~ Hopelessly Wishing ~

Inuyasha and Kikyo

disclaimer: i do not own Inuyasha. sadly.

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CritYouKai: wow, i never considered that. you're right. thanks so much for your critique! would you mind continuing to give me your input on a few more of my stories? it would mean so much and your suggestions are very helpful:) if not, that's perfectly fine! thanks again!

regarding the whole "appearance" thing, pretty much everyone who writes InuKag fanfictions tend to portray Kagome as some kind of goddess on Earth - which, for one, she is (or would be, if she existed outside of a manga/anime), and for two, i find myself doing the same very often - and i found it rather blasé (for lack of a better word), so i added my own little twist to the story. :) i hope you're okay with that!

a/n: sorry for such a late update! i know, i know, i told you that updates would be coming soon, but aaagh my summer has been a lot more packed than i anticipated - hence me falling off the face of the Earth for like a month. or two. or three. but i'm back in action, so here's the next chapter of Hopelessly Wishing!

I slammed the door to my locker shut, patiently waiting for Kikyo to start squealing to her friends, "INUYASHA ASKED ME OUT!"

As I was walking towards my class, everyone parted like the Red Sea, and with dread, I immediately knew why.

Inuyasha stood there, his long silver hair blowing in the slight breeze, and he walked inside the building, hand in hand with Kikyo Sanada.

They turned towards each other and smiled.

Unable to look, I turned and ran.

My throat and eyes burned from unshed tears. Oh, how I wanted to just scream and cry and rip my hair out. But I couldn't.

My head ached.

My heart shattered when I saw them together.

"Kagome!"

Aw, fuck it.

"Kagome! Did you hear?" Inuyasha said excitedly. "She said yes! Oh my God, she actually said yes! Kikyo is my-"

"Girlfriend," I finished for him softly, as if him not saying the word would make it any better. "Yeah, I know. I saw. Congratulations."

Inuyasha grinned, but Kikyo's smile slipped slightly. I winced, realizing that I might have sounded unintentionally sarcastic.

Hoping that it went unnoticed, I turned to Inuyasha, meaning to ask him if he was willing to walk to class with me. Before I could, however, Kikyo's gaze hardened and I flinched, but not before turning back to her and giving her a cold stare of my own.

Inuyasha was talking to some guy on the side, not noticing the tension between his girlfriend and I.

For a few seconds, the two of us continued this battle before I let Kikyo win and broke eye contact.

"Well, good luck in the whole… you know… relationship… thing…" I gestured around with my arms awkwardly, not really knowing what to say.

Kikyo looked satisfied enough. Taking Inuyasha's hand in hers and squeezing it rather suggestively - making sure I saw - she turned and walked away.

It was then that I turned to my locker and attempted to unlock it with shaking hands.

A single tear fell on my finger.

I don't think Inuyasha let go of Kikyo's hand throughout the whole day. They were practically attached to the hip.

Correction - Kikyo didn't let go of Inuyasha throughout the whole day. She was sitting on his lap during lunch. He looked uncomfortable, but everyone decided to avoid commenting on it. It would make him embarrassed and it would piss Kikyo off.

"So," Miroku said, trying to strike up conversation. I definitely didn't feel like talking at the moment - and could you blame me? Inuyasha and Kikyo were sitting right across from me, so every time I ever so much as looked up, they'd be the first people I'd set my eyes on, intentional or not.

Apparently, Inuyasha wasn't in the mood either, because he was too focused on the fact that the one and only Kikyo was sitting on his lap. Yeah, big whoop, Inuyasha.

Sango was oblivious to it all, choosing to eat her sandwich and glare at Kikyo instead.

As for Kikyo? She was perfectly content with keeping her mouth shut and making herself comfortable on her boyfriend's lap.

I know I shouldn't be jealous, but I am. It's just not fair. Everyone loves Kikyo so much because she's so pretty, and she's so perfect.

They also see the bad side of her. Everyone sees the bad side of her (except Inuyasha, obviously). But no one speaks up, because they know that she'll get upset and no one wants to see their Queen upset, now do they?

In reality, they're probably just scared of her and what she'll do if they provoke her.

Trust me, I've been there, and it sucks. There's really no other way to explain it.

Being bullied sucks.

Being hated by pretty much everyone in your school (with the exception of your friends) sucks.

Going through unrequited love fucking sucks.

I sighed to myself, and Inuyasha's eyes suddenly flicker over to me.

I avoid eye contact and instead eat my chicken bento.

Seeing Inuyasha look over at me in concern got Kikyo angry. "Hey, why are you looking at her?"

Startled, Inuyasha jumped a little before looking away from me and focusing his attention on a quite pissed off Kikyo instead. "Huh?"

"You're totally just ignoring me in favor of her! What the hell is that?"

"What are you talking about?" Inuyasha grabbed Kikyo's wrists gently in protest. My heart clenched painfully.

Kikyo shook his hands away and stood up. Miroku was staring at Kikyo in shock, while Sango continued to openly glare at her.

"You are being so fucking rude right now, Inu!" she pouted. "I cannot believe you're doing this!"

"Doing what?" Inuyasha shouted. "What the hell am I doing?"

"You're looking at her! You keep looking at her! You always look at her! Why are you looking at her when I'm here! Shit! And I'm your girlfriend! I'm supposed to be the one getting all of your attention!"

Something in Inuyasha's eyes flashed, and he shot back, "Oh, for fuck's sake, Kikyo! Kagome is my best friend! Of course I'm going to look at her. Do you expect me to ignore her or something?"

Well! Nothing like being friendzoned, am I right?

"Well I certainly don't like how she's always the center of your attention! Get married to her, why don't you, if you love her so much!"

"Babe-" Inuyasha reached out to her, but Kikyo was already stomping away. Hurriedly, he rushed after her.

"Well, there goes our first tantrum," I said, sighing as I bit into my chicken.

"As well as a peaceful lunch," Sango muttered.

"He looked at you for one second," Miroku said, legitimately confused. "One second! Who-? Wha-? Why-?"

"Just don't worry about it, Miroku. Kikyo's just a control freak and needs to get over herself. Just like how you are a pervert and you need to get over your habit of touching my ass," Sango declared, instantly brightening the mood.

I started laughing behind my hand as Miroku spluttered indignantly.

"Those things," I said between my laughter, "don't even remotely relate."

Sango's triumphant grin slipped off her face and was replaced by a scowl of irritation.

"Now I've got a pervert and a smartass on my hands. Lord help me."

I only laughed harder, almost choking on my rice.

The earlier events of lunch were quickly forgotten.

"Are you serious?"

Miroku groaned. "I thought they were over this!" he whispered to Sango and I. We could only shrug.

Kikyo crossed her arms, glaring at her boyfriend, who was glaring back at her. "Hey! It's not my fault you chose to be an asshole!"

"God, Kikyo, I didn't give you a pencil because I didn't hear you, not because I was ignoring you!" Inuyasha clawed at his face, clearly annoyed. "You're so fucking petty!"

Kikyo growled, stomping away once more after throwing an enraged "fuck you" over her shoulder. Inuyasha responded by flicking his middle finger up at her retreating figure.

"Geez," Sango muttered. "This whole thing is getting a little old."

"They're definitely not treating each other like a couple would," Miroku added.

I just nodded.

Inuyasha paced in frustration. I approached him, putting a hand on his shoulder. "Hey, you okay?"

Inuyasha's eyes softened when he saw me and nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine. Just annoyed. How could she think that? I would never ignore her."

"I know." I'd never ignore you. Or take you for granted.

Struggling to push such thoughts out of my head, I tried my best to comfort Inuyasha.

I don't know how much more of this I can take.

Kikyo doesn't know what a good thing she has.

"I am so sick of you treating me like I don't matter!" Kikyo shrieked at Inuyasha, who was cowering at her rage.

"Geez, be quiet, will you?" Inuyasha snarled. "You're attracting attention!"

"Good! This is the kind of attention I should be receiving from you!"

Inuyasha growled at her and ran a clawed hand through his hair. "Could you just shut up for one second and let me explain? I'm trying so hard to not lose my patience here, Kikyo!"

Kikyo shut her mouth at the tone of his voice.

"Thank you." Taking a deep breath, Inuyasha said, "I did not cheat on you. I do not cheat on people. And I would never cheat on you. I would never cheat on anyone… but that's besides the point," he added quickly, realizing that Kikyo did not like how he implied that their relationship would one day come to an end.

That's not his fault. High school relationships don't usually last a day after senior year ends, unfortunately.

And what, does she expect him to still be bound to her even after they're both dead and she's busy burning in Hell?

Uh, no.

"Well then why were you talking to that girl when you promised me you'd wait for me after Math was done?" Kikyo demanded, obviously not taking his word for it.

Another thing about relationships. You got no trust, you got nothing. You might as well just break up. Trying to develop trust would be nice, but it's harder than most people think.

"You mean Kanna? Kikyo, she's in eighth grade! And all she told me was that the baseball game's postponed till next week!"

Kikyo's eyes flashed. "And how would she know that, hmm?"

Inuyasha sighed. "Kikyo! She is Coach Naraku's daughter!"

Finally realizing that she would never win this argument, Kikyo lowered her eyes. "Oh. Sorry."

No one in their right mind would accept such a half-assed apology, but at this point, Inuyasha looked so fed up with Kikyo's accusations that he didn't care anymore. He simply waved her off and walked away.

"Now what was that?" Kikyo shouted, her temper having returned full-fledged, causing everyone around her to sigh. "I apologized to you and all you can do is wave at me and walk away?!"

Finally losing his temper, Inuyasha turned and roared, "Shut the hell up! I am tired of this, Kikyo! Just leave me alone!"

"Fine!" Turning abruptly, Kikyo ran away, fake tears streaming down her face.

If she was expecting Inuyasha to run after her guiltily, she was wrong, because all Inuyasha did was roll his eyes and make his way to period 6.

"Honestly, all you do is hang out with them and it's seriously pissing me off!"

Inuyasha took a deep breath, trying desperately to stay calm.

"Fuck, Inuyasha, I'm getting really tired of this shit you're putting me through!"

Kikyo pointed an accusing finger at us. "It's either them… or me."

I choked on my ramen noodles. Sango's beef fell right out of her mouth, and milk streamed out of Miroku's nose.

Inuyasha looked like he was about to explode from rage.

"Choose, Inuyasha. Now."

"Ki-"

And then I realized I had had enough.

"Shut the hell up, both of you!" I snapped, making my way to them and standing between them. Kikyo's eyes narrowed.

"You guys are so immature. Kikyo, you're a petty little brat and Inuyasha, stop provoking her."

Kikyo backed up, but Inuyasha looked pissed off.

"I'm not trying to-"

I sent him a deep, angry glare and he backed off. Kikyo did not like this exchange, obviously, because she scowled at me.

"Oh, look, Fatty is trying to be authoritative!"

Inuyasha's eyes widened sharply. Miroku looked pissed as hell and Sango was practically burning with rage.

"What did you just say?" Inuyasha growled.

As for me?

Well, I'm used to this kind of treatment. Holding a hand up to Inuyasha, telling him with a single glance that I got this, I turned to Kikyo.

"Do you even know what that word means?" I retorted, and felt my lips curl into an evil grin when she averted her eyes.

"Uh - well - t-that is - um -" she muttered pathetically, and it took all of my self-control not to laugh out loud.

"Oh, look, Miss I'm-A-Bitch is trying to be smart!"

Kikyo's eyes narrowed once more, but I glared right back, unwilling to step down. Not this time. I'll pay for it later, but not this time.

How could she do that?

Even as his girlfriend, Kikyo has no right to try get between Inuyasha and his friends! She has no right to make him choose between us! Who said he can't have both?

Finally, Kikyo snorted before turning on her heel and stomping off toward her next class.

Tackling me in a huge hug, Inuyasha laughed in my ear as he thanked me for my assistance.

"Dude, that was so cool," he said. "I cannot believe you told Kikyo off like that."

I merely grinned at him.

"Damn!" Sango laughed. "She must be sooo mad right now."

"Probably," I replied as I high-fived Miroku.

Like I said - I'll probably pay for this later.

But seeing Inuyasha genuinely smile, seeing him relaxed for the first time since dating Kikyo would be worth it.

a/n: as you can see, i have changed the format of my titles. it just looks better to me - neater, i guess. keep an eye out for the next chapter!

adieu,

shadow