Beginnings Aren't So Simple
Chapter Three: Remember This Moment.
Sakura didn't look back the entire time she ran from the Hokage tower to her apartment she shared with Ino. She could only hope that Kakashi didn't follow her. Her mind was running a mile a minutes as well as her heart. Once the door to her apartment was opened she ran in and shut the door. She leaned against the door completely out of breath. What had just happened?
Her heart continued to pound in her chest and the beating was the only thing she could hear. She brought her hand up to cover mouth as a sob wracked though her body. She couldn't hold it back. Not anymore. She had never been in so much pain. Why was god torturing her like this?
"I want to remember this moment. Forever." She shivered at how deep his voice was. She looked up into those beautiful cerulean eyes. Her heart leaped in her chest.
"So do I," she agreed as she felt him move inside her. The two had been lying like that for nearly an hour.
"You are so beautiful Sakura-chan," he nuzzled her cheek before moving down and placing loving kissed on her neck. "Don't let anyone tell you otherwise." She nodded not being able to find her words. "I just want you to know how much I love you before—"
"Naruto. Please." She pleaded with him. He smiled as he closed his eyes and shook his head. She felt a bubble of pain her chest. Her whole chest felt like someone was squeezing it. Making it harder to breath. "Don't."
"Please listen." He opened his eyes staring right into hers. It was like he could see into her soul. Feel the same pain that she felt. "I left a note to Ino. Since she won't be on the front lines I asked her to give it to you… when she felt that you would need it." Sakura nodded.
"But I won't need it." Sakura said. Naruto smiled sadly.
Her loud sobs echoed through the small apartment. How could this have happened? Why? Why? Why? Why…?
A few hours later Ino pushed open the door only for it to hit Sakura's sleeping form. Ino sighed in desperation. She shut the door before walking to the ledge jumping up she landed on the front patio. She opened the sliding glass door happy that she had left it unlocked. She sat down a large vase of red tulips on the kitchen counter. She had found them on the door step when she arrived home.
She walked over to the hallway that led to their front door. She sighed seeing her pink haired best friend. Dried tears stained the woman's face. Ino sighed before moving to Sakura. She bent down picking Sakura, who didn't even budge. Ino carried her to her bedroom. She pushed back the covers before placing the dead weight kunoichi in the bed. Ino pulled the covers up over Sakura's shoulders before walking towards the door.
She turned around to stare at her friend. Her heart hurt for her. She frowned slight before slowly shutting the door.
"Ino," Ino turned around from the group of young medics she was talking too. She was in charge of the group that was going to be working one the wounded who were sent back.
"Naruto?" she turned around to see the blonde haired boy. "What are you doing here?"
"I need to give you something," he said reaching into his pocket he pulled out a medium sized scroll. Reaching forward Ino took it in her hands before looking at him questioningly. "If I don't come back, I need you to give this to Sakura. And only give it to her if… if you're scared for her own life."
Ino's eyes widened before placing the scroll in her pocket. "Do you really think—"
"I think Sakura is a strong woman. But… I'm scared she won't be when all of this is over." Ino nodded.
"Don't worry Naruto. I'll make sure she'll be fine." Ino assured him.
The blonde woman sighed as she walked into the kitchen. She started at vase of red tulips. She pressed her lips together. She knew it couldn't be for her. Sai was great and all but she knew for a fact he still hadn't researched what being romantic was. So after a few moments of staring at them she walked over and searched for a letter.
She smiled thankful to find one. Who would be sending Sakura red tulips? If anything she should be getting lilies. Lilies were the common flower you gave to someone who was grieving. But tulips? And red tulips at that! Red tulips were the universal flower for undying love. Holding up the card she sighed seeing it was blank. She made a face of annoyance before flipping it over. On the other side it read:
Sometimes things don't go as planned; just remember… life goes on.
Ino started at the white card for a few minutes before placing it back on the flowers. She smiled sadly at it.
Black high heels clicked down the dimly lit hallway. The high heels belonged to non other than Haruno Sakura. The pinkette had taken after her shishou and wearing black heals while working. She wore a red top that came down to a little under her pelvic bone. Two pockets on the front filled in pen and a few soldier pills if she needed them. Under the her first where a pair of black kapries. Over her top was her white medical coat. Her long pink hair was pulled up into a pony tail.
She stared at the patient chart that sat on the wall. So far there were only two ninja occupying the rooms of the Uzumaki Naruto Emergency Clinic. For that she was happy. She placed the chart back in the chart holder before turning down the hallway.
She had agreed to take the night shift. Ino took mornings. Sakura could already tell that Ino was tiring of the clinic. Sakura didn't mind though. Unlike herself, Ino had so much to love for. She was young, and beautiful, and had a blossoming relationship with Sai. Where all Sakura had was a broke team and a health clinic.
Sakura walked down the hallway until she reached the brightly lit waiting room where Moegi sat behind the desk. One of Sakura's old medical journals sat in front of her. Moegi had completely immersed herself in becoming a certified medic nin. She had lost her teammate Udon in the war. She was just as broken as Sakura was.
"How's the studying going?" Sakura asked, sitting down on the edge of the counter. It was then that she noticed the vase full of red tulips. They had continued to be dropped off where ever she was for the past week. From the day she had gone and seen Kakashi to now, she still received them. There was no doubt in her mind they were from him. He was the only one in the village who knew where she was at all times. In fact she had found Wednesday's tulips at Naruto's grave.
The letter she was left with? It is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all.
Friday at the bar she had gotten talked into going to with Ino and Tenten sitting behind the bar. Red tulips. The letter she was left with this time? Don't fear tomorrow, or regret the past. Live for what's now and never… look… back.
Picking up today's letter she looked it over. My heart smiled when you kissed my lips. What a sweet surprise. She crumpled up the paper before dropping it into the trash can.
"It's good Sakura-san." Moegi smiled at Sakura before going back to reading the journal.
Sakura nodded before looking up at the clock. It was only 2:55 am. She still had a long way to go before her night was over.
Leaning back she thought about their new Hokage. Kakashi. She could hardly believe that he would be sending her these messages every day. All she wanted to do was be sad. Weep. Cry. Be angry. Anything, anything other than happy. Yet every day she would be graced with beautiful flowers. And somehow they made her smile. Every day when she thought her life was the worst her would remind her, that he was there.
At least three times a day some ninja would knock on her door and tell her she was needed at the Hokage tower. And every day she refused. Either went back to bed or got ready for work. Ino had done a lovely job at leaving a vase of tulips in everyone in their apartment causing Sakura to smile every time she saw it. In the bathroom, two in her bedroom, one in the kitchen and two in the living room. And now, one at work.
The two girls looked up as the door opened. Sakura stared wide eyed at the silver haired Hokage. Kakashi shut the door behind him making a quite noise as the cold evening air entered h room. Sakura sighed. She knew it was only a matter of time before he ended up showing up here. Ever since that kiss…
That kiss had changed everything. It had stirred something inside of her that she never wanted to get loose again. She tried to convince herself she wanted nothing to do with what he had to offer but every day those damn tulips made her think… what did she really want? She watched as he removed his Hokage cover and his unruly hair stuck out.
"Good morning Hokage-sama." Moegi said respectively before moving from her set and down the hall way. Sakura looked at the clock cursing it with her eyes that it was time for Moegi to do her rounds. She turned back and looked at the silver haired man. It was like he had this all planned out. She than frowned looking back at the clock. 3:30 am?
"Are you just getting off of work?" She asked, as he moved closer to her.
"Yeah," he said scratching the back of his head. "I never knew that being Hokage would be such a hard job." He said. Sakura smiled lightly.
"What are you doing here?" she asked.
"I wanted to see you." He replied moving to stand in front of her. He brushed a stray piece of hair behind her ear.
"Why are you doing this?" She needed to know. It was killing her. She just wanted to know what had come over the man that was making him do these things.
"I made a promise—"
"You promised him you would take care of me nothing more." She glared.
"You're wrong." He said trying to stay as calm as he could.
"I can't do this right now Kakashi, please… please. Not now." Tears threatened to fall from her eyes. He reached up and slowly brushed those tears away.
He lean forward and kissed her forehead. "If you're not too long, I will wait here for you all my life." Her eyes widened and he was gone a few leafs drifted down from where he once stood. Sakura sighed before hugging herself. Why was life so cruel to her?
A/N
So I was super stoked to find that so many of you like you this! And 30 reviews for 2 chapters! I just had to update. I hope that you guys don't find this two cheesy. It's going be pretty depressing for a few more chapters but than it'll be more upbeat and I'll be able to add in funnier things and what not. Also since I had no one complain about me putting in lemons... there will be some for all of you :D Which I hope makes you happy. So please review!