Chapter 3 :)

The school week passed quickly and to my relief, it was the weekend. But my relief ended quickly as soon as it came when I was given school work from all my teachers. But the school work would also give me an excuse to not see Edward this weekend.

I was now avoiding my boyfriend and my best friend. I was avoiding my best friend as I was worried I may fall for his intoxicating lips. I was avoiding my boyfriend ever since our Monday afternoon chat in the car park. It hurt me that Edward could never fill my needs, physically anyway.

It was frustration me to bits of our kissing style, which is kiss for a few moments, get all excited and try to deepen it to then have Edward pushed me away and shake his head. I could only take so much of this teasing.

And now I was more worried about only small amount of time I had left. So, I tried to talk to my friends more, but in several weeks it wouldn't matter. It was like a time bomb going off. I was going to miss my friends. But at the moment, my heart was missing my best friend. I wanted to see him again. I wanted to laugh again. Happiness seem to be a rare emotion I felt this week. But with time ticking slowly over my head, it had become a dead weight over my head.

I felt sadness where ever I went. There were reminders everywhere showing me what I will be missing when I became a vampire. Edward wasn't helping me feel better either. He was so happy that I confirmed that I was sticking with my decision. I couldn't talk about becoming a vampire to him, it would only upset me more.

So, I told Edward on Monday afternoon that I didn't want him staying at my house at night anymore so I could focus on school more. He reluctantly agreed to my decision.

I cried myself to sleep each night. I knew my numbers were up soon. I felt myself slip into a zombie state again.

Edward and the rest of the Cullen family noticed my food consumption become less and less over five days. They noticed my attention span becoming smaller and smaller. They noticed me zoning out of reality and into a zombie state of mind. Jasper tried to help my emotions but he would just become caught up in them and would drown in the misery I was in.

Edward was worried for me. He talked to Charlie, who tried to help me but I was trapped in my world of despair. I was so caught up in the amount of time I had left being human. I would go over all the memories I had with everyone over and over again until they became a blur in my head.

It was Friday afternoon. The weather was slowly becoming sunny for the upcoming weekend. Edward told me he was going on a hunting trip with his family for the weekend. At least, I think he was. But the good news is I wouldn't be bother by him in my sad state of mind. Edward met me by his car and was going to drive me home that afternoon. After a short and unemotional greeting given by me to him, we were off; driving our way through Forks streets. I faintly noticed the soft piano music floating out of the speakers. I faintly noticed the track Edward was taking me. I felt the car come to a stop and automatically grab my school bag and stepped out of the car. Still caught up in my world, I walked to my mailbox to check for any new mail.

When I noticed it wasn't there when my hand was just grabbing air. I snapped back to reality to take in scenery around me. That's when I realised where we were.

We were at the treaty line. I flickered my eyes toward Edward who was holding one of my camping backpacks. My body froze up when my eyes flickered towards a familiar car parked on the side of the road. It was the rabbit with the infamous Jacob Black leaning against it's hood. He watching me with curious eyes.

I was frozen under his gaze as he took in my form. He probably noticed my bloodshot eyes, my loss of weight and black bags hanging under my eyes. No one said anything for a moment.

"Your right" said Jacob after looking at me, glanced towards Edward. "She doesn't look well. In fact, she looks worse when you left her." I thought he said it with sarcasm. But the tone wasn't right, he was worried.

"Why am I here? What's going on?" I looked at both of them, wanting a answer.

"Bella love, I've been worried about you all week. I've tried to talk to you. My family has tried to help you come out of this state. Charlie has tried after I spoke with him. And nothing saved you from this state. You have been walking around all week like a zombie. It's like your here physically but your mind isn't with you. I couldn't leave you this weekend by yourself. I called Jacob and explained the situation. He was willing to help watch you for the weekend. Which, I have thank you for, mutt." Anger bubbly in Edward's last few words.

"No problem, leech." Jacob put in the same amount of disgust and anger. "But you should know I'm only doing this for her. But I haven't got all day. I've got house work to do for Billy. So hurry with your goodbye. I'll be waiting in the car."

Jacob then casually got off his hook and seated himself in the driver seat. I looked at Edward, about to protest when he held up a hand.

"I'm sorry Bella. I'd rather not do this, but Charlie gave his consent for you to spend time at his house"

"But I'm fine! Nothing is wrong. I just focusing on school! That's all Edward, and stop these stupid assumptions and take me home!"

"No, Bella" I knew Edward was changing his decision about this. But I couldn't stay at Jacob's. What if he tried to kiss me again? I know I wouldn't be able to resist.

Edward then came towards me and lifted my head gently and kissed my lips. My hands automatically found their way into his hair and I moved myself closer to him. Edward's hands were on my shoulders pushing me away slowly. So, I quickly deepened the kiss for the last few seconds and I heard a quiet groan escaped Edward's lips. I thought it would be over then, I thought he would stop.

But instead his hands on my shoulders stopped pushing me away and wrapped around my body. He ran his hands up and down my body, sending cold shivers of delight up my spine. I felt like a I trapped in an igloo that was filled with delight. My body started getting goose bumps as the kiss went on for a few longer moments. Edward wasn't letting me go yet.

My body screamed in joy. I felt spasms go through my body and I started shivering from coldness, but I fought it. Edward hadn't done this before. I didn't want to stop. I felt his cold tongue touch my lips and I opened my mouth in acceptance. The kiss was starting to get out of control, Edward wasn't stopping and I kept pushing physically barriers. My hunger was getting stronger and the coldness was numbing my senses.

And suddenly, I fainted.

I woke up to find myself in the passenger seat of Jacob's car.

DAMN! I thought. Edward would've changed his mind about me going after our small make-out session.

I closed my eyes and tried to remember the memory and replayed it over and over in my head so I didn't have to focus of Jacob next to me. I felt the car come to a stop but I continued to be in memory lane. I heard noises of a car door opening and shutting and opening.

I suddenly felt two warm arms lift me up hold me up against a small wall of heat. My memory forgot about the parting kiss with Edward and was replaying the make-out session I had with Jacob. I remember his hands running up and down my body. I remember him pressing himself against my entire being. I remember everything from that kiss.

Each memory sent shiver up my spine. I hope Jacob wouldn't feel me shivering with pleasure. I could feel myself being pushed into his chest more, so I guessed he thought I was cold.

Phew, he didn't notice what I was really shivering for.

Next thing I felt was being laid down into a soft bed and felt covers being put onto my body. I felt a warm pair of lips kiss my cheek. And then heat in the room disappeared. Jacob had left me to sleep.

Snuggling myself comfortably in the bed, the smell of the room invaded my senses, it smelled like pine forest, oil and rain. It smelt like home. I wanted to sleep the rest of the weekend away to avoid Jacob, but then I didn't. But either way, I was stuck with Jacob for a whole weekend.