All recognizable characters and Twilight are the property of Stephanie Meyers.

Authors Notes: I am Still absolutely amazed by the positive feedback for this story. Thank you everyone for your reviews, follows and favorites. This chapter was going to be much longer but I cut it in half, so I could get this chapter out to you sooner. I am currently writing without a beta, if anyone is interested please pm me. On my profile is a very eclectic playlist for this story, if anyone is interested.

Warning: Trigger warning: This story will deal with some very difficult and sensitive subject matters. I will try and approach them in a delicate manor. Bella has dissociative Identity Disorder. There will be references concerning drugs, alcohol, self-harm, rape, childhood abuse, sexual, emotional and physical. There will be a polyamory relationship between Bella, OOC / Jasper / Paul. There will also be M/M slash in this story.

Cracked eggs, dead birds

Scream as they fight for life

I can feel death, can see its beady eyes

All these things into position

All these things we'll one-day swallow whole

And fade out again and fade out again

~ Radiohead – Street Spirit (fade out)

Bella's dream / memory

I feel myself drifting into a deep sleep, where my memories and dreams seem to fade together. I was three years old and even at that young age, I knew my life was changing forever. I remember feeling shy and hesitant as I padded barefoot across the living room, to my Grandmother Swan. I was there to say goodbye and I did not want to. I loved my grandmother and Father more than life its self. I hated that my mother was taking me away from the only people I knew.

Nana Swan smiled at me and reached her arms towards me. "Come give Nana a hug."

I run to her, jumping and flying into her arms. She giggles and held me tight. "I love you so much, my little Peaches and I am going to miss you."

"I'm going to miss you too Nana! I don't wanna go." I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

There were unshed tears in her eyes as she smiles down at me sadly. "I do not want you to go either but the courts said you have to go live with your mommy."

"Well I think the courts are stupid!"

She whispers softly to me, "I think they are stupid too. I know I tell you not to say that word, but this time I agree. Just remember no matter how far away you are, you will always be in my heart.

"And you are in my heart."

She gently places her Finger on the tip of my nose. "Boop!"

I Giggle and then place the tip of my finger on her nose "Boop!"

We laugh together and then she looks at me seriously. "Peaches I need to tell you some very important things. I know you may not remember it all, but I want you to try."

I nod my head yes. "I'll try."

"You are a very special young lady."

"I am?!"

"You really are."

"well, how special am I?"

"You are so special and so loved, that there are many parts of yourself and also souls that live inside of you. They want to help you on this new journey in your life."

"Many parts of me? And many souls inside me?" I think about it for a moment without understanding. "what do you mean?"

She smiles down at me. "Think of all the people that love you and want to take care of you. Imagine that they live inside of your head."

"Hummmm; That seems very crowded."

"It can be, but you will not always remember every one of the souls, or even every part of yourself. It's a tool, that will help you through some difficult times"

"How do you know all this Nana?"

She taps me gently on the forehead. "I can see things other people cannot see."

"Can I see these things too?"

"You will and that is what makes you very special, my little bird."

"I'm a bird?"

She nods her head a smiles, "yes, you're a sweet little bird!"

"Chirp, chirp!"

She laughs, "More like Caw, Caw."

"Caw, Caw!"

She laughs, "Now you sound like my little bird."

I sit up straight and tall and grin with pride. "I'm a bird!"

"That you are! Now, remember to always pay attention to your dreams. Those dreams with prepare you for what is to come, and someday when the time is right, you will fly."

I jump off Nanas lap and pretend to fly around the room calling out, "Caw, caw! Chirp, chirp!"

Coming back to consciousness I look around me and I am confused. The last thing I remember my mother was yelling at me, about to hit me with a whiskey bottle. I am now sitting on a plane and I am not sure how I got here. I feel like I'm fucking losing my mind. Nothing is as it seems, and I have no idea who I am half the time. I feel like something is missing. I'm hoping that when I get back to my home in forks, the pieces with start to fit together. Thinking about the dream, I realize how much I miss my Grandmother. I hope she still loves me and I am nervous about seeing my father too.

Charlie's POV

Waiting for Bella to come through the Baggage claim at the airport, I feel my nerves racking through my body. Everyone around me is excited and holding fun signs too great their loved ones. Its then that I realize, I'm standing here with no sign, It's just me and I hope that's enough. I love Bella with all my heart and soul, and I hope she know how glad I am that she chose to come to Forks and live with me. I have no idea what changed Renee's mind to let Bella move back here, but I am forever grateful. Over the years I wanted to go to Arizona and see Bella, or have Bella come to forks to visit. Every time I tried to talk to Renee about it, she would threaten to reveal my families secret. As much as I wanted to fight to see my baby girl, I knew I had to keep her safe. If my family's true nature came to the surface, it would put us all in danger. Up to this point I have lived my life feeling very alone and divided. Bella and I were able to talk on the phone from time to time. Those talks always made my day brighter but a few days later, I always felt depleted once again. There have been many times over the years that I just wanted to say 'Fuck it!' And risk the danger.

When I finally see a glimpse of Isabella walking through the door, my heart drops into my stomach. I feel my eyes well with tears. As a police chief, I have seen some tragic cases of child abuse and neglect over the years. Her eyes are haunted, dark and sunken in. Her body is frail and thin; her skin is ashen. As she walks through the crowd, she is holding herself in a very guarded and frightened manor. For the first time I know for sure, I should have fought harder. Danger be damned!

I am lost in thought for a moment; trying to figure out how this could have ever happened. Renee was such a loving and nurturing mother. She would have done anything for her family and children. I should have known all these years, with how she acted during our phone calls. I just figured she was going through a lot of pain and grief. Maybe I was just in denial about the whole thing. But I would never have thought she would let any kind of harm come to Bella.

Isabella is looking around the baggage claim slightly lost. When I approached her she looks at me with wide and haunted eyes. I am startled by the child like voice that comes from her. "Daddy?!" She hugs me fiercely and my whole body shakes in her embrace, unshed tears begin to fall and I can tell she is crying too. I'm not usually an emotional person but life has brought me far. When you lose the ones you love and they return back to you, it is like the flood gates open.

She pulls away from our embrace and before my eyes, I see her whole mannerism change. She is guarded once again. When she speaks her voice is that of a young woman. "Hi dad." She stutters a little bit. "I.. I.. Hope It's okay that I came to live with you?"

Gently I touch her arm and she tenses away from me. "Bells, I am very happy that you decided to move to forks."

She lets out a relieved breath, "me too."

The conversation in the car is awkward and strained, neither of knowing what to say to each other. The closer we get to forks, the heavier my heart feels. I have been debating if I should ask Bella, if she wants to go to the cemetery and visit Ian's Grave. She was only three years old when her twin brother Ian passed away, and I wonder if she even remembers that tragic night.

~ Flash back ~

I looked over at my beautiful wife and the soft glow of candle light, caressed over her naked body. Renee rolled over in the bed next to me with a huge smile on her face, the afterglow of our love making gleamed in her eyes. She whispers ever so softly. "I love you Charlie."

I lightly touched her cheek with my fingertips. "I love you too." Gently I caressed my hand down her neck and chest, gently cupping her breast in my hand, rubbing my thumb over her hard nipple.

She giggles and playfully bats my hand away from her breast. She gets out of bed and smiles at me. "I'm going to go check on the children."

Renee turns on a light and then blows out the candles. She teases me with her tantalizing body, wiggling her hips as she moves around the room. I sigh in satisfied frustration. We may of just made love but I could easily go for another round. She wrapped a silky pink robe about her body and walks out of the room, she kisses her finger tips and blows me a kiss. I had no idea at that time, how tragically my life could change in a matter of seconds.

I heard a blood curdling scream echo throughout our small two story home. I pull on some pajama pants and ran out of the room frantically. I could hear Renee desperately calling our children's names. I wrap her in my arms as fear grips at my soul. "Renee?" I could not bring myself to say more than her name, I already know what she will say next.

"They're gone Charlie, our children our gone, I can't find them anywhere and our front door is wide open!"

"We will find Ian and Bella, it will be okay, let me call the station, we will get everyone we can to look for them."

I hear her slightly whisper. "it's not going to be okay, you can't promise me that."

Closing my eyes, I take in a deep breath and I know she's right. I felt my whole world crumbling underneath my feet. Looking out into the dark forest, I instantly knew my kids were lost in the woods. It felt like something unnatural was pulling me in, daring me into a hypnotic poison of ill-fated destiny. I grabbed my gun and phone and headed out into the forest. I called the station and they said they would call everyone they could, and get a search party going.

I hear Renee Calling out to me, "Charlie where are you going?" I heard her go into the house and came back out with two flashlights, she hands me one.

"I fear they may be lost in the forest." We walk deeper and deeper into the trees. It is then that we hear our beautiful little girl Screaming in agony. Her child like voice calling out. "No, no, no! Ian No! You have to come back; you have to come back. You can't leave me! No, no, no!

In a split second my whole world crumbled to pieces as we walked through the shrubbery. Isabella was sitting on the ground, cradling her twin brothers body in her arms. Her little white night dress was soaked in blood. She was screaming at the top of her lungs and her words were incoherent. My Son Ian laid there, lifeless. He had a deep claw mark across his chest, it looked like a wild animal attacked him. I dropped to my knees in front of my children. I reached over and cradled them both in my arms, crying in desperation. Bella gripped her small hand on my shirt tightly, wailing in misery.

Taking a deep breath, I reach into my pocket and grab my phone, calling the station. "You can call off the search party, we found them in the Forrest behind our house. Bring the ambulance please. "I hear my own voice cracking with emotion. That is when It registers in my head that Renee is screaming hysterically.

I am drawn back into the present. That night will always haunt me. The look on Isabella's Face was the most devastating thing I have ever seen in my life. She was so broken, all of us were. We never found out exactly what happened that night. All Bella could tell us is that it felt like they were being pulled out into the woods. They could not stop walking, but they wanted to go back home. She said there was a big shadow with red beady eyes. Renee blamed me for everything. I never understood why. God I loved that woman and my children, we had the happiest of families until it all fell apart.

I glance over to Bella and she is staring out the window in a daze. "Bells?"

"Yeah dad?"

"I've been debating if I should ask you this." I see her body tense ever so slightly. "On our way into the town, would you like to go to the cemetery?"

"Why? Who would I want to visit there?" How she says it, there is no emotions or grief just pure confusion.

"I just thought you might want to go see your twin brothers grave, but we don't have to."

She inhales sharply in shock. "I had a twin brother?" She grows silent then suddenly I hear her barely whisper. "I forgot about him. I can't believe I forgot about him... Can we go?"

We drove in silence the rest of the way to the cemetery, both lost in our own thoughts.