Kaoru leaned against the door, his legs shaking and his heart pounding in his chest. He wondered if this was the beginning of the end. He was sure Hikaru hadn't heard what he said; part of him wished Hikaru did hear, but a bigger part was hoping that he didn't. While he was still unaware of the changes that affected their relationship, Kaoru knew they were growing apart.
Once he heard snoring on the other side of the door Kaoru sighed. If Hikaru had heard what he said, he wouldn't have let him walk away. Kauro felt another pang in his heart at how obvious the signs of change were. Ignorance is bliss, but once Hikaru's eyes were opened, it might be too late. On unsteady legs he walked to Hikaru's room and lay down on the bed. It was then that he was reminded of his arousal. He closed his eyes.
"We can't share everything." He muttered, one hand gripping the pillow beneath his head and the other gliding down to grab firm hold of his erection. "Haruhi." He whispered to himself.