My brother is very tall. Sometimes if I'm lucky he will carry me. Everything looks so much different from up high. Is that why he is always smiling. Always happy. Always trusting. Like he can see over the forest of pain that has been planted. Sometimes he will carry me. At those times I am too anxious to keep the breasts formed so I hide them. But sometimes when he holds me I can feel myself subconsciously forming an opening for him. It's happened so often and though I've tried countless times I cannot stop myself when we are that close. He hasn't realized yet. My sweet oblivious brother.
But right now he is at his post and I am at mine. Too far away to see one another. Sometimes it feels lonely. Papyrus is motivated and hardworking. I am not. I use to be. Before all of these time anomalies started happening. Because it mattered. He wants to capture a human. I think he'd be happy if he could just see one. I'm not sure he knows what the royal guard would do to the human if one is captured. I don't want him to know.
My life has been a series of ploys to keep my brother's eyes innocent. And for the most part It's been successful. He's happy. And we might be forced underground, but our home is cozy and safe. I'm content here.
Around noon I meet my brother at his post and we go to grab lunch at Grillby's. When he charges ahead and I fall behind he stops, returns to my side, and picks me up. An opening automatically forms and I hold my legs tight together to keep from responding inappropriately.
"Brother." That word stings every time. Like he's testing if I will continue to lie to him. "You have been unusually tired lately. I know you have not been sleeping well at night is there something you wish to talk about."
"Ha no bro, I'm fine."
"Do not think I haven't noticed how you only have 1 hp. That isn't safe. I know we do not talk about serious things often but..." We arrive in Snowdin.
"Come on Paps. You snow I'm just a bonehead. But I haven't been (snow)flaking on my duties."
"Brother I am seriously worried. You don't tell me anything. I can see how tired you are when I leave to go train with Undyne. Is it nightmares? Do you wish to sleep with me at night?" I most definitely cannot do that.
"Papyrus, I'm fine. I swear. Let's just get some grub. If we don't hurry back, we could miss a human." He doesn't look convinced.
"Brother if we do find a human, how do I know that you will be safe. If they try to hurt you, you might die. Sans, I can stand to think of you getting hurt, so I need to know if you are honestly okay. I need to know why you only have one hp. And I need to know if there is something I can do to keep you safe." Just kiss me my brave prince. Yea no. Not going to say that.
"Paps as long as you are around I'm not going anywhere. You have to believe that." He sets me down and I feel my body calm. I let myself form breasts and I feel more relaxed.
"Let's eat, but I am not done talking about this brother. I am still worried."