugh'.
"Good one." I smiled at her again.
"Thanks." I looked past her, at the sunrise. "I am going to go finish my run."
"Okay, it was a pleasure to meet you."
"You too."
"Rose, you don't have to work every day." I looked at Dimitri. I didn't think my eyes showed that much. They weren't bloodshot, just hooded. Perfectly hidden.
"Yes I do." I whispered.
"Can we talk?" he asked.
"No. I'm going back to the cabin, I'll see to you later."
"You changed your mind about the run?"
"Yes." I walked away from him, what was I thinking? He could have a life with Tasha, not with me. I sighed, disappointment filling me yet again. This was a sucky day. I was tired of disappointment; I just wanted happiness to fill me like it did when I kissed Dimitiri. I entered the cabin and went right for my stash. I took out my *******. I slowly rolled it up, waiting for the strong familiar buzz. I quickly headed out to the back of the cabin. I lit it, letting it go into me. I needed this relief, this sense of belonging.
I sighed as I finished up. I walked back around to the front of the cabin and entered it slowly. I needed a shower to get the sweat off my body… and the smell of illegal substances. I slowly stepped under the shower, letting the water burn holes into my back. It was almost painless now. I liked the pain it caused. What have you become? Someone sick and twisted. I hated arguing with myself at times, they said it was the first sign of insanity. Oh well.
I was tired, yet I didn't want to sleep. The sun was up and Dimitri and Alik weren't back yet. I made a fire, since the days were to cold. It was always cold enough to feel your insides churn. It was an almost painful cold. I had nothing to do. I thought about what would be fun, but instead I did the last thing I expected I would do. I went over to my bed and pulled out the boxes from underneath it, looking at the tag, 'Our time in Russia'.
I slowly opened the lid, seeing all the memories, they hit me hard. I pulled out the one from our times stripping. I looked at the biggest picture, it was probably 12 by 14. It had Lissa and me on stage in our doctor uniforms. A sob was building within me. Liss and I were bent backwards as two hot Russians slid hundred dollar bills into our breasts. The guy that paid me also ordered me for after my shift. That made me laugh, he did a lot of things to me that weren't exactly predicted. I set down the photo and went to the next. The twins and us on their laps, we were dramatically posed. I missed that life, the happiness I felt then. The next one would be my last I would look at. I picked it up, looking at Liss and me in front of this gorgeous Church. We had our hands put together, making hearts. I smiled, letting the tears flow down my cheeks. I held it to my chest, sobbing.
I tried to control myself. I looked back at the picture. "We were so happy." I whispered touching Liss's face. I took in a shaky breath. I set the picture back in the tub full of our faces. I slid it back under my bed and let the bed draper hang over the boxes. I sat on my bed. I felt the tears that had dried onto my face. I lay back, my head hitting my thousands of pillows. I pulled my covers up over my body, hoping sleep will come.
I was almost asleep, until the door flew open. I sat up and glared in the direction of the door. "Roza?" I gulped at his voice. I shouldn't be feeling these things. "You're still awake?" I nodded. He walked over to my bed and sat down. "I should have been quieter."
"Yeah, you should have been." I joked.
"Sorry." He laughed.
"It's okay." I looked into those deep eyes, their chocolate brown depths. He tucked a stray hair behind my ear. I grabbed his hand. His eyes were so mesmerizing. His hand wrapped around mine, the other going up to my hair. He knotted his hand in my hair. He looked at me with so much care, so much need. I leaned forward, mesmerized by his eyes. He leaned closer too. Our lips touched, brushing softly. I sighed at the contact. I couldn't take it anymore, I let my hand go into his hair and yank him to me.
Our lips moved together, slowly at first, gaining speed and this uncontrollable need to have one another. His lips were so soft, and his tongue? Amazing, the way he fought mine with so much passion. I pulled him further, with me into the soft covers. He positioned himself under the blankets with me, our mouths never separating from each other. This is what I have been waiting for, for two months. His body was pressed right to mine. My body was on fire, I needed this contact. He pulled away, looking into my eyes. "Roza." I put my finger against his lips.
"Kiss me." I pleaded. I couldn't lose him, not now. He kissed me again, this one long and menacing. I groaned. I felt him against me. I was pathetically needing more of him. I took off his shirt, him taking mine off. We alternated, taking each other's clothes off. He nipped at my neck, marking me as his. I moaned out as he bit my shoulder. He fumbled with my bra, I bit his shoulder, making sure to leave teeth mark. I wanted that bitch Tasha to know he was mine. He slid down the straps, kissing the top of my breast.
"Dimitri." We pushed away from each other, looking at Alik standing in the door way in shock. I growled.
"Are you fucking serious?" I growled out at him.
I held the covers to my body as Alik shut the door giving us a minute to separate ourselves. He put on his clothes, kissing me quickly. "We couldn't have any way."