I ask this question constantly now a days. Why am I acting different? I haven't really found myself lost in thought like this before..Usually when I dance it all goes away..whoever now it's no longer the case. I practice ruthlessly the past few weeks. Endless nights of the same taunting song over and over. "Since we're feeling so anesthetized
In our comfort zone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home
We're running out of alibi's
On the second of may
Reminds me of the summertime
On this winter's day
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end"
My body aches as it arches, twists, turns, and flexes to every demanding step of the dance. This night is no exception. One foot points as it steps in front my right and I raise up my arms only to circle the space around me..Finally peace..I feel as if this time I'm mastering the steps. My feet glide smoothly across the polished floors as I accelerate my steps. Finally I spin, On leg bet and pressed against my thigh as I twist against the air. I wonder what it would be like if I spun my partner like this?...so fast and so swiftly that she stumbled upon her own feet and tumbled to the ground….I wobble out of balance as I land heavily on my other foot. "Dammit" I curse under my breath as I slam down the repeat button on the machine. Once again the repetitive lyrics chimed through the echoing halls. One deep breath...and Here I go. However...before I could even start there was a loud banging on the door. I couldn't help but growl as I slammed off the music and sauntered off to the door. Before I could even reach for the doorknob, There I saw through the glass, I saw a dark silhouette of which my eyes couldn't believe.
"Lee...rock Lee" I announce as I opened the door. There a gust of chilling screams of wind seeped into the warm room seemingly faltering the warmth of the room. The boy was hunched over, thin arms wrapped around himself as he slowly entered the room. We stood in silence as he warmed up, rubbing his hands up his shivering arms. Those wide dark spheres turned up to me again as a small apologetic smile graced his face. "Pardon me for the intrusion..Gaara-sa-..just Gaara." he teased slightly as he giggled. I stare dumbly as my throat goes dry. Why is he here? Why isn't he wearing a coat...or regular clothing that is. Lee was clad in short gym shorts and a tank top, which was suicide in this weather. How i want those clothes to be gone. I want to see the skin he is hiding underneath. I wnat to touch his tussled hair and..god I wonder what he smells like...Soon he began to fidget under my gaze and Now I knew I had to how I love the way his body twitches….No no enough of this...He is here for a reason not my silly thoughts. "What are you doing here?" I asked gruffly..that sounded harsher than I imagined it to. Though Lee did not seem to mind as he flashed another smile. "Oh yes I am sorry! I have an invitation to give!" he announced as thin fingers slide inside his top to pull out a envelope. Wh-...where did he store that? I blink a moment as my brow muscles furrow. Soon the long arm extended to me holding a slightly wrinkled white envelope. I swallow thickly as I stare at his thin hand. Oh how I want those hands to...STOP. These thoughts are disgusting. I reach out to take the envelope and slowly tear the flap. Lee stood quietly, bouncing on his heels lightly while watching in anticipation.
There I slowly took a small stationary. Little flowered adorned the corners of the blue tinted paper as it stated. " Dear, of the Suna Elite Dance Company, The Leaf konoha Dance Company would like to invite you to join us in the Mist Meadows retreat to both practice and participate in a pre-assessment to better ourselves. We will spend three days practicing and having mock competitions. Please meet us there the YOUTHFUL location
Address: xxxxxx
Number:xxxxxxxxx"
I raise my eyes again to Lee whom seemed to be beaming with excitement. "Well?! Do you think your team can make it?" I swallow as felt my mouth get dry. The very thought of being stuck in some old cabin with people I hate for three days made my stomach churn. Then another thought was presented to me...Three days with Lee...Three days watching him dance and watching him train...I only wonder what he looks like when he sleeps...or when he eats...sweat...jog...crys..moan-enough. I return to reality as I saw Lee's face contort in worry as he awaited my answer. "Yes eats this shit up…..I'm sure we'll be there" I said softly as I folded up the paper. Lee took a moment to process then clapped excitedly as he cheered. "Oh good! I can't wait!" he jumped up excitedly. The boy was sure strange...very effeminate and over excitable. I simply nod in return, I expected silence to return again before he quickly added in. "Oh I'm sorry I should get going." Before I could even control myself My hand snatches his thin wrist. "Wait!'. What the hell….I've never raised my voice before...let alone touch someone. Slowly My eyes scan down the length of own pale arm to find that the white of my fingers were wrapped around sunkissed skin.
My breath became labored...God I could feel his smooth skin against mine...Soon my eyes scan back up to black pearls which were wide and filled with confusion. "Uh..G-Gaara...You are hurting me" he said in a soft pleading tone. I looked back down and I almost gasped. My nails were digging into his skin as my fingers dug into his wrist. Red marks were forming under my grip as I slowly let go. Lee drew his hand back to his chest and took a slow step back. His big eyes portrayed hurt and uncertainty as he scanned the room. SHit! SHIT! No please don't be afraid. "I'Im sorry...I'm just really tired and stressed out from practice." As if my words were magic all the hurt and fear disappeared from his eyes as he smiled again. "Oh I see! You poor thing!" He clasped his hands together...even though one wrist was forming bruises. Dark rings formed on perfect skin..how beautiful is that?
"Well...How about we get some tea..My treat?"