chapter 3

A different kind of bella

That night when Charlie came home he came up to check on me. i was lieing on my bed staring at the spots on my cieling zoning out.

"Hey bells", said Charlie

"Hey dad", i mumbled. "dinner is in the oven, just warm it up" i said

"Thanks", "how was school" he asked

I didnt lie to him. figured being honest was easier. "honestly dad, i only stayed to lunch". "i could only handle so much b.s. ". i told him

Charlie nodded and said "Well you went and thats all i asked of you was to give it a shot". "your 18 I cant force you to go".

At that point I got a lil bit paronoid. I thought back to that afternoon and what i had said to jimmy about being 18 and doing what i wanted. i pushed that thought

away and sat up. I had a head rush and giggled.

Charlie stared at me and i had to look away.

"Bella, are you ok"?. asked charlie. "you look really tired and pale and alil bit dazed".

I wanted to laugh at the dazed and tired comment and had to bite my tongue so i wouldn't say "thankyou captain obvious". instead i just nodded and said

"Ya dad i am tired but im ok". "im going to go to bed early".

Charlie just stared at me then turned to go back downstairs. "Night bells". he said. "good night"i mumbled.

As soon as i heard him go back downstairs i reached into my drawer beside my bed and grabbed a joint and made my way back over to the window. i lite a

couple scented candles first that smelled like vanilla. i leaned out my window and lite my joint.

After i was done i shut my window and made my way back to my bed. being the klutz that i am i tripped over a shoe and fell landing on the floor on my butt. i

giggled.

"bella you ok up there" said charlie

still giggling i answered him back. "ya dad i just tripped over a shoe". charlie didnt answere back.

i got back up and blew out the candles and got into bed. feeling relaxed and tired. i had trouble sleeping ever since Edward left but for once i managed to

fall asleep right away.

I never woke up at all during the night. i ususally had night mares. i didnt remember if i dreamed at all. i loved it.

i could hear charlie go out the door to work. i went and had a shower and got dressed. i wore my usual black. i went downstairs and grabbed a snack and

made my way out the door making sure i had a couple joints and my smokes on me. as soon as i got in my truck i lite a smoke and drove to school. i pulled

in the parking lot and parked as far as i could. i lite a joint and kept it low from prying eyes. i wasnt paying attention while i smoked till i heard a bang on my

window. i jumped and looked around. it was only jimmy standing there with a huge gin on his face. i leaned over and unlocked my door so he could get in.

"That was awsome" he said laughing. "maybe pay abit more attention to your surroundings".

i got my breathing calmed down before i answered him back. i handed him the joint and said "again glad i amuse you asswipe". he laughed again. he

reminded me of emmett and the way he joked around with me

when we were done we walked back up the the school. i put on my sun glasses. again everyone was staring at me and whispering. i kept walking

"Ignore them bella" said jimmy walking away to his locker

as i got to my locker jessica came up to me. great just what i needed. jessica to ruin my buzz.

"So i see your hanging with a druggie now. are u doing drugs to"?. asked jessica "god your pathetic bella" she continued.

it was then that i snapped.

"YOU KNOW WHAT JESSICA", i screamed. "YOU AND YOUR PRISSY FAKE FRIENDS CAN FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!".

Jessica's eyes bugged out and she gasped. a crowed formed around us

"WHAT I DO OR WHO I HANGOUT WITH IS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS". at the point i got into her face and lowered my voice. "if you

say another word about me or spread any rumers about me i will find you and knock u the fuck out". "do u understand me jessica".

She nodded and ran away, i laughed. i stared everyone down. ppl began to wisper and stare at me. i dont know where this new found confidence

came from but i liked it. maybe it was the weed or i was sick of the bullshit. Alice would be proud of me right now i thought

"Ya i got it" i said to the crowed. "Im a bitch". "All of you stay out of my way and leave me alone".

I noticed Jimmy in the crowd. he had a huge smile on his face. i smiled back at him and walked into my class. No one would look at me. i sat at the back

i felt great. i could be a bitch . i didnt give a shit anymore what ppl thought of me.

All morning ppl avoided me. it was great.

At lunch i meet up with jimmy at my truck. i got in and let him in.

"That was awsome Bells" said Jimmy. "i'm proud of you"

I smiled "ya it was and it felt great" i said. "this is the new me". if i didnt care, i didnt hurt. "Nice bella gets her heart stomped on and pushed around",

i said. "the new bella is a bitch and will never be used or hurt again".

Jimmy laughed. "with that attitude you need a new name to go with it." "you need a tough name. bella is to nice" he said

i took a puff of the joint and thought about it. then it came to me.

"Then call me Izzy" i said. "Sweet bella is gone, izzy is the new me " i said smiling.

A/N. thankyou to the ppl who have commented on my story. your advice has helped alot. sorry if the story is slow. it will get better i promise. pls pls review

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