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Elena is standing in front of the mirror, observing herself and concluding that she still looked the same, although she knew the face of a monster was hiding underneath.

She observes the ring that's around her finger, her own daylight ring.

Damon called Stefan to tell him the news when they were on their way back to Mystic Falls.

On his turn Stefan called Bonnie and asked her to make a ring for Elena.

And now Elena was standing there, the ring around her finger, ready to go outside, but something was keeping her back.

She was still angry at Damon because he compelled her, they didn't say a word to each other on the drive back to Mystic Falls.

They only glimpsed to each other once in a while, both of them not knowing what to say.

When they almost were back in Mystic Falls Elena remembered the second time that Damon compelled her, it made her cry and now the words wouldn't leave her head.

She walked out of the bathroom, finding Damon sitting by the window, he was clearly doubting about something.

' Cute PJ's.' He said.

' I'm tired Damon.' She said, feeling uncomfortable in his presence.

Damon stood up and walked towards her, showing her the necklace she got from Stefan. ' I brought you this.'

' I thought it was gone.' Elena said surprised.

He shook his head, still holding the necklace in front of her and she couldn't stop staring at it, wondering why he didn't give it back immediately.

' Thank you.' She sighed, trying to take the necklace out of Damon's hand, but he pulled it back.

Something in his face scared her, he seemed sad and hurt and she knew that those two things weren't a good combination for him, especially now he had her necklace.

She dropped her hand. ' Please give it back.'

' I just have to say something.' Damon replies while he comes closer to her.

She gasped and stepped back. ' Why do you have to say it with my necklace?'

He seemed confused, not knowing what to answer to that immediately.

' Because what I'm about to say is probably the most selfish thing I ever said in my life.' Damon replied, the crack in his voice undeniable.

' Damon don't go there.' Elena sighed, feeling the tears burning in her eyes.

' I just have to say it once.' He said while he came towards her again. ' You just need to hear it.'

She froze as soon that his blue eyes pierced hers.

' I love you, Elena.' He said.' And it's because I love you that I can't be selfish with you.'

She felt confused, him saying this words made her heart flutter, not that she would ever admit it to him.

' Why you can't know this?' Damon continues with a raw voice. ' I don't deserve you, but my brother does .'

A single teardrop is forming in the corner of his eye and he leans in to her, changing his mind on the very last moment he plants the kiss on her forehead.

She was speechless, all she could think about was that she wanted to kiss him so badly, but she couldn't do that to Stefan.

' God, I wish you didn't have to forget this.' He sighed while he caressed her cheek. ' But you do.'

The moment he compelled her the teardrop rolled down over his face and when she blinked once he was gone, leaving her with the necklace safely hanging around her neck.

She feels the tears coming up again when she thinks about it, when she was crying in the car Damon tried to take her hand but she pulled it away, she didn't want to be touched by him.

Since they came home, she didn't see Damon anymore, he went straight upstairs to his room.

But she did see Stefan and the moment she saw him she wished that he hadn't been home when they arrived.

He almost immediately started smothering her, being his overprotective self, trying to convince her to follow his bunny diet.

She told him she didn't want it, she wanted to learn to control the bloodlust, not suppress it.

He was fine with that until Bonnie came to bring over the ring, she wanted to go outside and he wouldn't let her, what made her angry, even furious.

Who the hell did he think he was, not letting her go outside.

He said that it was too dangerous, if she couldn't control herself she could kill someone.

That did hurt, knowing that he didn't trust her.

She snarled at him, said that he had no right to speak when it came to self control since he was the bloody ripper, not she.

Stefan left after that, mad at her and the moment she cooled off she felt guilty about saying that to him.

Not only about saying that to him, she felt guilty because she did hurt him by saving Damon, she could see it in his eyes, he knew well enough that the moment Elena went to rescue Damon, she chose Damon, not him.

Nevertheless he didn't bale on her, he only wanted to help her and she rejected him, that's what she felt guilty for.

And now she was checking herself out in the mirror, finding nothing strange about herself.

She takes a deep breath before she leaves the bathroom, Damon is still in his room and although she's still mad at him she needs to tell him that she going out.

' Come in.' He says when she gives a soft knock on the door.

' I just wanted to say that I'm going out.' Elena replies when she enters the room.

' Do whatever you want, Elena.' Damon says icily cold, giving her an angry glare. ' You don't have to explain yourself to me.'

The tone in his voice hurts her, but she's too stubborn to admit it, she still feels betrayed by him and he is not getting an apology for her behavior.

' Fine then.' Elena says. ' See you later.'

She closes the door behind her and takes a deep breath again, she didn't expect Damon to be mad at her, she really needs some distraction.

When she comes downstairs she grabs the keys of her car and makes her way to the Mystic Grill.

Damon hears the front door close and to be honest he's glad that's Elena gone.

He can't look her in the eye because he knows that all he's going to see is disappointment.

Why has he been so stupid to compel her? Yes, he did it to protect her, but all it caused her is pain.

And maybe she was right, if he didn't compel her the first time they met then maybe she wouldn't have fell for his brother, he could have been the one who was there for her when her parents died, he could have been the one she fell in love with.

But now she's gone, he doesn't know where she went and with who she went there, if there even was a who.

' You stupid dick.' He snarls to himself. ' You should have gone with her, it's too dangerous for her to be out there all by herself.'

She might think it's easy to control herself with other people around, she might think that it's not a big deal, but the harsh reality is different, it is hard to control yourself, especially when you are a brand new vampire.

If she kills someone, she'll never forgive herself, he knows that and still he did let her go out all by herself.

' Time for you to apologize.' He says to himself while he jumps of off his bed and walks out of his room.

He needs to find her before it's too late, before she hurts someone.

It's not that he doesn't trust her, but he'd rather make sure that she's ok and not feeding on somebody.

' Where could she possibly be?' He asks when he starts the engine of his car and leaves to find Elena.

Elena walks out of a street into another, she's just walking around with no particular place to go.

She went to the grill at first, like she planned, but once she got there it was too crowded, there was too much noise for her to bare and all those people smelled different but oh so good and yummie.

Five minutes after she had entered the grill she already was back out, hungry, frustrated, barely able to control herself.

The cravings got worse each time a different smell entered her nose, what made her leave, the last thing she wanted was to hurt someone.

Once outside the monster inside her wanted to go back in and feed on these people, who's noise frustrated her.

But she didn't, she took a deep breath and walked away, wandering through the streets.

Being all alone gives her the time to think and the memories that Damon made her forget come back up.

I love you, Elena and it's because I love you that I can't be selfish with you.

She feels how her eyes start to tear up, why did she even get mad at him? She knows that he only did it to protect her, that he didn't want to come between her and Stefan and still she acted like a little child, she didn't even give him the chance to explain.

You want a love that consumes you. You want passion and adventure and even a bit danger.

She knows she loves him, she loves him so incredibly much that it makes her heart ache.

Damon is the guy she wants to have eternity with, she even transitioned to be with him in the first place, so why did she push him away the moment something went a little different then she expected?

She turns around to go back to the boardinghouse, to apologize to Damon when she bumps into someone, causing her to lose her balance and fall on the ground.

'Don't you have eyes in that head of yours!' She snarls to the stranger while she crawls back up.

She is furious immediately, she feels the anger flowing through her entire body, her fangs pop out of her gums and she feels the pulsing wrinkles appear underneath her eye.

The guy who walked in on her is frozen when he sees her face, he's too scared to run.

' You chose the wrong day to walk in to me.' Elena snarls when she smells the blood that's running through the man's veins.

She's so hungry and what would it matter if she just took a little bite, it wouldn't harm him and she could compel him after she finished her diner.

Without thinking twice she pierces her fangs into the guy's neck, his blood tastes so good she lets a little moan out.

The guy loses conscious right before she gets pulled back by someone, who she attacks immediately.

But he is stronger then she is and he surrenders her quickly, making Elena roar out of rage.

' Elena, stop scratching me.' Damon says with a hard voice.

The moment she hears his voice the anger disappears out of her body, her fangs pop back into her gums and the pulsing wrinkles underneath her eyes disappear again.

Damon already is sitting with the man she just attacked, trying to save him.

When Elena realizes what she just has done, she starts crying.

She hears Damon letting out a slight sigh before he comes to her.

' He's dead, Elena.' He says softly.

' I killed him, Damon.' She sobs. ' I'm a monster.'

' No, you aren't.' Damon says while he takes her in his arms. ' You only need to learn how to control yourself.'

' That man didn't do anything to me and I killed him.' She sobs, not able to stop crying.

She's feeling sick and filthy, she doesn't deserve to live, she killed that pour man without blinking.

' Calm down, Elena.' Damon whispers while he caresses her hair. ' It's going to be ok.'

Damon's arms around her calm her down, she only lets out a few more hiccups.

When she finally stops crying, he picks her up and carries her to the car, determined to bring her home, where she is save and even more important, where they can talk.

Well, what did you think? Let me know if I should continue this or not.

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