3. Realization.
Ichigo Kurosaki
Where exactly are this tears coming from?
The hell I know, but they ain't gonna stop
Why the hell am I doing this,
shedding tears for a hollow?
For the beast I for so long wanted to kill?
Why does my heart feel as though it's breaking?
Why do I feel so alone?
The answer to that would be plain and simple,
Though I'm too afraid to reach and find out
Closing my eyes, I try to will away the tears,
but Whenever I do he's there,
called forth by my memory
His hair, the locks of pure white
and skin untouched by the sun
That maniac grin on his face,
as he swung our sword in a fight
I never trusted him
Never wanted him
Hated him from the very start
Not giving him a chance, not even once
and now I feel guilt and regret for it
Where exactly are this tears coming from?
The hell I know, but they aint gonna stop
Why the hell am I doing this,
shedding tears for a hollow?
Missing the beast I for so long wanted to kill?
Why does my heart feel as though it's breaking?
Why do I feel so alone?
The answer to that would be plain and simple,
though I'm too afraid to reach and find out
Twisting and turning in my bed, I can't seem to find peace nor sleep
My eyes are burning from tears
though it's nothing compared to how my aching heart feels
Everything's a disaster and there isn't a way to fix it
When I stand up in frustration, I see the reflection of myself
A broken figure of a boy staring at me threw the mirror,
Instead of the usual image of his white hair and taunting smirk and
the side-way skies and buildings reflecting from inside me.
Damn, he must be happy now
His damned king has fallen
Raised his sword up in defeat
and threw away the crown
and is Begging on his knees to see the horse
The horse who he himself chased back,
in fear, pure terror,
so to never see him again.
Another to never face this all,
This damned emotions!
Why does my heart feel as though it's breaking?
Why do I feel so alone?
The answer to that would be plain and simple,
But I'm too afraid to reach and find out
Though no matter what, I can't run away
The realization being just behind the door
The door I opened in hopes of finding him
only to be met by darkness and then bitter truth
I have fallen in love with him,
The hollow born within me
I have fallen in love with the beast.
Who I've hated from the start
I rest my head in my hands
before throwing it back
and screaming out in frustration
Come back to me hollow, come back
So that I can get that smirk off your lips
with my own two fists
Bastard, come back
I promise I'll get that smirk off your lips,
so gently with my own.
Damn it, come back
I give you my word
if you do,
I'll give you some time to be 'king'
I'll give you the freedom of taking control,
as long as you don't hurt a human or whole
Why does my heart feel as though it's breaking?
Why do I feel so alone?
The answer to that riddle would be
Because I've fallen for the other half of me
and now that I've realized it too late,
I know that he's not coming back~
Alright then, this is the next chapter of Emotions and I am considering of leaving it this way but I'm not sure yet. Anyway this was my birthday present for Ichigo, (I really hope he doesn't kill me for this) and I hope you, reader enjoyed reading this.
Please leave a review for me if I should just leave it at this or continue it.
but just in case I decided to leave it this way, I'd like to thank you all for reading and I hope you like it.
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