Hey so yea please review :) I really don't know much about the army so I'm kind of winging it, open to facts and suggestions though.

3 MONTHS LATER

"Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit. I can't do this I really can't, what the hell was I thinking?"

"I don't want to go I really don't, please don't make me. Please. Please."

I woke up startled to see Edward thrashing besides me murmuring to himself. Now before you jump to any conclusions, no I'm not sleeping with Edward Cullen, well I am but not what you're thinking.

The night terrors started up about a month after he received his letter accepting him into the army. He is to leave to train tonight.

Why don't you just tear my heart out of my chest right now and stamp on it will cleats? It would be better then the feeling of total helplessness and the ache of abandonment.

His arms were like steal poles surrounding my body refusing to let go. His face was pale and shiny from sweat. The nightmares that seem to haunt him day and night were taking refuge on his body once again.

"Hey! Hey!" I cooed "Edward you're all right your save now, I won't let anything get you" I promised while stroking his hair and face.

The lies continued to pour out of my mouth. Self hatred burned my throat, I can't promise him that. I won't be able to make sure he's alright. I won't be able to hold him in the night and chase away his nightmares. I won't be able to stand in front of the bullets that long to loge themselves into human flesh. God what kind of world is this that my best friend would ever want to enter.

His thrashing came to a stop like it always does when I started humming Clair de Lune.

"What happened?" he shot up straight out of bed

"Nightmares again."

"I don't remember, but God am I glad you're here." He sighed and snuggled up to me once more

I didn't respond, I could only squeeze him tighter, while I waited for the sun to rise.

"Hey so do you have any of that really really good pastry stuff?" It was amazing.

"Anything for you babe." I could feel my cheeks catch a flame and I had to turn away.

For the past week he has been calling me that. Not that I mind of course because gosh that kind of attention from Edward Cullen, the Edward Cullen who would mind that.

Edward and I, well we have a very unique friendship. Even though we have only been friends for a little over two years I feel like I have known him my entire life. Yea corny I know, but whatever. I am uncertain to what extent my feelings are as friendship and what reaches beyond that. I would never in a million years say or do anything about it though, even if I am secretly in love with him, which I'm not, I don't think.

Anyway I would take all the attention I could get from him today as it was my last day with him for god knows how long. Yes if you're wondering, I did make it through school, although I tripped on the way up the stage to get my diploma, 3 guesses who caught me. I'll give you a clue; he's my own personal guardian angel.

"What do you want to do today?"

Bask in your glory and tie you to my bed, WOAH where did that come from?

Of course I blushed after that little inappropriate thought,

"Um, whatever you want" I would follow him to the ends of the earth if I could,

Unfortunately the universe was preventing me from even following him onto the plane tonight; I doubt they would even let me near the ends of the earth. Damn you.

Luckily Edward seemed to have no clue where my thought processes were headed today.

"How bout we go to the meadow, you know so I can kinda say my farewell."

The damn tears were back, "Sounds great."

He gave me a painful look and we headed towards the door. And I didn't even get to have my damn pastry, this was going to be a great day.

Breathtaking, no matter how many times we came to this meadow, that's the only word that ever seems to fit. The flowers and the trees, the pond and how the wind rustles the grass to make it seem like no force on earth could ever touch it and ruin the perfect rhythm it keeps. How one look up at the sky, on a sunny day would be enough to make the hardest criminal want to take it all back. Every bad thought every hurt and pain just disappears until it's you and your hopes and dreams left.

Edward gives me a knowing look and takes my hand.

We walk to the middle of the open space and plunk down on the greenest grass like that's the only place we will ever belong to.

He raps his arms around me and mine around him until our breathing matches and our chests rise in sync.

I know he has come here to say goodbye and I know that he is confused and hurt about leaving me, just as much as I am about him leaving, but at this moment, no words need to be spoken.

I understand, and for just this split second in time, everything is alright.

I can imagine the future, our reunion, our life together. Although we may not end up being husband and wife, and that's ok, as long as he's in my future, as a friend or as a lover I know I can get through anything.

Please Please review! Should I continue or quite while I'm ahead?