Entry 3
I failed. He was helping me in the kitchen and slipped on some oil and pulled off my skirt. I couldn't stop myself. I am a failure. I tried to apologize to him but he said not to worry. He expects me to bring him pain? I have to find a way to help him. Maybe I should leave. All I do is hurt him. He knows that and yet is still kind to me. Oh Sempai. I'm sorry. How can anyone not like you? You are the epitome of good. Who else in this world would always be kind to the one that hurts you? What else but an angel could like me after I have caused you so much pain? Oh Sempai, I live for your smiles. Please understand that I just want you to be happy.
It was thanks to your help that I passed the pop quiz in math today. I thank you Sempai. From the bottom of my heart. I think that I shall have to start avoiding you. I don't want to cause you any more pain. Please understand what I am trying to do. Please Sempai, I only want to help. Please forgive me for what I have done. Please forgive me for avoiding you in the future. I see no other way.
Good night Sempai. I love you