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Chapter 3: The Undeniable Truth

Why did Captain Kirk do such a thing to me? It was rash and unacceptable behavior.

"Spock."

And to add to his impulsive behavior, he did it right in front of the door that opens to the bridge, which was seating our whole crew on the other side.

"Spock."

Jim has always been reckless and impetuous; he never seems to follow the logical and rational way to do things. Especially things like that.

"Spockkkk."

Although his act was irrational, it was quite…enjoyable. It was strangely pleasing…

"SPOCK."

Spock jerked his head up to see Uhura looking down at him, her eyebrows pulled together in worry. For a fleeting moment he caught himself hoping it was Jim.

Suddenly the rustling back ground noise of the cafeteria came flooding into Spock's acute hearing. He had what humans called "spaced out."

He felt compelled to engage in conversation with the lieutenant to ignore his thoughts of Jim. "What can I do for you Lieutenant Uhura?"

She sat down next to her commanding officer chuckling to herself. Why did everyone find Spock so humorous when he didn't intend to be? He narrowed his eyes slightly and pressed his lips tightly against each other.

Noticing Spock's facial expression she cleared her throat and straightened her own. "I could always tell if there was something bothering you when you called me lieutenant," she allowed a small smile to spread across her face. Seeing as though Spock's cold look had not changed, she continued. "What's been going on with you Spock? You haven't been…yourself. I almost feel as though some emotion has been seeping out of you." She glanced at him cautiously, careful not to offend him.

Spock's finger twitched as he picked up his fork, perhaps eating his plain salad will ease his now prickling nerves. He was silent - stalling for time while crunching Terran lettuce in his mouth.

"Come on, Spock," she said beaming and leaning in closer to him, "who is it?"

He almost threw up his mouthful of salad at the sentence. He chocked down the lettuce and looked critically at Uhura. "Who is what?"

She sighed but still kept the smile on her face. "Spock, don't forget, I was not only your former student and ex-girlfriend, but I am also your friend. I know when you are feeling…human, and only a selective few make you feel any emotion. You can tell me, you know you can trust me." When Spock hesitated she had to stop herself from laughing like a crazy school girl.

To anyone else it would have looked like Spock was being calculated but Uhura knew better, she could tell; Spock was flustered. The logical and all knowing Spock was flustered. (Yet, she couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy; Spock had never gotten flustered over her.)

"Its Kirk isn't it?" she said casually forking down some dry meat loaf.

"Excuse me?" Spock inquired.

"Come on, seriously, Spock? You're one of the most intelligent people I know, and you're going to pretend like you don't know what I'm talking about?" She threw her head back and laughed, "Oh, this is just too good!"

Spock looked back to see several ship members - including Captain Kirk - peering over to their table to see what the commotion was about. Spock met Jim's eyes only for a moment and he felt as if sparks ignited in his head, when he realized this, he immediately broke eye contact. He still felt stares burn the back of his head.

"Please Nyota, keep your voice down, our crew members are becoming suspicious of your behavior."

"Suspicious of my behavior? They're more interested in you and the captain's behavior with each other, Mr. Spock."

Spock felt himself glow green, and tried to play it off. He was logical, he knew that Nyota was not ignorant; she was bound to figure out his feelings toward Captain Kirk. Wait - feelings?

At that moment he gave up on being oblivious. He decided the logical thing to do was tell her about his conflict - about how torn he felt inside.

"Perhaps we should carry on this conversation some place…more private?" Spock asked.

"Aw, but I didn't even get to finish the meat loaf," Nyota teased. Spock got up and took his unfinished salad to the deposal, Nyota followed behind him. Some people were still eyeing them, but they didn't matter - the only person in that room Spock was interested in was Jim Kirk. Spock glanced at him while waiting for Uhura, Kirk didn't make it obvious but Spock saw the jealousy in his eyes. Or was it hate? A combination of the two?

He saw his captain glare at his communications officer with pure anger; it was the first time Spock saw such raw emotion in him.

"Come on, Spock, we can go to your quarters."

Spock didn't tear his eyes off Kirk until they were completely out of the cafeteria.

"So," Uhura said cupping the hot tea up in between her thin hands, "tell me what's been going on with you."

Spock suppressed a small sigh as he sat down across from the lieutenant with his own cup of Vulcan tea. He thought of the most logical way to explain this without sounding emotional...without sounding human.

"I - I have recently noticed Jim Kirk in a different light…a more attractive light." He looked at Nyota tentatively to scan her reaction, but her features were gentle, her expression was not judgmental. "I believe that this change in perspective has altered my behavior towards the Captain," Spock said averting his gaze. Amanda had always told Spock to look a person in the eye when you converse with them, show them that "you mean business," and Spock was proud to say that he firmly followed his mother's words.

Until today, that is. He couldn't look his dear friend in the eyes while he told her about his dilemma, he was afraid he would give away too much emotion.

"Altered? How so?"

"….Every time Captain Kirk walks past me my heart rate increases. Not only that, I find myself smiling when he laughs, I stare at him for long periods of time for no reason at all…," Spock paused, he was afraid to continue.

Uhura's mouth lifted just the slightest bit on one side. She left the confusion and fright practically ooze out of Spock's body. She pitied him, she could feel Spock being pulled by his Vulcan and human half, each equally powerful, both of them fighting for dominance in his mind. All she could think to do was put one of her hands on his, but knowing Spock's sensitivity to touch, she placed her hand on his arm instead. She gave him a reassuring squeeze.

Spock's head lowered in the darkness. "I have an alarming want to be next to him - to be by his side all the time. My mind is infested with thoughts all related to Jim, the first thing that appears in my thoughts when I awake is him, the last face I envision before I close my eyes is his as well…" The Vulcan grew silent with deeper thought; the more he explained his situation the more he realized the logical truth.

The truth that he had deliberately avoided.

"In conclusion: my life has been based upon Jim Kirk's entire existence. I am no fool, Lieutenant, I know this is no sickness that medicine can cure, but I don't know how to fix it."

"What exactly are you trying to fix, Spock? What is there to fix? You like Kirk, so what?"

"I don't think you understand the severity of this situation. I am impaired. I cannot concentrate on my work; I can longer pay attention to the things at hand. I'm afraid that I'm losing my sanity," Spock's words became more and more harsh, his voice trembling. His dear friend squeezed her hand harder to remind him that she was still here to comfort him.

"Spock, it's alright. It's going to be okay, I'm here."

"It's not going to be 'okay' Nyota," his voice has raised high enough that it would have been considered a scream to a Vulcan. He sighed and put his big Vulcan hand over his eyes and massaged his temples in apparent exasperation. "I'm a Vulcan. It's neither normal nor respected that a Vulcan of my status to react this way to a human male, especially to Captain Kirk."

"If you know how you feel, Spock, then the only way to fix it is to confront your emotions- overcome them. You have to control your feelings, not the other way around," Uhura said firmly.

"How can I possibly do that?" The science officer finally looked up, his eyes glossed over in moisture.

Uhura who was taken aback swallowed and continued, "Tell Kirk how you feel."

His heart nearly stopped at the sound of Kirk's name and the very thought of telling Kirk was like asking him to hug his father. Uhura could feel his uncertainty.

"Trust me; this will not go away unless you tell him."

Spock could only nod his head slowly.

After a moment of silence Uhura asked, "has Kirk said anything about it?" Spock's body instantly jolted the slightest bit with the question. Memories of the event hours before flashed into his mind.

He cleared his throat, "I can accurately conclude that the Captain has noticed my change in behavior."

"Based on what facts?"She asked suspicious.

"Captain Kirk works in mysterious ways, Lieutenant. He does things that are reckless and always seem to break regulation. And yet he does them so light heartedly, so sincerely and…so pleasurably."

"What exactly did he do to you, Spock?"

"Today on the bridge, captain Kirk asked me to step out with him, you remember this don't you?"

"Yeah, I do. I was wondering what he did to you! You looked like you saw a ghost!"

"I can assure you that the very existence of ghosts is improbable, and illogical for that matter. The chances I would ever seen one is zero if not lower ."

Uhura rolled her eyes, "right, my apologies. Please go on."

"Yes, you see, Captain Kirk asked me to leave the bridge with him and once we were outside of the doors he turned to me with that devilish smile he wears so well and kissed me. He didn't say two words to me, he didn't even try to use a Terran 'pick up line' before he attacked me with his mouth."

Hearing Spock use the words "pick up line" was enough to make anyone topple over with laughter, but Nyota kept her composure. "I didn't hear a struggle."

"That is because I didn't fight him, I kissed him back…I couldn't fight the urge to taste him just once," Spock stood up and turned his back to the communications officer.

"What happened after that?"

"We engaged in a Terran kiss for about 2. 36 minutes, it was almost electrifying and a blur. I can't even remember being there and kissing Jim Kirk, I simply I know I did. But that was not enough for him, he had to go on. He released my throbbing lips and he started kissing me the Vulcan way." Spock could fell his own face sear with warmness as he talked about it. His stomach nearly fell to his feet.

"What do you mean the Vulcan way? How did he do that?"

"He rubbed the palms of my hands and licked them. It was unacceptable behavior but I could not stop him. I didn't want too."

"Wow, leave it to Kirk to be a pro at Vulcan kissing."

"Tell me about it," Spock said quietly. "But I was the one to pull away in the end. I didn't want anyone to catch the Captain and First Officer engaging in such lewd behavior."

"You just walked away after that? You didn't say anything?"

"What could I have said to him? I was in a state of shock; I would have regretted saying anything that I didn't think over first," Spock said defensively.

"So you haven't spoken to him since then?"

"You are correct."

Uhura stood up and walked over to Spock, she put her little hand on his broad shoulder. "Listen, I know this is hard for you, it's not easy going through this as a Vulcan, but you can't run from Kirk, he's going to hunt you down until you confess to him. Beat him to it. You control how your emotions will be exposed."

The Vulcan nodded his head once. "Thank you, dear friend," Spock said quietly, sincerity gleaming in his umber colored eyes.

As Science Officer saw his friend out the door she turned around and gave him a tight hug. At first he was unsure whether or not he should return the gesture, but this hug was different from the ones before in their romantic relationship. This one was not a forced embrace- he wanted to show his friend that he appreciated her. He put his hands on her shoulder blades.

Nyota smiled and walked down the hall to her own quarters.

He watched her walk off before he was consumed in the darkness of his room again. How was he going to tell Kirk that he formed an emotional attachment to him? Before he could get the next thought across he heard his door slide open. A familiar (and sexy) silhouette was standing in the door way. It was none other than Captain James Kirk.

Spock taken slightly taken aback said, "Captain, a bit rude to enter my quarters with the over ride code, is it not?"

"Bullshit. Uhura was just in here. I saw your little embrace with her."

"Captain, I don't understand your sudden –"

Before his First could say anymore Kirk gripped Spock's science blue uniform and shoved him on the couch. Jim towered over the Vulcan before roughly laying a kiss on him. This time he forced his wet tongue in Spock's foreign mouth.

"Cap- tin pl- lease st- stop – hnn…"

They were both breathless when Kirk finally let go of Spock's inexperienced tongue. "What does she have that I don't? Why is she so close to you? She doesn't even try. I'm the better lover Spock, you should choose me," Kirk demanded.

"Believe it or not, Jim, I have already given myself to you."

"What?"

"My heart has already chosen you, Jim. I cannot think about nor love anyone else, my entire being belongs to you – whether I like it or not," Spock confessed. Everything was out on the table now, Kirk knew the undeniable truth. But the Captain did not say a word, he was still a little breathless – but that wasn't the reason he wasn't speaking – he was getting lost in his now one true love's eyes. Spock felt like he was drowning in the murky waters of Kirk's pools for eyes.

Kirk leaned in slowly this time and placed his soft lips in his beloved's lips.

And for a fleeting moment in time everything in the universe was right, everything was in its place, the universe smiled in itself.

Next Chapter:

Kirk and Spock on their FIRST DATE. YES FIRST DATE! Can Kirk keep his shit together for the occasion?