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Emily stepped uncomfortably into the room, she took the seat that Hotch used, now cold from the hesitation they all put up. She too took Penelope's hand and hoped for the simple gesture of life from her.
'I got to thank you Penelope Garcia.' She started, she smiled and the tears came. 'You made me feel welcomed when all I thought was that I was the unwelcomed party in the group but you treated me like I'd been here from the beginning and I'm scared that if you go, I'll lose that feeling. I know that's selfish and if anyone has to tell me that I want it to be you that does it.'
'There's a whole family out there just willing you to wake up from all angles, I mean I'm scared Derek's going to burst a vein if he bottles up anything else.' She shifted her fingers with Penelope's. 'I remember the first time I saw you and Derek together, I was shocked to find out you weren't together as a couple, I don't see how you can have so much chemistry going on but not act on it, but I suppose I applauded you for that because you have some many attributes that I wish I had. Derek showed me the family we were the most and I'm glad to be a part of it, I feel like I've been blessed. I mean if you look at us its kind of like Hotch and Rossi are the parents and us lot fall into the grounds of the kids.' She laughed again and sucked in a shaky breath as more tears came.
'I'm scared Pen.' She admitted and let the tears mar her cheeks unevenly. 'I'm scared as I look at you now, I can't cope with you so broken, I need you up and running about fixing us all and being the one that makes us laugh, this, this here isn't normal. It's scaring me to miss your voice and I don't want this to be like it forever.' She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand and felt the eyes of the team on her. 'Everyone's watching me cry now, I've only ever come near to tears before but you, you break me down and make me cry because it's you and whether you like it or not you're like my best friend, my sister and I need two sister's in my life, you and JJ, you're a pair but I can't do with one without the other.'
Emily finished and looked over Penelope's still frame and assessed he injuries that showed up with the sheet over her. 'I know it's probably hurting like hell, what Lynch did that is but that doesn't mean we'll never get over it, you'll bounce back, you always do and I will always appreciate that about you, I need you to bounce back Penelope, not right now but soon for all of us. We won't cope without you.' She spoke those words and stood and left the room, straight into JJ's tearful embrace.