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"Are you kidding me" I glared down at Xavier from the stage
"Well obviously" he sounded annoyed "To get the point you must audition, if you expect to just stand up there and look pretty I suggest you leave"
I huffed and stared at him. Why the hell can't I just get the part? He is obviously is new and doesn't know any better, so I will let him slide for not immediately giving me the part. But this will come back to bite him in the ass.
"Well what do you want me to do" I sneered
"Sing a song and act out a line" He smirked
Oh gosh I am definitely not prepared for a song. But I can come up with something. What can I sing that can demonstrate my voice? Since the breakup is still fresh I might as well sing something connected to it.
"I am going to sing resentment by Beyonce Knowles" I said boldly
I remember the song clear as day; the first time Carter cheated I penned it to him to express my emotion. The tears that stung my face as I wrote the letter were already starting to arise. Its better I sing the song now or begin to cry. And based on Xavier's cocky look right now, crying is not the best option.
" wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied
[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
Cause I cant go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment
Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
With everything you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied
[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
Cause I cant go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment
I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment
I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied
[Bridge:]
Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
Lived with Sacrifice
And it's all because you lied
[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
Cause I cant go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm too damn full of resentment
I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's half of me
How could you lie"
The tears that I was holding back began to flow in a steady stream, as I belt out the last words to the song. But there is no way in hell I would let my voice crack. The breakup didn't really affect me as much as it did now. My life just seems to suck. Why couldn't I just be loved by anyone? Not for the Beauty or sarcasm but the true me. The girl who strives for straight A's. The girl who is to scared of to death of heights. The girl who loses herself in the glitz and glamour of school and drugs but always finds her way back on her own.
Why won't anyone love me for me? Embry Knowles the girl with the secret love of Dorito's.
I toke off slow down the stage but ran by the time I was the astonish look on Xavier and that other guy I didn't seem to notice. I went through the emergency exit setting off the alarm. That, I will definitely pay for later.
I spotted my impatient looking driver in the front seat of my car. Oops looks like I forgot to tell him I will be running late but the last time I check he was running on my schedule, I past a few teacher' and student straggling around. Once I was in the car I search desperately for my pot. But it seems I can't find it.
I know I left it in the dash board and there was a secret stash under the car seat. But the pot seemed missing.
"O gosh I need my pot" I yelled hopeless
He cleared his throat "Miss your parents found the marijuana"
"So" I growled frustrated
"So, I lost my job and you will have a new driver and car as of tomorrow" he huffed. I can tell he was trying to hold back his anger. But he made enough money to not raise a pinky for two and a half years.
After that exchange we drove in silence. At least one good thing will come of getting busted again; I am getting a new car.
When we pulled into the parking spot, I exited the car and went straight to my room. It was clean by none other than my personal maid Eva. Of course I forgot my bag filled with homework I needed for the weekend. Since I'm tired I might as well take a nap.
Walking to my bed I plopped on top of the silk sheets and drifted to sleep.
A week later
The whole school knows about the scene. I don't really care since it was none of their business. All I really wanted to know was when I was going to be informed that I got the part, so I can right my speech.
Ever since the audition Xavier hasn't taken a glance in my way and I hope that's not a sign that he gave Vanessa the part. Apparently she was the only girl to show to for the Etta James audition after I erased the names.
"Let's go break into the whine ad champagne" Lucy slurred jumping up and down on my bed.
This was our normal Saturday routine. The girls come over. We drink a little, read Forbes, sleep or even watch the Notebook for the umpteenth time then at night the fun begins. But today I wasn't in the mood for wine or champagne. But breaking into the cellar seemed fair enough. Mother and Dad do deserve it since they hired a person from a third world country who knew about intersection than English as my driver. This was their way of punishment for yet again disobeying them. And if I don't get the part I will be force to attend a relapse class and have my master card cut in half. The relapse class wouldn't be bad but cutting up my credit card was like Louboutin's designers and Yves St Laurent designers in a room together.
The girl seemed to have left for the cellar without me since they are nowhere to be found. I began to go after them but I was cut off by the ring of my new phone.
"Hello, this is Embry Knowles" I picked using my business women tone.
"This is Xavier" I heard a snicker
"What do you want leach" I rolled my eyes
"You got the part wolf" again I heard another snicker
"I know I would" I stated sarcastically
"Great so I will see you here in thirty minutes"
"It's only 3 in the afternoon" I growled "There is no way in hell I am leaving the house so early"
"Miss Knowles when you audition you volunteered to lend yourself to my play" he was angry "So if you want to stay in this play get you pretty ass here in the next thirty minutes"
I hung up after that and went in search of the girls. I found them with two empty bottles giggling on the floor. I grabbed the bottle from Elle and downed it. I am not usually a drinker but today was going to be long day.
I went in search for the Ace of Spade which was nestled in its own cabinet. This was mom and dad's favorite. And since I am their only child it is only fair that I drink it.
An hour of drinking later
"O gosh I have to get to play rehearsals" I said bewildered
"Butt the party is just getting smarting" Lucy slurred
"She is drunk" Elle laughed
"Yup we all are, now go to the car I'll be there in a minute" I ordered
Elle guided a stumbling Lucy out the cellar; I breezed past them and made a dash for my room. Once I was inside I through off my cloths and put on something new I got grabbed my phone and Alexander McQueen Clutch. Once I was done the stairs to the kitchen. On the island I found my new car keys, grabbing them I ran out the house. Elle and Lucy were in the back seat. I got in the car and was quickly driving to school. The girls were talking about Lexis Steels party. I didn't practically like the second in command cheerleader. And I know she didn't like me so I was definitely going to that party.
Once we were in the parking lot. I hustled the girl to get out. Locked the car doors and ran to the theater. I burst I through the door.
Xavier
"I am here" the female we were waiting for burst in
"A hour and thirty minutes late" I responded
"Sorry we were drinking" the girl from behind her hiccupped
I glared at me from the stage and flung a script at her, which she barely caught.
"Well Embry" my British accent was thick and angry "We are doing open criticize, so we know each other falls"
"I doubt I had fall" she said
"Other than the crying" I cackled "you cannot act to save your life"
"Are you kidding me" she snarled making her way for the stage
"But you can sing" I smiled wickedly
Truth is told. I didn't know if she could act but I did hear her sing and it was a lot better than great. And that is all I needed she was curvy and could sing. So she should be able to do a good job at this role, compared to Vanessa. Who talked her way through Party in the USA.
"You got some nerve" she was a few feet from me.
There was a silence. All the students in the auditorium knew that it wasn't the best thing to piss of Embry Knowles. So while some of them turn their head, other gapped, while other waited in anticipation for the show down. I know she did research on me. And I did research on her too after she warned me about that cheerleader. What I have found is that she is not someone to mess with. Her mother was the person who told the principal ex-wife that he was cheating on her after she got detention for leaving the campus.
"You got some nerve talking to me of all people like that" she stomped
"You got some nerve showing up late to my rehearsal" I replied
"I am the lead if I don't want to show up for opening night I can because I am the lead"
"Well you made a mistake of thinking your irreplaceable" I sneered "I can easily dropped you and make your under study Vanessa the lead"
"There is no way I am giving her the lead role" she pointed to the cheerleader who was watching intently from the back.
"So start from page twenty five" I ordered
"You want me to sing" she said looking down at the first task I had asked her to execute on the page
"Yes"
"Okay"
She began the song. I there was anything I enjoyed more than getting mesmerized by her eyes its hearing her sing.
"I heard
Church bells ring
I heard
A choir singing
I saw my love
Walk down
The aisle
On her finger
He placed a ring
Oooh, oh
I saw them
Holding hands
She was
Standing there
Wwith my man
I heard
Them promise
Til death do
Us part
Each word
Was a pain
In my heart
All i could do
Was cry
All i could do
Was cry
I was
Losing the man"
"No no you are singing it all wrong" I stopped her. She was only scratching the surface of song. Where is depth.
"Bullshit, how dear you tell me that I can't sing" she growled
Well since I was around in the 1960s to actually hear Etta James sing the song, I know well enough that she was singing it wrong.
"Well you are only cracking the surface' I spoke what was on my mind
"You know what get somebody else to sing this because I will not be criticized" she began to walk off the stage but was I grabbed her roughly and pulled her into my chest.
"You are not going to quit" I growled into her ear, and felt her shiver "Do you understand me"
She nodded slowly, and wrestled her hands from my grip. Embry staggered a few feet away. For some reason she is bringing out the worst in me and that shiver that radiated from her was not normal. Especially between a vampire and werewolf. She began to belt out the lyrics to the song again.
"I heard
Church bells ring
I heard
A choir singing
I saw my love
Walk down
The aisle
On her finger
He placed a ring
Oooh, oh
I saw them
Holding hands
She was
Standing there
Wwith my man
I heard
Them promise
Til death do
Us part
Each word
Was a pain
In my heart
All i could do
Was cry
All i could do
Was cry
I was
Losing the man
That i love
And all
I could do
Was cry
And now
The wedding
Is over
Rice, rice
Has been
Thrown over
Their heads
For them life
Has just begun
But mine
Is ending
Ooh
All i could do
Was cry
All i could do
Was cry
I was losing
The man
That i love
And all
I could do
Was cry"
When she was finished people just started at her astonished. I bet they didn't know she could sing. And this is exactly why I gave her the lead. The audience will love to see their golden girl be broken by a few lyrics.
"Take five everyone, I need a word with Etta" I yelled
They all filled out leaving us on the stage together. I take a moment to admire her perfection. The strange green of her eyes, the straightness of her hair. The curves that fit her so well and they were on full display with the sweater and shirt she had on.
"That was the way you should of song for the audition" I smirked taking my eyes of her long legs.
"If you ever put your hands on me again I will snap your neck leech" she snapped
"But I thought you like my touch" I laughed "Judging by the way you shivered "
I pulled her to me. Fasten one hand around her waist and used the other hand to run my hands through her hair. She is quite beautiful but she is a human and a possible love blossoming is forbidden. She stared into my eyes. That though girl act quickly disappeared. Playing with her emotions was a definite no. but their just something about her that I have a feeling I want to explore. Even if it kills me.