Forever doesn't exist when your human…but my life did return to a resemblance of normalcy…I was distant from Edward…I needed some space…I was trying to get everything back on track…it had been several months since that night…and I thought of Jacob often… I tried to understand why he did what he did to me. I could never come up with anything other than he thought he loved me and wasn't able to show me…so he went to the extreme.
I was feeling very tired…I had been a bit lately. But nothing more…but something just didn't seem right with me. I suddenly was very nervous…I needed to know…. I suspected…but I needed confirmation.
Then I had it…staring back at me…. 2 pink lines…. I was pregnant! This wasn't possible…it couldn't be happening to me…it didn't occur to me…. I had tried to put the incident out of my mind…so much so that this never occurred to me.
I couldn't deal with this…ever…it was too much for me…I was breaking apart piece by piece.
I knew what I needed to…I knew where I needed to go. I drove fast…I wanted to make the invisible vampire werewolf boarder before Edward could stop me…
I drove my truck thru town…and up to the cliffs…I needed to think…needed to be alone.
Once at the cliff edge I sat down…feet dangling off the edge. I sat there for what must have been hours. I just kept crying…I couldn't stop…I was desperate.
"Bella? What are you doing here?" it was Jacob's voice 'Bella…please come away from the edge…" he said nervously
"Please just leave me alone Jacob…" I pushed back to stand up…looking at Jacob for the first time since it happened. He looked tried to look away from me…his guilt getting the better of him
"Bella, I never meant to hurt you…I love you."
"Never meant to hurt me. You've done more than hurt me!" I yelled at him
"I loved you too Jake…but you ruined it…you took everything from me…"
"I'm so sorry, Bella…please…"
"Not as sorry as your going to be…!"
"What are you talking about Bella?"
"A day like this typically is a joyous one…full of love…" I choked out
"Bella, are you okay…your sounding…"
"What Jake…I'm sounding crazy! Why wouldn't I be a bit crazy! I have every reason…" I continued "look at me Jake…look at what you've done to me…"
"Bella…I'm…" he reached for me
"God Jake don't touch me…it's bad enough that I have a part of you in me…"
"What did you say?" he asked
"You heard me Jake…I'm pregnant…with your baby!"
"Bella, move away from the edge please…" he asked cautiously
"Why would I do that Jake…you've taken everything away from me…and left me with this!" I said grabbing my stomach "You were my friend Jake…I loved you…I feel betrayed…I feel…. bad Jake…. I don't want to feel anymore…"
"Bella, we can work this out…everything will be fine…lets go to my house and talk. Please don't do this…Bella?"
"It's too late to talk…I wish I could want this baby Jake…but not like this…"
I noticed that he was slowly coming forward, I stepped back
"Please stay away from me Jake…I'll just go!" But he kept coming closer…his eyes were worried…full of sadness. I stepped back, onto a rock and lost my footing. I fell backward, falling off the cliff into the ocean.
Jacob's POV
I had been running patrols and picked up a familiar scent…a scent I hadn't picked up in months. I followed the trail, and saw Bella sitting on the edge of the cliff. I phased and got dressed. What could she be doing here? I thought I would never see her again.
"Bella? What are you doing here?" I asked 'Bella…please come away from the edge…" I was real nervous
"Please just leave me alone Jacob…" she stood up and looked at me…I tried to look away…but I couldn't…she was beautiful…& I felt guilty as hell for what I'd done.
"Bella, I never meant to hurt you…I love you."
"Never meant to hurt me. You've done more than hurt me!" she yelled
"I loved you too Jake…but you ruined it…you took everything from me…" she continued
"I'm so sorry, Bella…please…"
"Not as sorry as your going to be…!"
"What are you talking about Bella?" what did she mean by that
"A day like this typically is a joyous one…full of love," she cried
"Bella, are you okay…your sounding…"
"What Jake…I'm sounding crazy! Why wouldn't I be a bit crazy! I have every reason…look at me Jake…look at what you've done to me…"
"Bella…I'm…" reaching for her
"God Jake don't touch me…it's bad enough that I have a part of you in me…"
"What did you say?" oh my god, did she just tell me that!
"You heard me Jake…I'm pregnant…with your baby!"
Bella is pregnant with my child…I wrongly took her…I took her by force. But out of that hateful act…something good…something pure…a baby…our baby.
"Bella, move away from the edge please…" I said cautiously
"Why would I do that Jake…you've taken everything away from me…and left me with this!" she said grabbing her stomach "You were my friend Jake…I loved you…I feel betrayed…I feel…. bad Jake…. I don't want to feel anymore…"
"Bella, we can work this out…everything will be fine…lets go to my house and talk. Please don't do this…Bella?" She was going to hurt herself…maybe even the baby
"It's too late to talk…I wish I could want this baby Jake…but not like this…"
Oh god…what is she doing, I slowly stepped towards her...she took a step back
"Please stay away from me Jake…I'll just go!" I moved towards her again, I was worried…for her…for the baby…our baby…
It all happened rather suddenly…she took a step back, loosing her footing, & she fell backward off the cliff. I reached out for her but couldn't grab her in time.
"Bella! NO! Bella…I'm coming!" I screamed jumping in after her. I needed to save her…needed to save the baby…. the baby that she may not want…but I did…I only saw hope in the situation…
When I reached the water…I quickly looked around. I couldn't see her…"Bella! Bella! Please where are you?" I cried out